Karma is Instant...

What do you want from me
That you didn't already get
Karma is instant
Has me in a fit
Would never force your hand
Before I forced mine
Unless you gestured first
Now it's all on my mind
Some love turns us blind
Think then, it is really love
If it could be so cold, yet kind
Fake love surrounds many
They keep to it, rock it steady
It's just a lifestyle
Don't get caught up
I wanna touch & feel true love
I've had enough
With those who play games
Only to get in there
So you took as much
As any other, ya hear
Claim if feels nice
When you hold me near
Karma is instant
It's just the way life goes
Ups, Downs, Friends, Foes
Who in the end might
Come to like you
Thinkin' about you tonight
What am I to do, only what's right
Feels better to get it off my chest
Than to fake a smile & not say the rest
I still think you're the best
Unless someone else proove you wrong
But that could never be
Cause each person got a different level
That they on
Whats that song
The one I made about you
Wish you could hear it
What would we do...

Be Yourself...

Mentally stressed
Do what I do best
I don't even know what to say
It's all in the wind
It's blown away
Hopin' you would come and say
All the things I been needing to hear
Needing you near
But it's just a memory
Over, disconnected
Like your phone
Remember when
When you used
To leave me all alone
& I would patiently wait
Wait for you to come home
What a dog's world we live in
Everybody just trying to eat
Hungry for better health
And self knowledge
Is how it really should be
But their motives
Money makes so much sense to them
How many have you lost
To that mind-state
& Can we just elevate them
Got me off mine
Girl, I'm ready to stand up
These are my rights
Naw, I ain't gonna
Let no man touch
You must be out your mind
Told you so many times
Like they should have told me
Too much going on right now
I gotta get back to the old me
The real me, be myself.

Whoever You Are... (To Me.)

I wanna love you any way that I can
I wanna reach out and stretch my hands
Only in a dream cause you too far
Thinkin' bout you, how we gaze @ stars
Wondering what your up to, wherever you are
You seem to close to me to let go
But you're not mine and I already know
So me, I'm not strong enough and it shows
If only my fingertips I could learn to hold
Islam on my mind and Allah guiding my soul
I wanna be with you babe, till we grey and old
Only in a dream cause you too far
Thinkin' bout you, how we gaze @ stars
Wondering what your up to, wherever you are
Whoever you are...

Love Again...

I wanna give you all of me
Every last piece
I want to touch the stars for you
& Pull one down for you to keep
Ii'm going to tell you the truth
& I'm gonna keep it real
Every time I think of you
Your fingertips I can feel
If my heart was a token
It would be made for your games
With an unlimited amount of plays
My love would never fade
I need you more and more
The more I day dream
I feel like I'm a boat
Caught drifting down your stream
You give me light in the darkness
Hope in the middle of pain
That maybe one day I'll be fixed
& I can truly love again...

Love Again...

I wanna give you all of me
Every last piece
I want to touch the stats for you
& Pull one down for you to keep
Ii'm going to tell you the truth
& I'm gonna keep it real
Every time I think of you
Your fingertips I can feel
If my heart was a token
It would be made for your games
With an unlimited amount of plays
My love would never fade
I need you more and more
The more I day dream
I feel like I'm a boat
Caught drifting down your stream
You give me light in the darkness
Hope in the middle of pain
That maybe one day I'll be fixed
& I can truly love again...

Hmmmm... Again....

I tried to give you all of me
Cause I was raised seeing women give all their love
Unconditional, never issues about trust
What can I say
Was I fooling for not comprehending
Thinking I was worthless, started pretending
Feels like there's no way out
But there is
Keep on trying harder and harder
There's no rushing
Patience takes time
& If the change is on your mind
Just do it, don't hold back
Freedom is like, at hand
Self knowledge and mental clarity
There's really no other way
I know I'll make it past today
If I think like an optimist
Always remembering the pain of depression
You wasn't even checkin'
I told you something wasn't right
I was ready to change my life
I guess you, you just had to go
Had to show me so much, let me grow
Without many words I could tell
What's at hand, to loose you
Because of my madness
I just gotta live with
Call you still
Somethings gotta give, shit
What can I say
Other than you had to go away
But it made me stronger in a way
So now me, this girl, she don't play
If you gonna gwan like that
I'd rather keep it moving
That's what they say
So you can act
Play for play
But
Don't bring that shit
Around my way.
Keep it clean baby....

Time For a Story

Give me what you have within you..(a small story)

A wise woman who was traveling in the mountains found a precious stone in a stream. The next day she met another traveler who was hungry, and the wise woman opened her bag to share her food. The hungry traveler saw the precious stone and asked the woman to give it to him. She did so without hesitation.

The traveler left, rejoicing his good fortune. He knew the stone was worth enough to give him security for a lifetime.

But a few days later he came back to return the stone to the wise woman.
"I've been thinking," He said, "I know how valuable the stone is, but I give it back in the hope that you can give me something even more precious: Give me what you have within you that enabled you to give me the stone (Generosity)."


Learn and apply it to your self In Shaa Allah :)
By: Women In Islam

Hmmmm......

