LABELLASOUL * LA BELLA SOUL

BREAKS MY HEART

2012-02-21T12:42:00.000-08:00

Keep It On The Low
So Nobody Know
So We Can Focus On Us
Baby It's You I Trust
But I'm Loosing Faith
Showed You That Love
Hope You Still Feel The Same
I Know You're Young
I'm Younger So What Can We Do
I've Mainly Been With
Dudes A Lot Older Than You
Have Me Feelin' My Young Ways Again
I Don't Wanna Get Caught Up
I'm Thinkin' It's Already Too Late
The Way I Feel About You
No Body Could Take That Away
I Mean You Already Crushed My Heart
My Hearts A Little Cold
Sometimes It Can't Feel Shit
But It Could Feel You
It Felt You
Back & Forth
Over & Over Again
How Could You Put Me In This Position
I Respected You
I Thought You'd Listen
Did I Have Too Much Faith ?
Never That
I Have Even More Faith
More Belief
That One Day You'll See
You're The One For Me
& I'll Wait For You
But While You're Fuckin' Around
If He Comes He Comes
& If The "He" Is You
Then What Are You Running From
I'm Right Here, I'm Right Here
You Must Think I'm Strong Enough
To Get My Heart Broken Again
The Fuck You Think You Are
Don't Be Just Another
I Never Thought You Would Be
Just Another - Breaks My Heart
I Might Have Asked Him
To Put Me Through It
Subliminally Prove It
But What I Had In Mind
You Ain't Even Do It'
Ain't Close To Startin'
Said You Ain't Ready
Visually - You Seem
Pretty Damn Ready
So Do What You Want
I Know What I Want For My Life...
Breaks My Heart.

Friends ?

2012-02-21T00:23:00.000-08:00

I know it sounds good
You could be living better
Have that dude you always wanted
Dress you up in fur and leather
But its all just a day dream
Hour after hour, another hour away
Another hour closer, another night closer
Another stack to save
But you young
And not thinking twice
So you spend it
Cause your friend, she act nice
Expensive dinners and name brand stores
A couple pair of underwear here and there
J'adore Juicy Couture
& The pussy purrs
But who do you want it
To purr for
What do you want
Out of life
How do you want to be sleeping
At the end of every night
Who are your friends
And what are their aspirations
What do they like to do day to day
And how do they treat you
Do they have respect
Or do they beat you
And tear you down with
Their bullshit
Tell me
Are you just used to it
Or do you know its wrong
But hold on
There's a motive
Always a motive
Gotta pay the rent
So much time spent
Oh wait, fuck that
What you even doing it for
Basically no bills
I'm sure you get thrills
But you haven't met him yet
& If you did would you want
Him to know you like this ?
Would you want to expose yourself
Wouldn't you want him to
See you as you should be seen
Before the recklessness
Before the misguided daydreams
I tried to tell you
And I'll keep telling you
Again and again
Why, why the fuck ? you ask me
Cause' ... Cause' your my friend.

Girl...

2012-02-18T14:35:00.000-08:00

This is really real
Are you ready to deal
Tyna' help you
But sometimes I encourage
This friendship
Means a lot to me
& You're my girl
I don't wanna fuck you up more
But you're already there
& I'm the one who cares
So listen to me when I say
Sometimes the easy way is not the way
& How easy is it really
Taking a toll on your body and mind
Girl take some time
Think where you wanna be
& If you're livin' right...

Taking Time:

2012-02-18T14:32:00.000-08:00

I couldn't ask for anything more perfect
I truly feel in my heart, this time I deserve it
I deserve to feel your love at it's finest, yeah
You went and did it now I'm thinking about what we have
I wanna let you know
I know you ain't ready
But my heart feels heavy
It's ready to pour out my love for you
But if you want to sip slowly
I'll let you take your time
Promise you'll think of me
Cause' I think of you
From rhyme to rhyme
I'm wondering how you feel
Anytime you ready baby..
I could be yours
You could be mine...

Right Now...

2012-02-15T03:06:00.001-08:00

Feed On That Seed

2012-02-15T02:19:00.001-08:00

Stressin' yourself
Drinking and smoking
You didn't use to smoke
& When you I'm not around
I know you choking
I swear you floating
Unable to grasp reality
Like how you livin' like that for
How many drinks you gonna let him pour
Girl what you even doing there
Girl I swear you don't even care
You claim it's all good
Unaware of the dangerous life you living
You see others living it content
But you don't know how much time they put in
How much time they spent
How many sacrifices they made
How much of themselves they had to change
Without even knowing most of them
Adapt to the game and I know you the same
But you just ain't livin' right
& I know it's new to you
But these days it ain't new
So what am I to do
Truly confused
How to save a friend in need
Who thinks she's all good
Why can't she see
Probably gettin' talks
From nothing but birds
How can I show her
I'm all out of words
If you know someone the same
Then I guess you know that
Miniature pain
Have you feelin' ashamed
For not doing something
Feelin' like you don't know
If it lies on you or not
To set them straight
& Let them know whats good
Show them the good things in life
& How we should
Be living
Loving
Giving
Trusting
Feeling
Thinking
Doing
Etcetera
I guess for now
I'll just let her
Notice how the birds flock
But ME
I'm not tryna feed on that seed.

Rule

2012-02-15T02:13:00.000-08:00

It should be illegal to express these feelings
Cause I feel like everyone steal em'
But that's just the darkness speaking
We're all feeling like this for a reason
It takes time to heal and you know whats real
Tellin' him how you feel inside
Even if you feel like you should just cry
Cause you ain't ever felt like this before
Feel like hittin' the floor
It's you I adore
& I told you before
Whats the word
Whats really good
How you feelin
I was thinkin you could
Come and be the one
The one for me
Cause I feel you already are
Just had to let my feelings out
I hope you ain't upset
Cause you're the one I love
So don't you forget
Yeah, and as I slept
I swear I dreamed of you a couple times
& When I woke up you were on my mind
So whats a girl to do
Feeling nothing but cool
Come on boy, let's Rule

Holla

2012-02-15T02:07:00.000-08:00

Something so perfect
Yet we all make mistakes
Wishing to go back
How much strength does it take
To move on and be happy
Just let it all go
All of the love formed in the past
The touches, embraces, hugs and more
We'll I guess it didn't last
And your probably wondering
Why am I calling for
But I'm not calling anymore
Simple moments it is what it is
I'm over you then something just slips
Into vision, into my mind
We were good friends
So this happens to me everytime
I just hope you're good
Cause I have all my love to give
You just must not be the one
And I just got to live
So I'mma let it slip
All the hurt and the lies
And oh, how I comprimised
And you slid low, I already know
So I'mma do us a favour
And just let it go

Put Me Through It...

2012-02-10T18:10:00.000-08:00

Feenin' For Your Love
Your In Every Thought
Who Woulda Knew
If I Let It Drop
You Would Make It Hot
Don't Stop
Thinkin' Of You
Though You Gone
Warm Arms
No Feelings
But They Coming
On Strong
Whats Wrong
Play The Song
Let Me Fall
Asleep & Dream
About Whats Not Wrong
With My Life These Days
Calling You at 2 am
& Random Times During The Day
So Many Items On The Menu
Thinkin'
I Shouldn't Stay Too Long In This Venue
Even After Your Gone
If Another Girl Asks
I'd Recommend You
What Did You Put Me Through
My Body Can't Deny
How I Feel Inside
Restless, Moving Side To Side
Wondering, How The Fuck..
Could Never Tell A Next Bitch..
Like What The Fuck...
They Could Find Out For Themselves..
I Be Laying There Thinkin' To Myself
After You're Gone..
Damn, What The Fuck...
He Put Me Through It...

What You Need:

2012-01-30T19:34:00.001-08:00

I know you gotta fetish
Those eyes they wander
They embrace beauty at its finest
Damn, I'm mindless
If only you could see
What you mean to be
She's what you want
But I'm what you need
What a world we live in
I'll just let it be
Wishing you could hold me
Refraining from being selfish
& To No One I Can Tell This
How I Really Feel Inside
So I Keep It Closed Down
But They Already Know
That I Stay High Off The Indo
Lookin' Out My Window
Wishin' It Was You Pullin' Up
Ready To Resign Cause If It Was You
I'd Sit Down, Sign The Line & Say "I Do..."

Random Thought #10000000143 ???

