Instrumental: I don't know how I should be feeling in this sily mess I made, but if it's true, would I have been so easily forgotten.

I think about my past & I'm grateful for what I have I brush off my bad thoughts even though I'm still mad My moms worked 3 jobs to make up for my dad She raised me as a single mother no sisters no brothers I grew up and observed other peoples lives wondering why everyday I go home and see pain in my mothers eyes I woke up one day and God took me by surprise I want to tell the truth Dear lord no more lies I never excelled in school It was tuffaz Instead I loved to daydream like I was still tucked into my covers About how one day we would be living good.

2007

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There's this dude that I know
Oh yes, I love him so
But fuck - he'll never know
How much I love him
I can't loose him
Gotta stop
Don't want to
Abuse him
He will never know
How much I love him

- April 4th 2007

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I met him through a friend
There was no one else
Myself - I couldn't help
I fell in deep and when it passed
I couldn't sleep
Nothing left for me in this land
I had a new plan
So I hopped on a plane
Things will never be the same

This Dude that I used to know
Oh how I loved him so
Now he's gone
& He'll never know
How much he was loved
And lost
We've all loved
and lost

I met him on the street
There were so many others
But I cut them all off
In hope something could pop off
Let the liquor speak for me
Now we grindin' call me his shorty
For all my mistakes im sorry
I pray to the lord
That time for me he can afford
I see it in his eyes
He act like he don't care
But I see it in his eyes
I sit and cry
Wondering whats there in his eyes

Apri 4th 2007

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My unknown future

He’s always 1st on the scene

Said he would do anything to see me smile

Just cause I’m his queen

I want you to know I’ll love you

You gotta know no one’s above you

No doubt I’ll give you feelings you ain’t had

Don’t be scared none of it’s bad

I wanna make you happy

I never wanna make you sad

Or get you mad

But right now I’m all alone and

What is love really but heartache

Every man in my life

Only made my heart break

Baby where you at…

( This piece is like 2 or 3 pieces from 2007
put together for A. or M. or D. Who are all the same person.)

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I was listening to the radio

She was like “love is like a flower”

Some people think it’s an ocean

To me - it seems like the dres

(The dress) I used to wear

Or the dress I have never worn…

- 00/01/2007

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Don’t be ashamed how you got what you need

Everybody on this planet (has) a body to feed

And if you HURT millions then pray for them all

All these epidemics & not one, solved

The teachers get paid to teach you

But they only kick us out

So when they ask you

Why you don’t show up

They think they know what it’s about

Their jobs only make it

Harder for some of us…

(An Excerpt.)

- 00/01/2007

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Do I feel weak because

I am only his rib

If I must protect his heart

Then how much shall I give

God GAVE me life

This life that I live

And Child

I got love for you

You my older

And you have strengths

Stronger than any soldier

Ain’t a tale or a story

It’s life, I’m sorry

It’s just history

So don’t ignore me

Ain’t nothin’ made up

& Surely

A wise man knows

He knows nothing at all

I want to learn more

Can I just call?

You speak and interesting one

I just wanna’ get into your mind

Get to know you a little

Talk and un-wind

& If you down for a chick

You could take me out again

But see, he’s different

He don’t wanna f**k around

Well, we f**ked around

But it’s all over now

He’s steady gettin’ that paper

& I wasn’t raised by a hater

It’s a cold world out there

Gotta get it before it’s gone

& When it’s gone

I’ll be in the tropics

Writing another song…

(A song for you, Bello…)

- 00/01/2007

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Should I

Make up my mind

I’m fainting

This life stuff

I can’t be waiting

I need a man

Whose got my side

For life

Be down

To get down

Ride, thats right

I wanna’ hold you

In the middle of the night

I wanna be the piece

To the puzzle

That fits perfect, aight?

I wanna be the one to

Take your breath away

The one to

Make it feel

Just like heaven

From the jump-start

You had me

Now you got me

Wanting you badly

Crazy ain’t the word

You got me going serious

Can you feel it?