I'm so scared
But I was told fear nothing but Allah
I'm so cold
But I know spring & summer will come
I'm so lost
But I always ask to be lead on the straight path
I'm so broken
But I know the right one will come
& I will have already been in the right mind for some time
I know my weaknesses
& It's a blessing to have acknowledged them
I know my strengths
& I pray for the confidence to let them shine
& I know my obstacles
& I know I will conquer and surpass them with time
I Always Have Allah on my mind.
I know I want things that are not practical.
I thank Allah for showing me things I had never really grasped.
I'm talking life here, what a world we live in.
They say get in where you fit in but is
Where you fit in even really right?

You're Not Just Someone I Used To Know / Know

You're Not Just Someone I Used To Know or Know
You're Someone Who Helped Me Grow...
Helped Me Find Out...
What I Want In Life...
That's Right...

That Moment Ago

From time to time
I think of you
& How you helped me though
You brang out that change
Even through the pain
Whatever remains
Is the sweet memory of your name
& How you silently helped me change.

That Moment

From time to time
I think of you
If you catch me on a down day
I'll be wearing blue
Oooh
You're on my mind
You're on my mind
Maybe in time
Maybe in time
You'll be mine
You'll be mine
& You'll see
You'll see
What I see
What I see
& We can be
Just the way
We were destined to be
Yes.

W.H.A.T.T.

Things are the way they are
But things change, wish on a star
I put a penny in my pocket
& Wished for you
Lucky penny bring pleasure
But also that rainy hazy blues
What's a girl to do
I put a star between my fingers
In an imaginary way
Because that star
Is actually really far away
There's so much I could say
If only you had the heart to listen
You stand out you that flicker
That glistens, am I wrong to love him
Or have a crush as mommy says
Baskin Robins, 31 flavours
I'm no hater
& I'm not into hoe'in
Even though my past actions
Were showing
A different me
But can't you see
Change is persistent
It forms all day and all night
So maybe one day
I might be your wife.

Disgusting

These habits I have
Are disgusting
Mis-trusting
They lead to the wrong path
I gotta change course fast
Without looking back
I can overcome it
If only I try
To replace a deed
With a better deed
Help someone in need
Expand my horizons
Pray in silence
Keep remembrance
& Remember the love
That created me
& The sky up above
As well as everything
Under it.
Hmm.. I really gotta do better
Cause' these habits are disgusting.

Love You So

Old habits die hard
Ember in the dark
There's gotta be another way
Smokin' on ciggz n weed all day
I know I'll find a window
Of fresh air
& Free my mind
Thinkin' of you
Wish you were near
It would be so nice
To have you here
I could drink your silence
Though you always speaking
So I'm still thirsty
U know the meaning
Give you time to think
Though you like to party
Days go by
Talk to you, hardly
Called your phone
Though you're never there
Is that even your phone
I don't even care
Some years gone by
Still need him here
Of all the games you play
Is it to make me stronger
So I can love you longer ?

Why Your Family Always Tells You To "Wait" Till You're Older - They Really Just Want The Best

I swear some people really contradict themselves and I really don't want to be one of them. Having kids at a young age can be hard, I grew up with a single mother type home.

If you can plan for your future why not start now. You can do anything you please, out of the goodness of your heart. Take from people fairly and create a peaceful environment wherever you go or you can stack bread off of the loss of peoples wealth, health, mentality, courage and so on. What type of person are you ?

Some people want to be known and applauded for their flyness' and some just want to make the world a better place. Why not have a job and a relationship that is built on 100% complete honesty and good values. You choose your life and you make what you make / take what you take out of it from day to day. You make or break your mindset.

My question is if a person has no idea how to really live a stable and real life, with a legitimate cash flow, decent rent and still have time to be themselves what are the chances they are ready for a relationship. You need to focus on yourself first and relationships, they come & they go. The love never truly fades for me so honestly, I wish the best for all of the people I've been with or had love for.

All I really have to say is the best thing to do sometimes is just wait, be patient, have faith, learn to overcome your fears, stay real and love honestly.

We'll See...

Thought it was the moon
For a second of a second in time
Thought you were mine
For a second of a second in time
Re-wind, you could almost turn me blind
But I see you & how you shine
Speaking of you in my mind
Bring a smile to my face, a rhyme
That I gotta speak I swear
There is temptation everywhere
I just gotta get free
From all the negativity
Hope he guides me right
On the straight path in life
Is where I'm walking right?
Beware, but don't be scared
Guilty pleasures got a hold on you
You don't care
Well I Care
I feel em' creepin' on me
They just stare
& I won't take part
Though it's hard to let go
Smoking as if there was no hazard
Holding out but you slippin'
Wondering when I'm going to see you
Maybe when a better me emerges
I'll finally set my eyes
On the one for me
Lately I been hopin' it's you
Tell me, what's a young girl to do
Totally & Completely confused
If I don't think about it so much
I usually know what to do
Now that second of a second has passed
I realize its a lamp post only
& Also that your no longer close
Close enough to touch such a wonder
Amazed at the things God created
Can I get your number
Cause' like lettin' you go off
& Not lettin' you know
Would be like Holdin' back on
Checkin' that Super 7 Lotto
Baby, you know you know
That you never really know
Time will only tell
& I have love for you
Come feel it one day
You don't even have to be near me
That's all I have to say
So let it be
Let it be
& We'll See...