I know you gotta fetish
Those eyes they wander
They embrace beauty at its finest
Damn, I'm mindless
If only you could see
What you mean to be
She's what you want
But I'm what you need
What a world we live in
I'll just let it be
Wishing you could hold me
Refraining from being selfish
& To No One I Can Tell This
How I Really Feel Inside
So I Keep It Closed Down
But They Already Know
That I Stay High Off The Indo
Lookin' Out My Window
Wishin' It Was You Pullin' Up
Ready To Resign Cause If It Was You
I'd Sit Down, Sign The Line & Say "I Do..."
Monday, January 30, 2012
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Random Thought #10000000143 ???
Something fresh
Alotta Respect
Detailed & Deep
Conversations
& As I Fall Asleep
I Wonder if You Think of Me
These Feeling I Have
I Hope It's Not Bad
If I Let You Know
About Them You Know What I Mean
Let Me Show You
What it Really Means
If You Know What I Mean...
Alotta Respect
Detailed & Deep
Conversations
& As I Fall Asleep
I Wonder if You Think of Me
These Feeling I Have
I Hope It's Not Bad
If I Let You Know
About Them You Know What I Mean
Let Me Show You
What it Really Means
If You Know What I Mean...
I Won't Let Them Media-Takeout Me...
We all doing things without thinking
Thinking It's Making Us Happy
Then I see You With You Lady In The Club
& I Remember back in the day
When I wanted to have yo baby
So in love but so sad
The way this girl moves
Its too bad I had to loose you
Now you have it all
Probably think of me seldom
Back against the wall
Last dollar to my name
Spent on the ttc to work
Most likely but you had
A job since time
Rich for life you just might be
If not now then very soon
And the memories loom
Though you helped me
You cause some pain
Things will just never
Be the same I was
so Innocent with you
and I feel like you
Broke me, maybe I
Broke myself for you
Opened myself for you
And it hurt, to see
Things I had never
really seen. Is that
on you or is that on me.
Had the chance but you
know me when it comes to logic.
Maybe it's just better this way
Because when people change for
The better nobody can stop it.
1 Love...
Thinking It's Making Us Happy
Then I see You With You Lady In The Club
& I Remember back in the day
When I wanted to have yo baby
So in love but so sad
The way this girl moves
Its too bad I had to loose you
Now you have it all
Probably think of me seldom
Back against the wall
Last dollar to my name
Spent on the ttc to work
Most likely but you had
A job since time
Rich for life you just might be
If not now then very soon
And the memories loom
Though you helped me
You cause some pain
Things will just never
Be the same I was
so Innocent with you
and I feel like you
Broke me, maybe I
Broke myself for you
Opened myself for you
And it hurt, to see
Things I had never
really seen. Is that
on you or is that on me.
Had the chance but you
know me when it comes to logic.
Maybe it's just better this way
Because when people change for
The better nobody can stop it.
1 Love...
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Wassup Thoughts...
Give me a place to express myself
Whether they feel me or not
So many decisions to make
Gotta make the right ones
So many feelings I feel
Gotta decipher which ones real
Tellin the truth slippin up
Memories make me tell em
But I told em what can I say
Why do you make me feel this way
I wanna live a good life
Do things that make me feel good
I wonder if you ever think of me
I know I think you should
I wonder what it would be like
To conversate deep with you
On several subjects
Life is rough
But when I'm with you
I Love It..
Whether they feel me or not
So many decisions to make
Gotta make the right ones
So many feelings I feel
Gotta decipher which ones real
Tellin the truth slippin up
Memories make me tell em
But I told em what can I say
Why do you make me feel this way
I wanna live a good life
Do things that make me feel good
I wonder if you ever think of me
I know I think you should
I wonder what it would be like
To conversate deep with you
On several subjects
Life is rough
But when I'm with you
I Love It..
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Instrumental: I don't know how I should be feeling in this sily mess I made, but if it's true, would I have been so easily forgotten.