You got a girl all curious…

- 00/01/2007

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I didn’t mean to love him

But his breath was so sweet

I didn’t mean to hurt him

But in the past all I’ve has is deceit

Do me like a real woman

I know you can

Love me like a real man

Oh child, I know you can

Get on with me

Baby, I’m on to you

With finesse I see it

Oh, I’m stressed

Best believe it

Give me back my childhood

Where did it go

Lost it all, elementary

I need a savior, Oh Lord

But I don’t know what to do…

- 00/01/2007

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It’s cold out here in the street

Every where I look

People js’ tryna’ eat

It’s cold out here

Don’t you know

But our children

Still got to grow

Beautiful is everything

Of natural creation

Every skin color

From every nation

If we stand tall

One day

We will all

Be unified

As we fall apart

It’s no good for us

This divide…

- 27/01/2007

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Your my one & only

In you I confide

Don’t you ever leave me lonely

I might fall apart inside

I have nothing to hide

I want to give you all of me

Not just tonight

For the rest of my life

Wouldn’t it be nice son

If I was your wife

Singing sweet melodies

To our child at night

Wouldn’t it be nice son

If we all had equal rights

Wouldn’t it be nice son

If God would fill me with his light

I see Him in your eyes

You are the truth…

- 27/01/2007

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If I could have you properly

I would save all of your dreams

And scare away all your fears

If I could hold you tight

You would know

Just how dear you are to me

Like the stars in the sky

You never stop shining

Even when I can’t see you

I feel you with me

I don’t need your pity

I need your love

Only because you mean so much

You were a sign of peace

Like a dove

I put you above

All that I have

I want to give you

All that I have

I will do the best that I can

To keep your smile

Reflected on my face

To make sure the tingle

Doesn’t fade from your embrace

I care 4 you baby

& You gotta see it

That woman you need

Well, I’ll be it

Love me now

Please don’t love me later…

- 27/01/2007

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Seriously speaking

I love the way we freakin’

You got me by my pride

I’m so weak

I don’t know

What to do about it

If we could

Just talk about it…

- 27/01/2007

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I want the world to know

You don’t have to give in

If you stay strong

Keep faith

There’s no way you won’t win

Awaiting for ya’ destiny

And time looses

You gotta make it happen

Before these people start

To try and use you

No, it just won’t do…

- 27/01/2007

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Now its you, me and these strangers

We can do it, hang out the dirty laundry

I got to know, do you want me?

R u still down for me?

Or do you want me to be her?

I can hear it

But do you feel my purrrrs?

I see the grrrrrs

Won’t phase me

I’m a bit lazy

But it doesn’t make me

Less of a Lady…

- 27/01/2007

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Can’t you see

What you’re doing to me

Can’t you see

I need to have you baby

Can’t you see

I can’t live without you

There’s no me

Can’t you see what you’re doing

I’m falling in love with you

& I won’t ever accept

Another man in my life

I’ll be your Super Mami

Your Honey, your Wife

Don’t need a certificate

Or a stone, this here is for life

I can picture the riches

Wouldn’t it be nice

If I could have you next to me

(Every day) until we leave this life

You gon’ be there when I stop my grind

You gon’ be there

You know you love me

Don’t tell me you forgot…

- 00/00/2007

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Before

I didn’t know any better

Mind set was like

Let’s get this chedda’

Now I am working harder than ever

Legitimately like I gotta live

I can’t be broke forever…

- 00/00/2007

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I live my life

By the will

Of God

Oh, give to my life

Your will, My God

I’ll be your (Super) Mami

You know them hoes

They don’t stick around

I’m all for you

How do you want me

I know it gets hard in buck town

I’ll be your modern Wifey

Apart from the home

I’m adapted to these streets

Keep you a happy home

(S*x on clean sheets)

I’ll be here

Take away any nightmares

Have no fear

I know

This life gets hard

I’ll be right here 2 lift you up

When God deals them’ hard cards

I know we be all up in the covers

I’m not a hater, I’m a lover

Can’t wait for the day you make it

& I see you doing your thing

No more play-fighting

Let’s make it right

Let’s get serious with one another

I want you in my life

I pray for you every day

Please, make it home safe today

Ay Bay Bay

Ya Dun Know

I be anticipating your arrival

Every day

I’m gon’ love you

(Like there’s) no other way

Only with all of me

& The love of God

As he guides our way

Yes, Daddy

Let’s make out pay

So we can say

Hey

We made it

Over the hills

(Through the struggle

To where we are supposed to be…)

- 00/00/2007

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My baby thinks I don’t care

What do I have to prove to show I’ll always be here

Neva’ leave your side, Have no fear

When you in need Super Mama right here…

- 00/00/2007

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If I abide in you will you ride with me?

I know you can be a bit abrasive

But I cherish your love I won’t misplace it

The absence of you would tear me up

You absolve me from some of the corrupt

& Without you I don’t know how much I would put up

I am accountable for all of my actions

And I choose to stay by your side whether

We grindin’ or relaxin;

Yes, you are

One of my passions…

- 00/00/2007