Sometimes I just want to delete my blog. I hope God can forgive me and that you can forgive me if I've ever wrote anything that hurt you. It hurts me, that's why I write. Xo.

Roses

Love Me Yes or Love Me Not You Told Me Once But I Forgot Say It Again & That You’ll Never Stop

Best Of Me...

Let me love you & never stop Come on babe lets take a walk You can take all that I have All that I've got

The Resistance

I'm always talking about you
How can I not, you're so dope
I need doses of you to get me high
I'm high off this life
I'm so happy to be with you
Yet so sad, cause you're not mine
Maybe with time
You'll grow with me
& We'll blossom
So beautiful
The both of us
Tell me in who
Do you trust
God
Give me the grace
To work things through
To feel it out
To let him do
&; To just let us be
I love when it's just You & Me

Escalators

I'll Wish On A Shooting Star For Me & You
& You're Right There The Whole Time
Standing There, So Close Yet So Far

Only ME Can Hold ME Back...

This year I'm not gonna cry
This year I'll stop asking why
This year I'll let go
This year I'll enjoy the snow
Cold like your heart
That tore us apart
No love for me anymore?
What the fuck was I with you for
Trying and trying to move on
Well I finally did it
I'm sorry I hid it
Shoulda yelled it to the world
I'm not his girl
But it's been like that for years
All those tears
Wasted on you
But This poem
Is not because I still love you
It's because you helped me
Helped me realize that I'm free
&  I deserve to be loved
& I deserve to know what true love is
& I deserve to be respected, treated right
Treated with love, unconditional love
So please, don't hold me back

Passive Aggression

I shouldn't have to deal with this
But this is what I got myself into
I love you, yes I do.
I wish you were fully mine.
Since time.

Let's Just Start Fresh

This new one is not so new
But I want him
What am I to do
When he knows the true, cold truth
No lies, what you put me through
Is all about self respect
Still have regrets
I'm always fuckin' up in your eyes
But what about in mine
Do you even know
How you make me feel sometimes
It's outta control
This level of compassion
I just keep giving and giving
But when I break for one second
You always catch me
Sometimes I need that
Are you willing to be that
Tell me you love me
Did you even mean that ?
Happy New Years Baby
Let's Just Start Fresh

Fuckin' Up

I know I have issues
We all do
Fuck this weak shit
What am I gonna do
Who can I talk to
What am I gonna say
Can I keep this all in
No Way
I gotta speak
I need to be heard
Can't you see
How much you mean to me
I don't wanna push you away
But you're already so far
Sometimes I wish on a star
For you and me
To be the best we can be
For us to grow closer, eventually
For now I just need to be strong
No more weed for the sing along
What's a girl to do
When the only thing she want'
Is to be with you !

Happy New Years Baby

I wanna give you my everything, my all
But it’s hard because you don’t recieve
The way I’d expect you to recieve
What am I supposed to believe
What you need
I hoped that you could find that
In me
Sometimes I fuck up
I hesitate, get neurvos
Get butterflies, heart fluxuates
Is it too late
Tell me we have all the time
All the time in this world to explore
Explore each other more
You think you know me
& You just might
I used to be one
To put up a fight
But for some years now
That’s the shit I don’t like
Loving you should be easy
& I’m not saying it’s hard
I just mean for a girl like me
To fall for a guy like you
Who’s not ready, who’s confused
Who knows whats good
So what are we gonna do
I should just keep giving my all
But it’s never enough
Shoulda took you up on that
Cause I know one day you’ll see
That I was made for you
& You were made for me

Truthfully Speaking...

It’s hard to loosen my grip, I've tried before. I wish we could do the opposite and just hold each other tight. You don’t have the time, I don’t have the time. What are we to do. Opportunities knocking at my door. Business to deal with. Chances to take. Fully emotional and growing still, realizing my dreams, trying to make them happen. Who are you to me and who am I to you, we know but we just don’t know. I want to make it right. I should have kissed you longer, maybe it would of made us stronger. What do we have now, or what we have now, tell me what it means to you. Tell me the truth.

Lessons

If ever I could open my mouth

And make sense

Sometimes I really don't know

This is Random

But I Need To Find Time

& Use It For The Better

Here We Go...

How Strong R You...

You bring a smile to my face
That no one can remove
When I think of you
It's all or nothing, win or loose
 All that money I been spending
Got me confused
No diamonds and furs
Just bags, clothes and shoes
I like what I see
You that type of dude
Excuse me for being selfish
Excuse me for being rude
You act like it's only me
When we're together
And that's good
But when you online
You everywhere
& It Hurts
But I'mma let it go
I'm strong
How strong are you though....

Just a Thought (Thinking of You)

So what am I to do? When I already know what it is and I'm truly confused. Can't be more clear than the cards babe, the only other option is to wait it out, plant seeds & watch them grow. Do you even know? How I feel for you, still. It's already pretty clear to me so forgive me for being selfish but I just gotta know, are you down ?

Note:

Posting Some Old Shit
I Found Some More Work
Between 2010-2011
Love Yuh !! Xo

PROBLEMS

I'M SORRY I HAD TO GO
IT JUST
WASN'T UNDER MY CONTROLL

WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
HOW THINGS COME TO BE
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY PEOPLE HAVE TO LEAVE
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY WE WERE SPLIT APART
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
PROBLEMS OF THE HEART
WERE SO FOOLISH
WERE SO ABUSIVE
WE NEED TO STOP

I KNOW THAT IT HURTS
WHY CAN'T YOU SEE
WHAT WE CAN'T COMPREHEND
BUT WE STILL BELIEVE

PROBLEMS AND PAIN
IT'S NOT A GAME
THIS IS REAL
DON'T LET EMOTIONS
CHANGE HOW YOU FEEL
FOLLOW YOU MIND
AND SOMETIMES YOUR SOUL
ALLOW LIFE TO UNFOLD
AND STAY STRONG
STAY STRONG
FOR ME & YOU

WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY WE ARE LOST
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
HOW WE CAN BE FOUND
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
HOW LOVE OUR STILL LIVES ON
EVEN THOUGH WERE NOT AROUND
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
HOW WE COULD
HAVE A LONG DISTANCE LOVE
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
BUT HE WATCHES FROM ABOVE

I KNOW THAT IT HURTS
WHY CAN'T YOU SEE
WHAT WE CAN'T COMPREHEND
BUT WE STILL BELIEVE

PROBLEMS AND PAIN
IT'S NOT A GAME
THIS IS REAL
DON'T LET EMOTIONS
CHANGE HOW YOU FEEL
FOLLOW YOU MIND
AND SOMETIMES YOUR HEART
ALLOW LIFE TO UNFOLD
AND STAY STRONG
STAY STRONG
FOR ME & YOU

- 09/4/2010