2012-01-18T12:22:00.000-08:00

Something fresh
Alotta Respect
Detailed & Deep
Conversations
& As I Fall Asleep
I Wonder if You Think of Me
These Feeling I Have
I Hope It's Not Bad
If I Let You Know
About Them You Know What I Mean
Let Me Show You
What it Really Means
If You Know What I Mean...

I Won't Let Them Media-Takeout Me...

2012-01-18T12:14:00.000-08:00

We all doing things without thinking
Thinking It's Making Us Happy
Then I see You With You Lady In The Club
& I Remember back in the day
When I wanted to have yo baby
So in love but so sad
The way this girl moves
Its too bad I had to loose you
Now you have it all
Probably think of me seldom
Back against the wall
Last dollar to my name
Spent on the ttc to work
Most likely but you had
A job since time
Rich for life you just might be
If not now then very soon
And the memories loom
Though you helped me
You cause some pain
Things will just never
Be the same I was
so Innocent with you
and I feel like you
Broke me, maybe I
Broke myself for you
Opened myself for you
And it hurt, to see
Things I had never
really seen. Is that
on you or is that on me.
Had the chance but you
know me when it comes to logic.
Maybe it's just better this way
Because when people change for
The better nobody can stop it.
1 Love...

Waves

2012-01-17T22:48:00.000-08:00

Listening to Frank Ocean, too distracted...
Can't write.... =)

Wassup Thoughts...

2012-01-17T22:32:00.000-08:00

Give me a place to express myself
Whether they feel me or not
So many decisions to make
Gotta make the right ones
So many feelings I feel
Gotta decipher which ones real
Tellin the truth slippin up
Memories make me tell em
But I told em what can I say
Why do you make me feel this way
I wanna live a good life
Do things that make me feel good
I wonder if you ever think of me
I know I think you should
I wonder what it would be like
To conversate deep with you
On several subjects
Life is rough
But when I'm with you
I Love It..

Instrumental: I don't know how I should be feeling in this sily mess I made, but if it's true, would I have been so easily forgotten.

2012-01-12T18:59:00.000-08:00

I think about my past & I'm grateful for what I have I brush off my bad thoughts even though I'm still mad My moms worked 3 jobs to make up for my dad She raised me as a single mother no sisters no brothers I grew up and observed other peoples lives wondering why everyday I go home and see pain in my mothers eyes I woke up one day and God took me by surprise I want to tell the truth Dear lord no more lies I never excelled in school It was tuffaz Instead I loved to daydream like I was still tucked into my covers About how one day we would be living good.

2007

Untitled

2012-01-12T18:57:00.000-08:00

There's this dude that I know
Oh yes, I love him so
But fuck - he'll never know
How much I love him
I can't loose him
Gotta stop
Don't want to
Abuse him
He will never know
How much I love him

- April 4th 2007

Untitled

2012-01-12T18:52:00.000-08:00

I met him through a friend
There was no one else
Myself - I couldn't help
I fell in deep and when it passed
I couldn't sleep
Nothing left for me in this land
I had a new plan
So I hopped on a plane
Things will never be the same

This Dude that I used to know
Oh how I loved him so
Now he's gone
& He'll never know
How much he was loved
And lost
We've all loved
and lost

I met him on the street
There were so many others
But I cut them all off
In hope something could pop off
Let the liquor speak for me
Now we grindin' call me his shorty
For all my mistakes im sorry
I pray to the lord
That time for me he can afford
I see it in his eyes
He act like he don't care
But I see it in his eyes
I sit and cry
Wondering whats there in his eyes

Apri 4th 2007

The Furious Longing of God

2012-01-12T18:39:00.001-08:00

I am My Beloved's and His Desire is for me.

March 10, 2009

2012-01-12T18:37:00.000-08:00

Spent so much time on a guy
& I wonder why
He don't see me
Why he don't feel me
Can you hear me ?!

If I… had Wings They Would Wanna…

2012-01-12T18:35:00.000-08:00

IF I HAD WINGS: ‘

They would wanna be

Wrapped around you all the time

If I had wings

I would not be frightened

Of where they would take me

If I had wings

It would explain my movements

My lifestyle, my culture, my influences, my nature

If I had wings, I would understand my self, more or less?

To cloathe myself in my own wings is

Useless but comforting, lonely and boring

To have you in my centerfold would be truly wonderful

Not just anyone, selfish enough to abuse me without words

Strength in nonsense and ambiguity, or in selflessnes?

I really don’t know and I don’t care

Although I should know

Because it would keep me safer

What is safe? in a concrete jungle

More like a spreadsheet on the horizon

Full of beautiful dangers and trivial traps

What is safe? to be in someone’s arms never knowing

Like – how they really feel?

Masking nothing with everything

I’m so confused, where do we stand

Where are your wings because if you have a pair

I sometimes feel like you may think of

Wrapping them around me

Tell me, is it true, or am I still Dreaming…

- 15/01/2010

Married 2 your Money or your Honey?

2012-01-12T18:34:00.000-08:00

Living off the avails…

- 17/01/2010

What more is Paradise without.. You WHAT MORE IS LIFE: Without Love ? - 18/01/2010

2012-01-12T18:33:00.002-08:00

Do you EVER think about ME? Really…

2012-01-12T18:33:00.001-08:00

DO YOU: Even love me

Could you even love me

Would you even love me

Stupid questions right

Like he wants to say some bullshit like, “what is love, really.”

F**k, can’t you just say you love me

Love is sopposed to be when your far away

From some one but you long to be right next to them!

Love is sopposed to be like

Being able to look at life through

The same perspective as some one else

Love is sopposed to be how you wouldn’t wanna

& Couldn’t even bear to see me ridin’ with another

Love is sopposed to be the way you looked at me

When I swear, once in my life – you kissed my lips

Love is sopposed to be this tingly nervous feeling

That overcomes me when I feel your nearer, and nearer

& Never are you ever, sopposed to let me go…

Not even for one second…

Do you EVEN ever EVER think OF ME or ABOUT ME ?

Huh, do you? I just wonder…. because your on my mind like 22/7

& It hasn’t been 365 yet, but you might get lucky…. Cleanie… Freak….

- 20/01/2010

Love me so we Grow or just 4 Show ?

2012-01-12T18:32:00.001-08:00

TELL ME WHAT THIS IS:

Because I am truly confused

Should I move on, and assume the role

They may not want me to take?

Or should I wait, learn to be patient

And handle your blows?

Or maybe I like it when you blow…

I wish you were more like the wind

Yeah – you’re always under my chin

Getting under my skin, in my ears

Closer to my heart, brushing past every hair on my neck

I wish you were more like the sun

But the sun does not shine for me

It shines for all – so I guess

I should allow you.

I wish you wanted me forever

And I wish you loved it when we’re together…

So much that you would

Never ever wanna let me go!

I guess then again you are the wind

You are my sun – the son

My air, you do – let me breathe… (but)

You go too far, get too busy and oh man!

I wish I was the highlight of your day

And your week and your year

I wish I deleted all your fears

I wish you didn’t instill more in me like

Where are you

What are you doing

Are you thinking of me

And do you really love me

Are you always gonna be there for me

I wish that you would always be there for me!

I wish you were my soldier

Fighting for our love

Leading us to fidelity and

Like freedom – from all the things that

Condemn our love for each other

(Stupid shit, like you’re down 4 me shit, shit)

Shiii, I want to be yours

And if you read this shiii – which I hope you don’t.. (I lied.)

Cause’ It was all for you and all about you – never anyone else.

I started this wordpress thing

Trying to convey my feelings to my other half. (MEEEE)

I realized that my other half was not

Whom I believed her to be and she became a he… (YOUUUU)

Truly mine, (ORRR NOTTTT) hah – but he gave up on the chase

Oh uhmm wait a minute….

Why you nah’ wanna chase me for baby love?

Didn’t you know you make me feel like your Baby, love?

I want you to know that if you show me, I’ll never hold back

I want you to know that when you hold me I never want you to let go

Maybe the last time you layed on me I should have held you tight

Again, maybe my only regret is like, not asking you to stay longer…

My only thoughts are on leaving because I ran, and all I do is run

I don’t want to run away anymore

I wish you knew how much I cared

So much that I didn’t wanna be in a room

Where everything reminds me of you

Being there without you, waiting for you – like… a child…

This is not fucking daycare

Do they care? NO …

You are sopposed to care though!