I think about my past & I'm grateful for what I have I brush off my bad thoughts even though I'm still mad My moms worked 3 jobs to make up for my dad She raised me as a single mother no sisters no brothers I grew up and observed other peoples lives wondering why everyday I go home and see pain in my mothers eyes I woke up one day and God took me by surprise I want to tell the truth Dear lord no more lies I never excelled in school It was tuffaz Instead I loved to daydream like I was still tucked into my covers About how one day we would be living good.
2007
2007
Untitled
There's this dude that I know
Oh yes, I love him so
But fuck - he'll never know
How much I love him
I can't loose him
Gotta stop
Don't want to
Abuse him
He will never know
How much I love him
- April 4th 2007
Oh yes, I love him so
But fuck - he'll never know
How much I love him
I can't loose him
Gotta stop
Don't want to
Abuse him
He will never know
How much I love him
- April 4th 2007
Untitled
I met him through a friend
There was no one else
Myself - I couldn't help
I fell in deep and when it passed
I couldn't sleep
Nothing left for me in this land
I had a new plan
So I hopped on a plane
Things will never be the same
This Dude that I used to know
Oh how I loved him so
Now he's gone
& He'll never know
How much he was loved
And lost
We've all loved
and lost
I met him on the street
There were so many others
But I cut them all off
In hope something could pop off
Let the liquor speak for me
Now we grindin' call me his shorty
For all my mistakes im sorry
I pray to the lord
That time for me he can afford
I see it in his eyes
He act like he don't care
But I see it in his eyes
I sit and cry
Wondering whats there in his eyes
Apri 4th 2007
There was no one else
Myself - I couldn't help
I fell in deep and when it passed
I couldn't sleep
Nothing left for me in this land
I had a new plan
So I hopped on a plane
Things will never be the same
This Dude that I used to know
Oh how I loved him so
Now he's gone
& He'll never know
How much he was loved
And lost
We've all loved
and lost
I met him on the street
There were so many others
But I cut them all off
In hope something could pop off
Let the liquor speak for me
Now we grindin' call me his shorty
For all my mistakes im sorry
I pray to the lord
That time for me he can afford
I see it in his eyes
He act like he don't care
But I see it in his eyes
I sit and cry
Wondering whats there in his eyes
Apri 4th 2007
March 10, 2009
Spent so much time on a guy
& I wonder why
He don't see me
Why he don't feel me
Can you hear me ?!
& I wonder why
He don't see me
Why he don't feel me
Can you hear me ?!
If I… had Wings They Would Wanna…
IF I HAD WINGS: ‘
They would wanna be
Wrapped around you all the time
If I had wings
I would not be frightened
Of where they would take me
If I had wings
It would explain my movements
My lifestyle, my culture, my influences, my nature
If I had wings, I would understand my self, more or less?
To cloathe myself in my own wings is
Useless but comforting, lonely and boring
To have you in my centerfold would be truly wonderful
Not just anyone, selfish enough to abuse me without words
Strength in nonsense and ambiguity, or in selflessnes?
I really don’t know and I don’t care
Although I should know
Because it would keep me safer
What is safe? in a concrete jungle
More like a spreadsheet on the horizon
Full of beautiful dangers and trivial traps
What is safe? to be in someone’s arms never knowing
Like – how they really feel?
Masking nothing with everything
I’m so confused, where do we stand
Where are your wings because if you have a pair
I sometimes feel like you may think of
Wrapping them around me
Tell me, is it true, or am I still Dreaming…
- 15/01/2010
They would wanna be
Wrapped around you all the time
If I had wings
I would not be frightened
Of where they would take me
If I had wings
It would explain my movements
My lifestyle, my culture, my influences, my nature
If I had wings, I would understand my self, more or less?
To cloathe myself in my own wings is
Useless but comforting, lonely and boring
To have you in my centerfold would be truly wonderful
Not just anyone, selfish enough to abuse me without words
Strength in nonsense and ambiguity, or in selflessnes?
