I Would Rather

Be with ya

And not pretend

Sleep with ya

And not give in

To my wants

And needs

Because you

Don’t offer

& Any girl

That makes

A move on you

You don’t stop her

But I watch her

& I’m the only one

& I won’t jump

I mean I jumped

But I can’t front

Looking back I had too

I cried, so confused

Could already pre-feel it

The demise

And so I let it be

The scars are proof

The never ending story

One of these days

I’ts going to bore me

& When I fully forget

You remind me

You all won’t

Let it happen

But Mr. Carter

What you mean

It’s a reaction

Of my effects on them

Should I be less on him

Am I all wrong

& Am I not true

Or am I just shy

Am I allowed to be me

Do I get to know why..

Mr. Marco what’s up

Claim you don’t read much

But it looks like you been studying…

- 03/04/2010

Well We All Must Do It Pretty Well…

IN A PLACE OF MY OWN:

Only you can hold me

Only you can be just right

Only for you, will I put up with these fights

And battles in my own mind

I will overcome them

I will wipe them out

I am strong

I don’t need myself to tie myself down

I need myself to set myself free

I need you to love me

love me as I am

Love me for who I will become

Or what may come

Or else, just don’t love me at all

What is Destiny

And what is Fate

I am loving and understanding

But there should always be a line

You drew me a line

Now I feel trapped

Trapped from the inside out

Display in a plastic box

In the middle of a desert

Exile and Textiles

The Modern World

And were off to the Party

Wanna Come ?

See you There, Maybe ?

Just my Dreams…

If this isn’t Love then

Love truly does not exist…

- 11/04/2010

What is this World without You, F*ck…

SWEET IRONIES: and Bright Lights, I mean a bright computer screen. I swear your mean. Maybe I am the mean one. I keep wondering if you tweaked time, tweaked peoples minds or else your just that damn good. You know my mind all to well, I am trying to place the moments but it’s just not coming back. I am thinking of all the lucky ladies, that you f*cked, told you loved, layed down with and gave your heart to. I know you are never, but do you ever think of me in these ways, I really wonder. If I never see you again, or if you show up – I know I won’t say It – however, I’m sorry and how big is this conspiracy, because I miss you. I love the old you, the simple you. I miss you. The rude, controlling, genuine, motivated person I always knew. I know you know I am not talking about you but if you know who you are, you gotta I know I really love you. Brotherly Love over other Loves, Sisterly Love if they may ask, but hey – I still want like two or more official husbands, and I don’t want to have to lie…. jokes. We should all just be honest man, I love you boy – don’t know who I loved first or who you loved last, but your boy is piece of shit. I mean he’s a piece of work, a piece of glory, a piece of God just like you AND I love you both, I can’t decide. However y’all know you that Fire, burning up these females… I need my hands yo, but I WANT TO touch… I really want to, I’m sure we can work around the hands issue, jk. You are both figments of my imagination apparently, so it’s all on the future, fate and my awfull desicions making. I would hope you make the right choices and first moves, like you always do… Sorry if I skipped on you or I mean… just walked by, I’m just not that Girl anymore, hopefully… I am someone BETTER…

King C.A.K.E.Z….
I am waiting for you…
I REALLY MISS YOU(S)…

IMPATIENTLY….
& IF YOU NEVA COMING HOME
I AIN’T HATING, I GUESS I’M A LOST
CIVILLIZATION, ANCIENT LIKE THE MAYANS….

- 12/04/2010

There is No One Else

There is No One Else

But yourself

And

If you

Are hip hop

Then I am

Rhythm & Blues

If you are

A white suit

Then I am

Blue suede shoes

If you are strength

Then I am agility

And beauty if you

Are the essence

Of life then I am

the rebirth of

The thought of

creativity

And creation

And you are

A mirror

A vision

Sand and

The land

And the

Air and

I am the

Water or

The caves

The trees

Shade me

Give me

Life

Make me

His

Wife

I’ll call

You

A dream…

- 17/04/2010

2010

OF ALL THE OUTLETS

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL IS
SELFLESS SELF EXPRESSION

HOW COME

THURSDAY, APRIL 8, 2010

HOW COME

I DON'T WANT TO BE SELFISH BUT
HOW COME I CAN ONLY BE SELF-LESS.