Feels nice to be there, I should be there…

I wanna ride for you and be

Able to pledge for ya but honestly

Your so cold

I mean, your’re so warm!

I wish I could warm your heart like the April sunlight

And some might not ever hesitate to label me lowly…

But I think you are right – maybe we should take this thing slowly…

Do you love me ? Because I feel like Juliette

Who gotta opposite of Romeo, Romeo

– Like stay up there bitch – you way over dressed.

I gotta confess, I really might just not understand you….

- 20/01/2010

What are you trying to do with my…

2012-01-12T18:31:00.002-08:00

Heart / Wallet

- 21/01/2010

I don’t want to Run or Walk… (away)

2012-01-12T18:31:00.001-08:00

SO PLEASE: Don’t push me

Even though I want to push you

I see that the conflict

May be my train of thought

I’m sorry to complicate

The easiest situation

When it only

Makes it worse for me

Walking away is almost an art

Only when planned creatively

–When walking away becomes part of a persons life

– The art is almost – no longer beautiful

Do I seem ugly to you – because I am truly sorry

To come off as another whole entire individual

– Can you love the real me

I think I love the real you

I have no absoulte clue

What to do next

All I know is – I guess

I have got to be creative

Smiles and Tears…

Stars were shining bright tonight…

- 21/01/2010

I’ll be (like) here 4 you.. (?????)

2012-01-12T18:30:00.001-08:00

OR IS IT (LIKE):

You won’t be (there) for me (???)

Please, be there. (For me)

With me, Always…

(In a Dream or in Reality?)

- 21/01/2010

I want you so bad I don’t want you…

2012-01-12T18:29:00.002-08:00

WHAT IS THE CLASSIFICATION:

For a relationship that barely exists

Or it existed – but I forgot

I guess – It’s all my fault ?

I really care about people but

I don’t know how to say like… I love you ?

It’s kinda like how when I’m sorry

I can’t really say sorry, if you get it

Who knows, all I know is that

I must have you and

Not on any special day

Printed in a stupid calendar

& Not for my arm to clasp on to

During some premiere event

No – I must have you for like

Ever and ever – If you exist

He doesn’t exist

He doesn’t wanna call me

or say sweet things

Just only expect me to

Hide my feelings right

Yeah – I don’t want to have to hide anymore…

& The second I decided I cared and I wanted to be with you

Is the same second I became weak all over again

How could you have the power to do this to me ?

Lost in this whirlwind, like I said I only wanted to his girlfriend

Rather his wife, for life – whoever you are

If you exist…

- 28/01/2010

I know I left, but I heard your leaving ?

2012-01-12T18:29:00.001-08:00

THE LONELIEST PLANET:

Is okay with me,

I mean – It’s okay with me

If you don’t want to be there for me

Or be here with me

Or have me there with you

I really care about you and

I found myself earlier –

Asking myself why

I treat myself so bad –

Like what the f*ck is love ?

Well here I am again

Treating myself bad because of you ?

You’re sopposed to make me

Want to take care of myself

Or rather distract me from

Not-taking care of myself

I take care when you love me

So why don’t you

Am I sopposed to say it first

What else am I sopposed to do

You make it seem

Like you wouldn’t need me

Like you would be fine without me

And it hurts me

Thats why I can’t have you around me –

Because I only feels sad!

Sad that somethings missing

There is something you’re not telling me…

AND I need and WANT

& WISH I had that REAL MAN

back in my LIFE

Telling me he loves me –

But no one loves me –

I’ve never loved before –

I think I like….

143 you…

No Tear$…

Though I am crying…

Inside…

- 28/01/2010

Untitled

2012-01-12T18:28:00.001-08:00

Lost in the whirlwind

I only wanted

To be his girlfriend

- 25/01/2010

Untitled

2012-01-12T18:26:00.000-08:00

Got you lifted

& I look good in a fitted

Was so gone but still gifted

& When he hit it, he split it

In two, just like a broken heart…

Now what do I do ?

- Date Unknown

Dedicated & Untitled

2012-01-12T18:24:00.000-08:00

My unknown future

He’s always 1st on the scene

Said he would do anything to see me smile

Just cause I’m his queen

I want you to know I’ll love you

You gotta know no one’s above you

No doubt I’ll give you feelings you ain’t had

Don’t be scared none of it’s bad

I wanna make you happy

I never wanna make you sad

Or get you mad

But right now I’m all alone and

What is love really but heartache

Every man in my life

Only made my heart break

Baby where you at…

( This piece is like 2 or 3 pieces from 2007
put together for A. or M. or D. Who are all the same person.)

I’m a Boss Babez, Just me, Original…

2012-01-12T18:23:00.001-08:00

Boy you like a diamond

Always shining in my eyes

In my heart I knew it from the start

Blurry impressions leave me with life’s lessons

& A broken heart

Yet, still I have all this love to give

I am not asking for much

Just honesty

True love & trust…

- 25/01/2010

Remix

2012-01-12T18:22:00.001-08:00

Baby

I just want you to know

That I love you

& I need you

I’ll never let you go

Promise me

You won’t hurt me

Or desert m

I’m everything

You need…

- 25/01/2010

I Know

2012-01-12T18:16:00.000-08:00

All things

Things

I do

To you

You been

Liking

& Lately

We been doing

The night thing

I’m telling him

If he f**** me

Good enough

I might sing

“Oooh baby”

Tell me

You’ll do

All the

Things

All the

Right things

He’s like “For now

Let’s just focus”

On the - right size

“Ring”

It’s way too late

But we always

On perfect timing

So unorthodox

But yeah

He’s equal

To the words

Coming out

My mouth

While I’m rhyming

He fit in nice

Both ways

(Metaphors

for the)

The mic

Shining

So firm

& Bright

Grip it

Light &

He asking

Light skin

& He’s asking

What am I finding

While I’m vibing

I’m like I’m still

Working on my

Rhymes

& Searching

For inspiration

Why you spying

On me, had his

Eyes closed

Telling me

I’m whilin’

Don’t stop…

- 25/01/2010

My Anxieties

2012-01-12T18:13:00.000-08:00

& My deppressions

Come out

In many ways

My expressions

Are always

Only a fragment

Of the garment

Woven by fate

The one I wear

The one I drape

Along my body

So silky & smooth

Keeps telling

Myself, let’s get

This money

You ain’t got

Nothing to

Loose so

Choose

Baby

And

In your

Anger do

Not sin…

- 25/01/2010

Of all the things you do…

2012-01-12T18:11:00.001-08:00

Why do you

Choose

2 Do this

Make me wanna

Pull away

You make me wanna

Make these decisions

I shouldn’t be making

Situations 4 myself

I shouldn’t be creating

So whats the word

Whats the definition

Because I am about yo put

out, you on repitition

(Playing over and over in my mind)

Don’t you be forgetting

All the love you

Started to show and

All the love I give

Now you won’t offer it back

What is it

What can I do

Why can’t we make it

After all that

We been through

I’m so confused

Have we not even gone

Through it all

Am I not still

Standing here

With my back against

This f***** wall

Waiting for you

Longing for you

Trying to just understand?

Understand you

or the situation?

- 25/01/2010

2010

2012-01-12T18:05:00.000-08:00

Needless To Say

Need this to stay

More words to speak

On how you feel

Always upset

Saying you gotta

Keep it real

If you knew how I felt

Would you offer more help ?

Be there by my side

Tell me you’re down to ride ?

Life’s obstacles

Making a spectacle

Disrespectable

Where do I sleep ?

The more comfy

The less I eat

Where do I live ?

The more I give

And I gave saying

I should have stayed

Oh my, all these games

Tellin’ me I ain’t on it

Meanwhile you busy, should be honored

We still wondering why the other don’t care ?