I really don’t know and I don’t care
Although I should know
Because it would keep me safer
What is safe? in a concrete jungle
More like a spreadsheet on the horizon
Full of beautiful dangers and trivial traps
What is safe? to be in someone’s arms never knowing
Like – how they really feel?
Masking nothing with everything
I’m so confused, where do we stand
Where are your wings because if you have a pair
I sometimes feel like you may think of
Wrapping them around me
Tell me, is it true, or am I still Dreaming…
- 15/01/2010
Do you EVER think about ME? Really…
DO YOU: Even love me
Could you even love me
Would you even love me
Stupid questions right
Like he wants to say some bullshit like, “what is love, really.”
F**k, can’t you just say you love me
Love is sopposed to be when your far away
From some one but you long to be right next to them!
Love is sopposed to be like
Being able to look at life through
The same perspective as some one else
Love is sopposed to be how you wouldn’t wanna
& Couldn’t even bear to see me ridin’ with another
Love is sopposed to be the way you looked at me
When I swear, once in my life – you kissed my lips
Love is sopposed to be this tingly nervous feeling
That overcomes me when I feel your nearer, and nearer
& Never are you ever, sopposed to let me go…
Not even for one second…
Do you EVEN ever EVER think OF ME or ABOUT ME ?
Huh, do you? I just wonder…. because your on my mind like 22/7
& It hasn’t been 365 yet, but you might get lucky…. Cleanie… Freak….
- 20/01/2010
Could you even love me
Would you even love me
Stupid questions right
Like he wants to say some bullshit like, “what is love, really.”
F**k, can’t you just say you love me
Love is sopposed to be when your far away
From some one but you long to be right next to them!
Love is sopposed to be like
Being able to look at life through
The same perspective as some one else
Love is sopposed to be how you wouldn’t wanna
& Couldn’t even bear to see me ridin’ with another
Love is sopposed to be the way you looked at me
When I swear, once in my life – you kissed my lips
Love is sopposed to be this tingly nervous feeling
That overcomes me when I feel your nearer, and nearer
& Never are you ever, sopposed to let me go…
Not even for one second…
Do you EVEN ever EVER think OF ME or ABOUT ME ?
Huh, do you? I just wonder…. because your on my mind like 22/7
& It hasn’t been 365 yet, but you might get lucky…. Cleanie… Freak….
- 20/01/2010
Love me so we Grow or just 4 Show ?
TELL ME WHAT THIS IS:
Because I am truly confused
Should I move on, and assume the role
They may not want me to take?
Or should I wait, learn to be patient
And handle your blows?
Or maybe I like it when you blow…
I wish you were more like the wind
Yeah – you’re always under my chin
Getting under my skin, in my ears
Closer to my heart, brushing past every hair on my neck
I wish you were more like the sun
But the sun does not shine for me
It shines for all – so I guess
I should allow you.
I wish you wanted me forever
And I wish you loved it when we’re together…
So much that you would
Never ever wanna let me go!
I guess then again you are the wind
You are my sun – the son
My air, you do – let me breathe… (but)
You go too far, get too busy and oh man!
I wish I was the highlight of your day
And your week and your year
I wish I deleted all your fears
I wish you didn’t instill more in me like
Where are you
What are you doing
Are you thinking of me
And do you really love me
Are you always gonna be there for me
I wish that you would always be there for me!
I wish you were my soldier
Fighting for our love
Leading us to fidelity and
Like freedom – from all the things that
Condemn our love for each other
(Stupid shit, like you’re down 4 me shit, shit)
Shiii, I want to be yours
And if you read this shiii – which I hope you don’t.. (I lied.)
Cause’ It was all for you and all about you – never anyone else.