2008

KEEP IT 100

CAN'T DENY THAT ITS SO REAL

SO DEEP IT'S LIKE MY SOUL FEEL
IT'S TIME 4 ELEVATION
GENERATION THROUGH GENERATION
JUST KEEP IT REAL
CAUSE THEY GOTTA REALLY FEEL
JUST KEEP IT TRUE
YOU JUST' GOTTA DO YOU
DISREGARD WHAT THEY SAY
CAUSE YOU GOTTA MAKE A WAY
WE GONNA MAKE IT THROUGH
IT'S JUST ME & YOU
ALONG WITH THA WORLD
THA MEGA CITY
& THA BOROUGH
ONE STEP AT A TIME
MAKE SURE YOUR GOALS ARE THOROUGH
YOU GOTTA MAKE IT
REGARDLESS OF OBSTACLES
BABY, JUMP THEM' HURDLES
TAKE A MAJOR IN LIFE CAUSE'
THE BEST TEACHER IS EXPERIENCE

2009

MY FLAWS? WHAT FLAWS? YOU MEAN FLAWS IN THE SYSTEM OR FLAWS IN OUR SOCIETY, OUR NEIGHBORHOOD, OUR PEOPLES MINDS?

2009

MAYBE BAYBE

BUT
I DON'T
REALLY KNOW
THE THINGS THAT
YOU DO TO ME MAKE ME
WANNA GO
AWAY AND
FIND ANOTHER
PLACE FOR MY MIND
I DON'T REALLY KNOW BUT
I FEEL LIKE I
WAS MADE
CREATIVE
VIOLENTLY
BY DESIGN
AND THIS MADNESS
WELL SHE NEEDS TO RESIGN
CAUSE I AINT UP 4 ALL OF THIS
& I DIDN'T SIGN
SO WHATS THE DEAL YO
I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS REAL YO
SO MANY FALICIES, SO MANY VICTIMS
SO MANY DELIBERATES
SO MUCH FICTION
I DON'T KNOW
BUT BABY
I WANT
YOU
TO
SET
ME FREE

2009

ME & ONLY ME

BACK TO MYSELF
BACK TO ORIGINAL
MORPHED & ADAPTED
YET THEY HAVE
NO PRINCIPLES
STUCK IN THE TRAP
SHIT
DOUGH IS THEIR DECISION
I'M ROUGH FROM THEIR
CARELESS INCISIONS
SPEAKING TO MYSELF
LIKE DAMN, GIRL
YOU GOTTA LISTEN
WON'T DENY MYSELF
WHAT I TRULY NEED
I'M JUST THINKIN'
AFTER ALL
HOW COULD IT BE
THAT THEY STILL WOULDN'T FEEL IT
WOULND'T UNDERSTAND
THEY WOULD STILL KEEP JUST TAKING FROM ME
RIGHT FROM MY HAND
HOW COULD YOU, YOUR LOVE IS A LIE
I WOULDN'T EVEN CRY & I KNOW WHY
I'M OVER IT
WON'T KEEP IT ALL INSIDE
TOOK ME ALL NIGHT
( TO REALIZE )

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE ( ART, MUSIC, & YOU )

2009

2009

ASKIN' WHY WHY LIFE'S THIS WAY; HIS MOM SAID BE A REALEST & LET IT GO BECAUSE' PAIN IS UNIVERSAL & WE ALL FEEL IT

2009

TOUGH TIMES, OLD RHYMES, PRETTY MEMORIES, NEW STORIES, A LONG BEAUTIFUL JOURNEY, FRESH LIKE SPRINGTIME, A NEW PREFACE, BABY

The Calm...

I only wanna wish well upon others
It seems like we all got issues and it bothers me
That sometimes, most times only
The person that suffers is the one who solves
We all have something different
That weighs on our minds from time to time
That really bothers us
The problems change as we go on
What to do
All I can say is like
How could you let yourself get so worked up
It's not worth it
How could I let myself get so worked up
We could have solved it calmly...

The One ?

Words can't express the way I feel inside
Every time I think of you I picture looking in your eyes
Smile so bright it could light up the sky
But who's smile am I speaking of, yours or mine ?
We could be perfect yet you're so far away
I'm not all talk & baby I don't play
I'd come to you, I'd run to you
I'd be down for you, for real
Said you felt love before
Well tell me, how does it feel ?
I've sensed love at it's finest
But your love would be timeless
Pristine, on point, sincere
How long have I known you
How many years ?
They say friends before lovers
Well I'm in fear
Fear that you won't accept whats right here
All of me and much more
Emotions, inspirations
The moves you be making
Make me wanna
Make you the one.

24 Muharram 1433

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