Well, I’m still wondering why you ain’t there…

Say you is, I guess you is, no visible kids

Who you trying to fig, say you (used) it out

We got these issues & these problems

Tell me what yours it… about

See me pout, got visions on my mind

Wake and sleep up, still lost for time…

- 18/02/2010

Common Arguments with Discretion

2012-01-12T18:04:00.000-08:00

DON’T GET BUSTED:

Don’t you trust this

Said you loved this

I mean you didn’t or did you

I’m trying to figure you

I beg to differ

You just over rule and over take

Make me re-think my love

But I could never hate

Though I said it

Hope it’s not too late

Hope it’s not too fake

The love we’ll make if you could ever find

Is something you would never wanna leave behind

I know people make mistakes

But I don’t want to make other mistakes, any mistakes

I hope you would never miss take my love

Maybe just take my love

Swear you abuse it

I swear you use this

I just wanna keep it real

I want to know how you feel

Have me runnin’ laying right here

In my night wear. Day Wear… They Wear…

- 18/02/2010

The Way of the World…

2012-01-12T18:03:00.000-08:00

THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL:

Often changes

Not in a bad way

Don’t wanna take it for granted

But it seems like you could be around for a while

Don’t have me waiting now…

I am so anxious

I never want you to leave

Maybe I am not interesting enough

Maybe I am not the type

Seems like I am

Considering when you put your hands on me

They feel so nice

Maybe, I am a perfect match

Or else, I am the perfect fool

I hope I am not wrong for trusting in someone

When I am not sure how much I love you

A lot or just enough

I am still waiting for you

Even though you were just here

Independent, I am

Not, although, I am myself…

- 03/03/2010

Untitled

2012-01-12T18:02:00.000-08:00

See I don’t know

How this could be

I’m feeling you

Are you feeling me

Playing games

Ain’t saying names

All in my mind

Being you must be easy

Don’t even speak

You please me

Try not to tough

I know you need me

I might need you more

Regrets ?

- 17/03/2010

I Would Rather

2012-01-12T18:01:00.000-08:00

Be with ya

And not pretend

Sleep with ya

And not give in

To my wants

And needs

Because you

Don’t offer

& Any girl

That makes

A move on you

You don’t stop her

But I watch her

& I’m the only one

& I won’t jump

I mean I jumped

But I can’t front

Looking back I had too

I cried, so confused

Could already pre-feel it

The demise

And so I let it be

The scars are proof

The never ending story

One of these days

I’ts going to bore me

& When I fully forget

You remind me

You all won’t

Let it happen

But Mr. Carter

What you mean

It’s a reaction

Of my effects on them

Should I be less on him

Am I all wrong

& Am I not true

Or am I just shy

Am I allowed to be me

Do I get to know why..

Mr. Marco what’s up

Claim you don’t read much

But it looks like you been studying…

- 03/04/2010

Well We All Must Do It Pretty Well…

2012-01-12T18:00:00.000-08:00

IN A PLACE OF MY OWN:

Only you can hold me

Only you can be just right

Only for you, will I put up with these fights

And battles in my own mind

I will overcome them

I will wipe them out

I am strong

I don’t need myself to tie myself down

I need myself to set myself free

I need you to love me

love me as I am

Love me for who I will become

Or what may come

Or else, just don’t love me at all

What is Destiny

And what is Fate

I am loving and understanding

But there should always be a line

You drew me a line

Now I feel trapped

Trapped from the inside out

Display in a plastic box

In the middle of a desert

Exile and Textiles

The Modern World

And were off to the Party

Wanna Come ?

See you There, Maybe ?

Just my Dreams…

If this isn’t Love then

Love truly does not exist…

- 11/04/2010

What is this World without You, F*ck…

2012-01-12T17:58:00.000-08:00

SWEET IRONIES: and Bright Lights, I mean a bright computer screen. I swear your mean. Maybe I am the mean one. I keep wondering if you tweaked time, tweaked peoples minds or else your just that damn good. You know my mind all to well, I am trying to place the moments but it’s just not coming back. I am thinking of all the lucky ladies, that you f*cked, told you loved, layed down with and gave your heart to. I know you are never, but do you ever think of me in these ways, I really wonder. If I never see you again, or if you show up – I know I won’t say It – however, I’m sorry and how big is this conspiracy, because I miss you. I love the old you, the simple you. I miss you. The rude, controlling, genuine, motivated person I always knew. I know you know I am not talking about you but if you know who you are, you gotta I know I really love you. Brotherly Love over other Loves, Sisterly Love if they may ask, but hey – I still want like two or more official husbands, and I don’t want to have to lie…. jokes. We should all just be honest man, I love you boy – don’t know who I loved first or who you loved last, but your boy is piece of shit. I mean he’s a piece of work, a piece of glory, a piece of God just like you AND I love you both, I can’t decide. However y’all know you that Fire, burning up these females… I need my hands yo, but I WANT TO touch… I really want to, I’m sure we can work around the hands issue, jk. You are both figments of my imagination apparently, so it’s all on the future, fate and my awfull desicions making. I would hope you make the right choices and first moves, like you always do… Sorry if I skipped on you or I mean… just walked by, I’m just not that Girl anymore, hopefully… I am someone BETTER…

King C.A.K.E.Z….
I am waiting for you…
I REALLY MISS YOU(S)…

IMPATIENTLY….
& IF YOU NEVA COMING HOME
I AIN’T HATING, I GUESS I’M A LOST
CIVILLIZATION, ANCIENT LIKE THE MAYANS….

- 12/04/2010

There is No One Else

2012-01-12T17:55:00.000-08:00

There is No One Else

But yourself

And

If you

Are hip hop

Then I am

Rhythm & Blues

If you are

A white suit

Then I am

Blue suede shoes

If you are strength

Then I am agility

And beauty if you

Are the essence

Of life then I am

the rebirth of

The thought of

creativity

And creation

And you are

A mirror

A vision

Sand and

The land

And the

Air and

I am the

Water or

The caves

The trees

Shade me

Give me

Life

Make me

His

Wife

I’ll call

You

A dream…

- 17/04/2010

2010

2012-01-10T10:18:00.001-08:00

OF ALL THE OUTLETS

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL IS
SELFLESS SELF EXPRESSION

2012-01-10T10:16:00.000-08:00

THURSDAY, APRIL 8, 2010

HOW COME

I DON'T WANT TO BE SELFISH BUT
HOW COME I CAN ONLY BE SELF-LESS.

2008

2012-01-10T10:15:00.001-08:00

KEEP IT 100

CAN'T DENY THAT ITS SO REAL

SO DEEP IT'S LIKE MY SOUL FEEL
IT'S TIME 4 ELEVATION
GENERATION THROUGH GENERATION
JUST KEEP IT REAL
CAUSE THEY GOTTA REALLY FEEL
JUST KEEP IT TRUE
YOU JUST' GOTTA DO YOU
DISREGARD WHAT THEY SAY
CAUSE YOU GOTTA MAKE A WAY
WE GONNA MAKE IT THROUGH
IT'S JUST ME & YOU
ALONG WITH THA WORLD
THA MEGA CITY
& THA BOROUGH
ONE STEP AT A TIME
MAKE SURE YOUR GOALS ARE THOROUGH
YOU GOTTA MAKE IT
REGARDLESS OF OBSTACLES
BABY, JUMP THEM' HURDLES
TAKE A MAJOR IN LIFE CAUSE'
THE BEST TEACHER IS EXPERIENCE

2009

2012-01-10T10:09:00.000-08:00

MY FLAWS? WHAT FLAWS? YOU MEAN FLAWS IN THE SYSTEM OR FLAWS IN OUR SOCIETY, OUR NEIGHBORHOOD, OUR PEOPLES MINDS?