I started this wordpress thing
Trying to convey my feelings to my other half. (MEEEE)
I realized that my other half was not
Whom I believed her to be and she became a he… (YOUUUU)
Truly mine, (ORRR NOTTTT) hah – but he gave up on the chase
Oh uhmm wait a minute….
Why you nah’ wanna chase me for baby love?
Didn’t you know you make me feel like your Baby, love?
I want you to know that if you show me, I’ll never hold back
I want you to know that when you hold me I never want you to let go
Maybe the last time you layed on me I should have held you tight
Again, maybe my only regret is like, not asking you to stay longer…
My only thoughts are on leaving because I ran, and all I do is run
I don’t want to run away anymore
I wish you knew how much I cared
So much that I didn’t wanna be in a room
Where everything reminds me of you
Being there without you, waiting for you – like… a child…
This is not fucking daycare
Do they care? NO …
You are sopposed to care though!
Feels nice to be there, I should be there…
I wanna ride for you and be
Able to pledge for ya but honestly
Your so cold
I mean, your’re so warm!
I wish I could warm your heart like the April sunlight
And some might not ever hesitate to label me lowly…
But I think you are right – maybe we should take this thing slowly…
Do you love me ? Because I feel like Juliette
Who gotta opposite of Romeo, Romeo
– Like stay up there bitch – you way over dressed.
I gotta confess, I really might just not understand you….
- 20/01/2010
Because I am truly confused
Should I move on, and assume the role
They may not want me to take?
Or should I wait, learn to be patient
And handle your blows?
Or maybe I like it when you blow…
I wish you were more like the wind
Yeah – you’re always under my chin
Getting under my skin, in my ears
Closer to my heart, brushing past every hair on my neck
I wish you were more like the sun
But the sun does not shine for me
It shines for all – so I guess
I should allow you.
I wish you wanted me forever
And I wish you loved it when we’re together…
So much that you would
Never ever wanna let me go!
I guess then again you are the wind
You are my sun – the son
My air, you do – let me breathe… (but)
You go too far, get too busy and oh man!
I wish I was the highlight of your day
And your week and your year
I wish I deleted all your fears
I wish you didn’t instill more in me like
Where are you
What are you doing
Are you thinking of me
And do you really love me
Are you always gonna be there for me
I wish that you would always be there for me!
I wish you were my soldier
Fighting for our love
Leading us to fidelity and
Like freedom – from all the things that
Condemn our love for each other
(Stupid shit, like you’re down 4 me shit, shit)
Shiii, I want to be yours
And if you read this shiii – which I hope you don’t.. (I lied.)
Cause’ It was all for you and all about you – never anyone else.
I started this wordpress thing
Trying to convey my feelings to my other half. (MEEEE)
I realized that my other half was not
Whom I believed her to be and she became a he… (YOUUUU)
Truly mine, (ORRR NOTTTT) hah – but he gave up on the chase
Oh uhmm wait a minute….
Why you nah’ wanna chase me for baby love?
Didn’t you know you make me feel like your Baby, love?
I want you to know that if you show me, I’ll never hold back
I want you to know that when you hold me I never want you to let go
Maybe the last time you layed on me I should have held you tight
Again, maybe my only regret is like, not asking you to stay longer…
My only thoughts are on leaving because I ran, and all I do is run
I don’t want to run away anymore
I wish you knew how much I cared
So much that I didn’t wanna be in a room
Where everything reminds me of you
Being there without you, waiting for you – like… a child…
This is not fucking daycare
Do they care? NO …
You are sopposed to care though!
Feels nice to be there, I should be there…
I wanna ride for you and be
Able to pledge for ya but honestly
Your so cold
I mean, your’re so warm!
I wish I could warm your heart like the April sunlight
And some might not ever hesitate to label me lowly…
But I think you are right – maybe we should take this thing slowly…
Do you love me ? Because I feel like Juliette
Who gotta opposite of Romeo, Romeo
– Like stay up there bitch – you way over dressed.
I gotta confess, I really might just not understand you….
- 20/01/2010
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