2009

2012-01-10T10:08:00.000-08:00

MAYBE BAYBE

BUT
I DON'T
REALLY KNOW
THE THINGS THAT
YOU DO TO ME MAKE ME
WANNA GO
AWAY AND
FIND ANOTHER
PLACE FOR MY MIND
I DON'T REALLY KNOW BUT
I FEEL LIKE I
WAS MADE
CREATIVE
VIOLENTLY
BY DESIGN
AND THIS MADNESS
WELL SHE NEEDS TO RESIGN
CAUSE I AINT UP 4 ALL OF THIS
& I DIDN'T SIGN
SO WHATS THE DEAL YO
I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS REAL YO
SO MANY FALICIES, SO MANY VICTIMS
SO MANY DELIBERATES
SO MUCH FICTION
I DON'T KNOW
BUT BABY
I WANT
YOU
TO
SET
ME FREE

2009

2012-01-10T10:07:00.001-08:00

ME & ONLY ME

BACK TO MYSELF
BACK TO ORIGINAL
MORPHED & ADAPTED
YET THEY HAVE
NO PRINCIPLES
STUCK IN THE TRAP
SHIT
DOUGH IS THEIR DECISION
I'M ROUGH FROM THEIR
CARELESS INCISIONS
SPEAKING TO MYSELF
LIKE DAMN, GIRL
YOU GOTTA LISTEN
WON'T DENY MYSELF
WHAT I TRULY NEED
I'M JUST THINKIN'
AFTER ALL
HOW COULD IT BE
THAT THEY STILL WOULDN'T FEEL IT
WOULND'T UNDERSTAND
THEY WOULD STILL KEEP JUST TAKING FROM ME
RIGHT FROM MY HAND
HOW COULD YOU, YOUR LOVE IS A LIE
I WOULDN'T EVEN CRY & I KNOW WHY
I'M OVER IT
WON'T KEEP IT ALL INSIDE
TOOK ME ALL NIGHT
( TO REALIZE )

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE ( ART, MUSIC, & YOU )

2012-01-10T10:06:00.001-08:00

2009

2012-01-10T10:05:00.000-08:00

ASKIN' WHY WHY LIFE'S THIS WAY; HIS MOM SAID BE A REALEST & LET IT GO BECAUSE' PAIN IS UNIVERSAL & WE ALL FEEL IT

2009

2012-01-10T10:03:00.001-08:00

TOUGH TIMES, OLD RHYMES, PRETTY MEMORIES, NEW STORIES, A LONG BEAUTIFUL JOURNEY, FRESH LIKE SPRINGTIME, A NEW PREFACE, BABY

The Calm...

2012-01-10T09:49:00.000-08:00

I only wanna wish well upon others
It seems like we all got issues and it bothers me
That sometimes, most times only
The person that suffers is the one who solves
We all have something different
That weighs on our minds from time to time
That really bothers us
The problems change as we go on
What to do
All I can say is like
How could you let yourself get so worked up
It's not worth it
How could I let myself get so worked up
We could have solved it calmly...

The One ?

2011-12-25T22:56:00.000-08:00

Words can't express the way I feel inside
Every time I think of you I picture looking in your eyes
Smile so bright it could light up the sky
But who's smile am I speaking of, yours or mine ?
We could be perfect yet you're so far away
I'm not all talk & baby I don't play
I'd come to you, I'd run to you
I'd be down for you, for real
Said you felt love before
Well tell me, how does it feel ?
I've sensed love at it's finest
But your love would be timeless
Pristine, on point, sincere
How long have I known you
How many years ?
They say friends before lovers
Well I'm in fear
Fear that you won't accept whats right here
All of me and much more
Emotions, inspirations
The moves you be making
Make me wanna
Make you the one.

24 Muharram 1433

2011-12-19T18:05:00.000-08:00

1433 ? I Love You Too ...

Beautiful.

2011-12-19T11:23:00.000-08:00

Beautiful.

2011-12-19T11:19:00.000-08:00

O ALLAH
I seek divine guidance so that
I may remain steadfast in what is just.
I seek divine guidance
in order to be firm in righteousness.
I seek divine guidance in the manner
that I express my gratitude for Your favors
and worship with devotion.
I seek from You a tongue that speaks
the truth and a heart which is pure and clean.
[At-Tirmidhi]

What If the Prophet Added You as a Friend?

2011-12-18T20:34:00.000-08:00

By Sister Marwa S.

Would you press accept?
Or would you stay awake late at night, pondering it before you slept?
Will you be tempted to press ignore?
... Will you feel at war?

Will you feel happy that the prophet thought of you as a part of his ummah, his friend?
Will you start to make amends?
Or will you be worried about what he will think of your profile?
Will it become your biggest trial?

Will you finally delete that horoscope application?
Will you change your favourite quotes to glorify creation?
Will you delete those late night webcam pictures without the hijab?
Will you look at your life and feel a stab?

As you add the qu’ran as your favourite book?
Will you feel like a fake, a crook?
Will you take a few days to make sure everything is within Islamic law?
Will your heart finally begin to thaw?

Will you delete your old conversations?
Or will you feel nothing at all and continue following your temptations?
Will you press ignore, And not think about it anymore?

No reason to worry about that possibility occurring.
The prophet has long departed.
But Allah is always there Watching you and listening to your prayers.

You don’t need to add Him as your friend With Allah,
you can never hide or pretend He doesn't need your permission to view.
Your wall-to-walls, your pictures, your comments, and your statuses too.

Something Beautiful:

2011-12-15T01:13:00.000-08:00

‎A Mufti sat next to a Reverend on a flight.

The Rev asked the Mufti: What is your occupation?

Mufti: I'm into big business

Rev: But what business exactly?

Mufti: I deal with God

Rev: Ah, so you're a Muslim religious leader. I have one problem with you Muslims: you oppress your women.

Mufti: How do we oppress women?

Rev: You make your women cover up and wearing hijab .!!

Mufti: Ah. I have a problem with you people: you oppress MONEY

Rev: What? How can one oppress money?

Mufti: You keep your money hidden away, in wallets, banks and safes.
You keep it covered up. Why don't you display it in public if it's a beautiful thing

Rev: It will get stolen, obviously.

Mufti: You keep your money hidden because it is so valuable.
We value the true worth of women far, far more.
Therefore, these precious jewels are not on display to one and all.
They are kept in honor and dignity.

HMMM

2011-11-21T14:24:00.000-08:00

GOTTA GET AWAY FROM ALL THESE NEGATIVES AND MEET UP WITH THE POSSE:
THE POSSETIVES: RIGHT MIND / RIGHT ACTIONS / RIGHT THOUGHTS / RIGHT INTENTIONS

UNTITLED

2011-11-21T14:21:00.000-08:00

BARE ARMS,
BARE FACE,
BARE NECK,
BARE FINGERS,
RINGS, DIAMONDS, STARS STILL SHINNING,
A HUNDRED THOUSAND ON THE SMILE AND THE JEWEL GON SPARK,
ALL THE WHILE, PRICELESS SHIT, PLATES UP AFTER DARK,
FOREVER AND A DAY COULDN'T WASH THESE FEELINGS AWAY,
WHAT CHU' GON SAY, THAT YOU A PLAYA?
THAT YOU WON'T SAVE HER?
THAT YOU WON'T SAVOUR?
THAT YOU MY HATER & MY LOVER ALL IN ONE,
LABEL YOUR SELF THE BOSS, SPOT FOR HIRE,
LETS HAVE SOME FUN, STRIPE SUIT,
IT'S ALL ABOUT MY BOOTS, YOU GON'
STAND THERE OR BETTER YET JUST SHOOT,
I WAS HEADED FOR THE BOOTHE
BUT I'LL BE ALL YOURS FOR LIFE
JUST PROMISE TO TELL ME THE TRUTH.

- 2009

HEY BABY

2011-11-21T14:20:00.000-08:00

YOU KNOW THE WAY I FEEL ABOUT YOU
THERES NEVER MOMENT TO HOLD YOU
WHY DO YOU CAUSE THIS PAIN
I CAN'T UNDERSTAND
AND I TRY TO LEARN
NO SECRETS HIDDEN AT ALL
BUT I AM STILL MISSING YOU

WHEREVER YOU ARE
I WONDER IF YOU THINK OF ME
WHEREVER YOU ARE
I WONDER IF YOU FEEL HOW I FEEL
WHEREVER YOU ARE
I WONDER IF YOU NEED ME CLOSE
IN THE SAME WAY I NEED YOU
PLEASE TELL ME ITS TRUE
WHEREVER YOU ARE

YOU MAKE MY HEART WARM
AND THE THOUGHT OF YOUR DISTANCE
MAKES ME SICK I AM NOT OF MIND
MAKING WRONG DECISIONS ALL THE TIME
WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE I FEEL
ALL IS LOST THOUGH I HAVE MYSELF
MY EMOTIONS HAVE TURNED TO FROST
ALMOST LIKE AN ICE BOX AND THE SUN
I NEED YOU TO MELT ME BABY
COME, I NEED YOU COME
LETS ENJOY EACHOTHER AGAIN

- 2010

His' N Her's - All Matching

2011-11-21T14:18:00.000-08:00

Now this is why men turn into Monsters. One day he rockin' his "His N Hers" out with his Wifey... Loving her down, picking her up and dropping her off... Next thing you know Hottie Tottie appears and starts necking my man... okay well he wasn't really my man but you know the story. Have me taking public transit to see your ass.... what happenend when you used to surprise me by saying "Get ready Baby, I'm coming to pick you up!".... I really miss the good ol' days when his love was true.... I bet it still is... Except we have these mega model stripper super groupies in the way.... Damn... always the good ones that are gettin' money.

The Above was A Random Word Rampage. Oops...

Okay so this doesn't apply with a broken heart... but you can start over and create better standards for yourself... Babygirl... everybody knows... He ain't wanna settle down yet... Why do you waste your time loving someone who's cold, addicted to money, shows no love, has no fears, goals, dreams, and aspirations. Beats on you and calls you out your name. This man should have know better and could have done better but the blame is not all on him.

I am the one who fell in love.

THERE IS ONLY ONE KIND OF LOVE - REAL LOVE

2011-11-21T14:17:00.001-08:00

REAL LOVE IS CARING ABOUT THE HAPPINESS OF ANOTHER PERSON WITH OUT ANY THOUGHT FOR WHAT WE MIGHT GET FOR OURSELVES. SIMPLE RIGHT ? WRONG, MOST PEOPLE HAVE NEVER EXPIRIENCED UNCONDITIONAL LOVE FROM ANYONE- NOT FROM PARENTS, HUSBANDS, WIVES, OR FRIENDS.

THE CONCEPT OF UNCONDITIONAL LOVE IS EASY, MOST OF US FIND IT REVOLUTIONARY TO APPLY BECAUSE WE HAVE NEVER SEEN IT & HAVE ONLY EXPIRIENCED CONDITIONAL LOVE.

( WHEN WE WERE GOOD LITTLE KIDS OUR PARENTS SMILED & PATTED US ON THE HEAD BUT AS SOON AS WE MESSED UP THEY BECAME IRRITATED - THAT IS AN EXCHANGE OF CONDITIONAL LOVE )

THERE IS ONLY ONE KIND OF LOVE & THROUGH NO FAULT OF OUR OWN, DO FEW OF US RECIEVE OR GIVE REAL LOVE. TERRIBLE VOIDS FORM IN THE ABSENCE OF REAL LOVE, & WE LIVE OUR LIVES GIVING & RECIEVING IMMITATION LOVE.

IMMITATION LOVE IS CONDITIONAL AND IT MANIFESTS ITSELF IN 4 FORMS: PRAISE, POWER, PLEASURE, AND SAFETY.

NO MATTER HOW MUCH OF THESE SUBSTITUTES WE OBTAIN, WE REMAIN FEELING EMPTY, ALONE & AFRAID.

WE USE GETTING AND "PROTECTING BEHAVIOURS TO LESSEN OR ELIMINATE OUR FEARS OF NOT BEING LOVED UNCONDITIONALLY.

WE USE GETTING BEHAVIOURS- LYING, ATTACKING, ACTING LIKE A VICTIM, AND CLINGING TO TRY TO FILL OUR EMPTINESS WITH IMITATION LOVE.

WE USE PROTECTING BEHAVIOURS- LYING, ATTACKING, ACTING LIKE A VICTIM, AND RUNNING- TO GET THE LOVE WE CRAVE.

THE FIRST STEP TO OBTAINING UNCONDITIONAL LOVE IS TO TELL THE TRUTH ABOUT OURSELVES, ABOUT EVERYTHING..

BG

2011-11-21T14:16:00.001-08:00

TEMPTATIONS, TRIBULATIONS

BITCHEZ & BITCH ****** BE HATIN'

EVER SO FRUSTRATIN'

THEY CONSTANTLY DEBATIN'

WHETHER TO HATE OR TRY TO RELATE

BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY THEY ALL FAKE

- 2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T14:15:00.000-08:00

YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO GET INTO ME BUT IT'S REAL

NOW THERE'S NO TELLIN' HOW I REALLY FEEL

I GOT THIS JONES IN ME, HARD LIKE STEEL

MY WORLDS SPINNIN' FROM REEL TO REEL

I CAN TELL YOU BUT HOW DO YOU FEEL

I LOVE TO GATHER EACH THOUGHT

AND EXPRESS

( ALL OF THE JEALOUSY AND WHAT NOT )

- 2009

I DON'T STRESS

THIS LIFE IS REAL

ONE BY ONE

I UNLOAD MY REVELATIONS

SOUL NEEDS, SO NEED

TO BE ME & JUST DO WHAT I DO

EVEN BACK IN THE DAY

I HAD A BOOK OR TWO

HAD TO SPILL A FEW LINES

IN INK, ABOUT THE TIMES

THAT A GIRL WAS GOIN' THROUGH

THINKIN' AND FEELIN'

TELL ME WHATS THE MEANIN'

GOTTA STICK TO MY GOALS

KEEP DOIN WHAT I DO BEST

DON'T LET IT GET UNDER ME

KEEP IN ON MY VEST

ON MY CHEST

SOULFULLY

MY SOUL SO NEEDS

TO JUST BE ME

I AIN'T DOIN IT TO BE IN A MAGAZINE

OR BURST ON TO WHATEVA SCENE

I JUST DO IT CAUSE ITS BEEN ME

THIS IS HOW I LIVE FREE

I WRITE MY POETRY

TAKE MY PICTURES

MAKE MY ART

AND READ HIS SCRIPTURES

DON'T MAKE TO MANY FRIENDS

STAY OUTTA WORLDS FILLED WITH DRAMA

NEVER ENDING CIRCLES

GOTTA GO HOME AND TELL MAMA

THAT IMMA BE ALL I CAN BE AND IM SORRY IF YOU DON'T SEE ME

BUT IM GONNA MAKE A WAY

THERE'S GONNA BE BETTER DAYS

SO DON'T EVER LET THEM FADE

YOUR STYLE ITS SO SWEET

THANK YOU FOR RAISING ME

I LOVE YOU MAMA

BUT IM FROM THE STREETS

AND I JUST CANT STOP

I GOTTA RECORD MY RHYMES

AND WRITE MY LINES

ALL ABOUT THIS LIFE

BECAUSE HIP HOP IS

HOW I RECORD MY DIARY

THIS IS MY LIFE.

CAN'T DENY THAT ITS SO REAL SO DEEP IT'S LIKE MY SOUL FEEL

2011-11-21T14:13:00.000-08:00

Reserve Yourself

2011-11-21T14:09:00.000-08:00

Here is my theory. Reserve yourself.
You are Royalty. You don’t need anyone else
to tell you who you are, or how to be,
you should just know. You don’t need anyone
to explain anything to you unless you really
feel that they are helping you.
This is the hard part, where sometimes you
don’t even know and you can’t even tell who
these people are or if they are good or bad
for you. So then here we go, back to my theory.
You don’t need anyone else, you only need yourself.
Preserve yourself, rather yet… Reserve Yourself.

Preserve yourself from all the negative things.
Reserve yourself for the positive.
Preserve yourself from all of the negative
thoughts and actions; make yourself immune.
Reserve yourself for what is really of essence
and of the time, and for what is really of need,
right here and right now and in your life.
I already know, and I say I, because I am writing this.

I already know how it feels to be robbed.
Robbed for my jewels and my gems, my gold and my oil,
all that is left is my land. They can never take my land,
they can run it over, but at the end of the day, they are still,
we are still, and we will be still, standing on it, yea.
I know you know how I feel. I want you to feel this way.
I want you to be free. I do not know, if I myself am free.
I think to feel completely free to a certain point, is to feel trapped,
by society and by the world, and in life. I don’t want to feel this way,
and I won’t feel this way, and I don’t feel this way, as of now.
Right now, as I am writing this, I think I feel better.
I want you to feel better too; I want you to never feel
anything that you don’t have to feel.
Right now I want you to preserve yourself,
and if you have not.. From now on I want you to Reserve Yourself,
for the righteous, for the Real Thing, for the Better.
I am a down ass chick typa girl writing this so don’t you forget her. (Me)

Here is my theory.
Reserve yourself.
You are Royalty.
You don’t need anyone else.
You only need yourself.
Preserve yourself, rather yet…
Reserve Yourself. You’re Royalty.
Royally Acclaimed and Associated with
Yourself. The only one that matters.
The only one you need.

- 2010

Untitled

2011-11-21T14:07:00.000-08:00

baby
you mean
the world
to me
an i
dont want
to let yo go

- 2010

TAKING THEIR WORD OVER ME

2011-11-21T14:04:00.000-08:00

I had write something
that came deep to my heart
cause people be trying
bring down others relationships...
people need to stop the hate
and just be happy for others....

Take their word over mine
Written By: Young Ginuwine
Taken from: Facebook

Sometimes I got to wonder
Is it really just us
Or is it us plus the bus
Cause it seems like everyone got
Something to say about us....
What do they really know about us....
Do they really see what you
Mean to me boo...
Do they see how much
I love you...
Maybe they just don't want see us
They always want to be between us

So your really going leave
You really going take their word
You really going believe
I want love from that other girl
Open your eyes and see
Your my only one girl
They be talkin
And wishin they were you
But none fit you like you do
But if you take their word
Just don't forget
It be one mistake you will regret...

I don't know her
I don't need her...
All she be do is plotting and wishing
She could be you..
Be all in your shoes
Wish she could be my boo
I am sorry
But I been longin for you
And no chick can take the
Fact that I am in love you
I don't expect this journey to be easy
But one thing I ain't is sleazy
I am one woman type of girl
I trade it all in world
Just for you.....

So you really going leave
You really going take their word
You really going believe
I want love from that other girl
Open your eyes and see
Your my only one girl
They be talkin
And wishin they were you
But none fit you like you do
But if you take their word
Just don't forget
It be one mistake you will regret...

I don't know why
You really got think it through
If you in love with me
Ask me what it do
Cause I been honest
I been a real man
I been doing things
That most men can't
I am always there for you
When others won't
I worry about you
Even when I don't
Your the only woman
You live in my mind
And you stole heart
So before you look at the door
Didn't you promise me
We'll never part...

So you really going leave
You really going take their word
You really going believe
I want love from that other girl
Open your eyes and see
Your my only one girl
They be talkin
And wishin they were you
But none fit you like you do
But if you take their word
Just don't forget
It be one mistake you will regret...

(Baby. I regret it. Always and 4ever
I'll Remember you me us and THEM.)

I KNOW

2011-11-21T14:02:00.000-08:00

I KNOW YOU MIGHT NOT WANT TO LOVE ME FOREVER
BECAUSE THE TIME WE HAVE HERE IS LIMITED TOGETHER
1 LIFE 1 WORLD 1 PLANET WE LIVE ON
AND IF OUR BODIES SHOULD DIE
I WOULD HOPE THAT OUR LOVE LIVES ON

- 9/19/10

IF I RULED THE WORLD

2011-11-21T14:01:00.000-08:00

IF I RAN THE WORLD EVERY GOOD MAN WOULD BE A KING
EVERY REAL WOMAN A QUEEN, ONLY COTTON SARIS, NO JEANS
EVERY ONE WOULD WEAR A RING, INVISIBLE ROUND THEY MIND
EVERY PERSON WOULD BE A DIAMOND, NEVER TURN THEM BLIND
WHITHSTAND THE MOST PRESSURES OVER TIME
HARDEN LIKE THE SEDIMENT IT’S ELEMENTARY
BUT THEY STUCK UP LIKE THE SEDIMENTARY
WE NEED MORE SOUL FOR THE CHICKEN SOUP
MORE HONESTY FROM THE CREATORS IN THE BOOTH
MORE LOVE FROM THE MAMA’S IN THE KITCHEN
MORE RESPECT FROM OUR SONS AND FATHERS JUST LISTEN
REGAL LIFE REALIZE ITS REAL LIFE POVERTY DON’T DIE
OUR CHILDREN STILL CRY, DO YOU WANNA KNOW WHY
EXILE FROM A REALITY, KNOW THE WHOLE FAMILY'S MAD AT ME
I KNOW SOME OF MY OLD FRIENDS, NEVER FRIENDS
WANNA GET BACK AT ME
I KNOW SOME OF YOU HAVE HAD IT WITH ME
BUT IF I RAN THE WORLD THERE WOULD BE NO HATE
CAN YOU RELATE

I KNOW WE ARE NOT PERFECT
SOMETIMES WE FEEL WORTHLESS
I KNOW SOMEONE COULD HURT THIS
BUT IF I RAN THE WORLD REAL KINGS
THEY WOULD NEVER DESSERT THIS
HOLD ME DOWN 4 LIFE THAT’S RIGHT

- 9/19/10

Untitled

2011-11-21T14:00:00.000-08:00

I SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOUR NARROW MINDED ASS
SEXY IS NICE BUT WHAT ABOUT CLASS
WE ALL WANT WHAT WE CAN'T HAVE
DEGRADING YOURSELF FOR A MANS ATTENTION IS SAD
TIME WE QUIT FEELING SORRY FOR OURSELVES
REAL WOMEN KNOW WHAT THE STRUGGLES ABOUT
YOU TALKING GRIND? BUT YOU STOLE THE SHINE?
ISN'T HARD TO TELL THAT MONEYS ON YOUR MIND
DON'T NEED NO BOY BUGGING ME
I'M LIVING COMFORTABLE WITH GOD
I LOVE SEEING BIRDS
HEARING THEM CHIRP

SOME WOMEN CHOOSE TO FOLLOW MEN
SOME CHOOSE TO FOLLOW THEIR DREAMS
IF YOUR WONDERING WHICH WAY TO GO
REMEMBER THAT YOUR CAREER WILL NEVER WAKE UP
AND TELL YOU THAT IT DOESN'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE

- 8/26/10

WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE

2011-11-21T13:59:00.000-08:00

THIS IS REALLY REAL
WHO ARE YOU
WHERE DID YOU COME FROM
WHO MADE YOU
WHO AM I
WHERE DID I COME FROM
WHO MADE ME
WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE?
I THINK WE ALREADY KNOW...

- 5/15/10

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:47:00.000-08:00

Can’t deny
That it’s so
Real, so deep
It's like my
Soul feel
It’s time for
Elevation
Generation
Through
Generation
Just keep it
Real
Cause’ they
Gotta really
Feel
Just keep it
True
You just
Gotta do you
Disregard
What they say
Cause’ you
Gotta make
A way
We gonna
Make it through
It’s just me
& You
Along with
The world
The mega city
& the borough
One step at a time
Make sure your goals
Are thorough
You gotta make it
Regardless of obstacles
Baby, jump them hurdles
Take a major in life
Cause’ the best teacher
Is experience…

- 03/04/2010

Random

2011-11-21T13:46:00.000-08:00

Using a girl like that?
You already know
I gotta let it go
Regardless of the love he show
It’s not right for me, yo
I should be feeling better
I should be feeling good
Considering everything that went down
I guess I’m expecting them to laugh now
At me, because I have that now
Thanks for the pain
Was it even pleasure?
Precious years
Now they don’t even matter
X factor…

- 00/00/2009

All I Have

2011-11-21T13:45:00.000-08:00

I am really writing for my invisible man
I love you
You take me away
You don’t even know…

- 00/00/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:44:00.002-08:00

So obviously you don’t want to ride
Only wanna pop 5’ with ya friends
Cause you hit that ass, made me skip class
Well it’s all in the past, can you grasp
These concepts, Come on lets
Take a walk to remember
Back in September I was your
One & Only, now you don’t think of me
Have no love for me
Callin’ me wanna holla at me
Now it’s you and me
What you wanna do?
Now you call me your boo?
To true how I came to love you
Was my 1st now I flirt
Then I flirted
Now I’m into it
Unless your spending rhymes
Wack ass, as a matter of fact…

- 00/00/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:44:00.001-08:00

I need my baby
Won’t have it any other way
Need him here today
Must have him, yes
I say! Please baby
Do you need your lady?
Cause I am
Right here baby!

- 00/00/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:43:00.000-08:00

I gotta have my baby
Close & tight, every night
Baby yes, You’re the best
Baby yes, I need you
Here cause I’m
In fear when your
Not near, It’s been
So long!

- 00/00/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:42:00.002-08:00

Imagine you and me
Imagine us baby
Yes, forever and always
Can I be ya shawty
If not, say you love me
Say you love me
Get me back into my
Habits & Hobbies
I know no one can stop me
Baby, hold me tight
Don’t let me go!
Baby you know
I love you, see
Yes, you know!

- 00/00/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:42:00.001-08:00

Spent so much time on a guy
& I wonder why he don’t see me
Why he don’t feel me!
Can you hear me !?!

- 00/00/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:41:00.000-08:00

The day
I realized my dreams it was beautiful
It’s like how could I have been?
To have given up &
How crazy was I
To forget my dreams
I always loved Him
I always believed Him
& I still do
But how true
Can I be to a man?
If I cannot be real
With myself & for what?
All I ever wanted was
You for me…
The girl who replaced me
She & you can never be
& All the boys I’ve loved
They really cemented me
With frustration
Thinking I was nothing
No good, so I did something
That wasn’t right
Paid the price
To many nights
Laying awake holding my pillow tight
I’m down baby, I’m down
(Please) tell me your around…

- 07/05/2009

On Listening

2011-11-21T13:40:00.000-08:00

No brothers and sisters
No friends, and no family
Only EP’s, LP’s and earphones
Pictures & pencils, mental
Stencils, positive thoughts
Positive vibes, where would I be
Without you, Hmm better now doubt
You, This time around, it’s for myself…

(About Allah)
- 06/05/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:39:00.000-08:00

I love him
But, we can’t be
Says he loves me
But he can’t see
I loved him
& We can’t be
Says he needs me
But not directly
We were together
& I don’t want to
Be apart I don’t
Want to tell him he tore
Apart my heart
Right from the start
No to smart, almost
Like a poison dart
I wanna be with you
But it’s not supposed
To feel like a task
I love you baby
I’m surprised we lasted
So long, I coulda’ been so gone
But somehow it feels so wrong
For me to tag along…
Hugs & Kisses from the Misses…

- 07/05/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:38:00.000-08:00

I wanna be with you everyday
I’m not a groupie but I want you to stay
You broke my heart & I swear
All I ever wanted was you right fro the start
I tried to erase
When I was clear
You didn’t want me in your space
I love your face
I’m f****d up
I won’t even update my myspace
You have my head spinning
& I don’t know
I wanna tell you
That I love you so
I wondered why you had to go
But I know why & I cry
When I think of all the times
Seems I only depict
One figure in my rhymes
& I don’t need your pick-up lines
I still think your fine
& I will always have time
Rain, snow, sleet, shine
Even when your broke
& Even when you grind
Yeah, baby I loved you
& It blows my mind
How you wanna hurt a girl
When she’s so undefined…
I loved you and it’s so sublime
How you came to me
Like I pressed rewind
On a good track
With some real inspiration
I love you
& Theres no more waiting
Or debating
No more deliberations
Only anticipation
Of me & you
Past 1st base
& Home to stay…

- 07/05/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:37:00.002-08:00

Maybe I just wanna be me
Maybe I just wanna be free
How could you be depicting me?
You make me wanna believe!
Can’t you see!
What you’re doing to me
Got my dying inside, crying
Trying to survive
After all this I’m surprised
& Thankful to still be here standing
Better days are here…

- 07/05/2009

On Love

2011-11-21T13:37:00.001-08:00

(I am

Number two)

Allah first, baby

Put you 2nd & 1st, baby

All the skies are blues

And all the trees are huggable

All the flowers are always blooming

In the secret garden on your heart and soul

No tale is to old nor precious to be told, cold hearts

Don’t exist in the place where love only grown and grows

And grows…

- 10/05/2009

Crazy Baby

2011-11-21T13:36:00.000-08:00

Maybe I just
Want
Something
Real
Something
I can feel
Something so sweet
Wife for life…
(An Excerpt.)

- 01/06/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:35:00.002-08:00

Crazy out of it
Baby I’m sorry
I know you must hate me
I still love you so
Please don’t look down on me
I am still me
I still have no one
I really want you
I believe you are the only one
I love you so
I know your not here anymore
But you feel so close…
I know we both
Might feel the same
I hope your feelings don’t change
Rather, I hope they didn’t change
You must be hurt…
So am
I always wonder why I cry
I know I am shy
Baby, please tell me why
The love is there
But you are not?
Where are you baby?
It’s hot out here without you
Cold in here when your not near
Come here!
Come close baby I need you so!
Come back!
I love you!

- 02/06/2009

143 Love

2011-11-21T13:35:00.001-08:00

(For my unknown future husband)
Said he love me forever
And always
You know I still love you
Even though I can’t find you….

- 24/10/2009

Loving You Since Da Time

2011-11-21T13:33:00.000-08:00

(For my unknown future husband)

Date: Forever & Always

Name: His Wifey for Lifey a.k.a his Wife for Life

Address: Everywhere, anywhere, all over !!!

City: Yours, mine, ours, theirs, Toronto!

Province: Ontarios Barberios

Postal Code: L1V 4R3

Telephone: 1-800-SKY-PAGE

Office Phone: 1-800-COME-HOME-A .S.A.P !!!

Cellular: 1-800-YOU-WON’T-SEE-ME-2NITE !

E-mail: Labellasoul@Gmail.com

Company Name: La Bella Soul Unified

General Information:

An Ode to Creative Expression !!!!

This is 4 you

I love you

I want you

I must have you

You are my ultimate

My everything

My all

You are

My sun

My moon

My stars

You are my universe

As much as you mean to me

Is as much as you mean to Him

Our creator

My creator

You are my absolute

My solitude

My comfort

My company

My mirror

My reflection

My love…

- 24/10/2009

You have your Toronto & I have mine

2011-11-21T13:32:00.000-08:00

You have your Toronto
& I have mine
You have your street lights
& Exotic clubs
I have my sweet nights
On a bed of love
You have your moments
& I have mine
Drunk off wine
You have your way with me
& I usually don’t mind…

- 24/10/2009

My Body

2011-11-21T13:31:00.002-08:00

You have your T.dot
& I have mine
You have your block
& You gotta make that money
I have a life
& I don’t think it’s funny
For you to mess with my mind
Play games for chance
You buy me drinks all night
But you don’t expect me to dance
You have your Toronto
& I have mine
Eager to dive in
You better be able to swim
Cause girls these days
Keep playing regardless
Of the odds on a win
You have your Toronto
& I have mine
They wanna fine dine
& Go to the movies
Meanwhile all I see is
Men out for the kill
Only wanna use my body
Better love me right
Have me thinking twice
About my body, MY body!
Baby don’t use me
Or use my body
My body ?!!?
Loving you is hard
When you only
Love me for my body
My body, my body ??!?

- 24/10/2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:31:00.001-08:00

I want to love you but I am scared
Now that I think back I guess
I always expected someone to be there
There for me
By my side
Loving me
Every day & night
Then you walked into my life
Right around the time
That I was thinking
I wasn’t worth it
Someone like you comes around
Who is so perfect
Yeah, it hurts, it
Can’t be real
Almost like a dream
I need you baby
I am your one and only
Queen
Know what I mean?
Said I wanna love you for life
I wanna be your wife
I’ll love you right
No fuss, no fight…

- 24/10/2009

A Creation Story

2011-11-21T13:30:00.001-08:00

He should have known better
She should have thought twice
He should have thought about
What was best for him and his wife
She was so foolish & he was too nice
God told them right but it only took one
Day & Night - Atom

- 21/09/2009

Breaking my Heart

2011-11-21T13:29:00.000-08:00

There is no song
More perfect to post
There is nothing
Yeah, you hurt me the most
No tempo
No rhythm
So beat so heavenly
What is this pain
That I feel
That is not a pain at all
What is this emptiness
Inside me
That only warms
During fall
What is this coldness
That covers me
Wraps me up it dissolves
All my additives
All my substance
It takes me over
Ever so constant
Making me
Have these wrong thoughts
Wondering
What is going on
This onslaught
Has got to stop
Your tearing me apart
Your breaking my heart
The same thing that ease me
Yeah, you know you used to please me
Now it’s nothing more than a headache
I don’t know how much more I can take
I thought I you loved me but now
I know it’s fake, if this were a dream
Right about now I’d wanna be awake…

- Fall 2009

Untitled

2011-11-21T13:28:00.000-08:00

Baby, am I wrong to love you?
I just can’t help it
Baby, am I wrong to love you?
It’s real, I felt it
Lying in my bed
I wish you were here
& For all the women
You have loved, I feel fear
Remember when I was the only one?
Remember when for 1 victorious second
It was just you and me
I remembered how good it felt
I remember how real the love was
Between us, I remember how good
It felt, when we were together
Something in the back of my mind
Is telling me this is crazy
If I had one wish it would be
To lay next to you every night
& Wake up to see your face, every morning
I am supposed to love God
But I love you
I am supposed to love me
But I love you !

- 25/10/2009