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Where in the world is my King?

Babygirls consciously waiting for the right thing

What is love really, but heart ache

Every man in my life made my heart break

Where is the one who haunts my dreams

Always an empty throne next to me it seems

When he comes along I’ll give him the world

Anything & Everything cause’ I’m his girl

I need a man that will take me out for dinner

& Knows I’ll never leave even if his paper gets thinner…

(An Excerpt.)

- 17/04/2006

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I guess I’m your girl

But only when your lonely

Won’t even kiss me

Won’t even hold me

What happened to the sweetness in your eyes?

I see it for what it is now, & I’m surprised

That I fell for & couldn’t see past your lies

You wouldn’t want me to be yours everynight

But baby in your arms I feel too right

I haven’t know you long enough but I’d fight

To be the girl you actually care about

I wish you were ready for me and that route

I don’t understand why you wouldn’t want me

Because thoughts of you & your smile still haunt me

The world is so cold, why do you leave me standing here

In the beginning I was confident now all I feel is fear

Baby I need you, I want you right here

My feelings have grown too strong to just let them fade

How can you just destroy what we made?

(An Excerpt.)

- 17/04/2006

To My Unknown Future Husband

When my manz’ in trouble I’m 1st on the scene

Anything to bring him to safety, nice & clean

I want you to know I’ll love you

I want you to know no 1z’ above you

No doubt, I’ll give you feelings you ain’t had

Don’t be scared, none of its bad

I wanna make you happy, not sad

And definitely never mad

I got you & I got you good

& If I had to take falls for you I WOULD

It ain’t nothing to me baby

F**k, I’m your home Lady

I been searching for you all my life

Baby, I don’t even need a ring, I’m your wife…

(An Excerpt.)

- 17/04/2006

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I haven’t moved from the spot where you left me

Because of my stubbornness the devils tryna’ theft me

Masking myself from the G’z, haters won’t get me

Going through some life issues, but I don’t give a f**k

I know I’m broke, I admit, I need new stuff

I need to get a handle on things before times up

I know I’m better than how I’ve been lately

I js’ need to look deep inside & forget tha’ ppl’ that hate me

I need a homegirl to hold me down

I only got myself, no ones around

Baby come to me, I’m waiting

The worlds passing me by, I’m sick of dating

I fear the day I’ll turn to masterbating

I need real love in my life it’s so hard to be strong

When will a real (g*******’) boy for me come along…

- 18/04/2006

Good Friday - Cut You At The Crib

Lost girl, in a world of big dreams

Fightin’ hard caues nothins’ what it seems

Loosing fast in a heartache of screams

God, I need an angel, I’m falling fast

Caught up in a rush, how long will it last

Instead of treasure I feel like trash

Immature stubbornness rules my head

I wish a sanctuary could be, instead

I walk alone to the sound of my hip

My bestfriend is a shadow, dust-dipped

She moves with me & comforts my despair

Every city block, beside me - she’s there

Run kitty, run - Young cat’s lost in the streets

Never knowing the pain awaiting, my heart beats

Life & Love so straining the H.O.E. cheats

H.ell O.n E.arth, when is there time for peace

God send me an angel, so I can sleep

I haven’t has a nice dream for weeks

Bring me back to happiness

Because I’m sick & tired of being

Sick & Tired…

- 00/04/2006

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So many struggles that can be overcome

Just keep on keepin’ on, and your welcome

In all places of any sort

Speak politely, don’t retort

I don’t want you baby, to come up short

Come have fun, enjoy yourself, all sorts

Of things can happen, if you can dream

Anythings possible, don’t grow greed for green

Instead accept things as they come

To do so many things son

Remember you’re just 1

If you try hard you can achieve

You know it, as long as you believe

There are all sorts of things to see

The people come in varieties, let it be

Live, learn & grow - But in harmony

And if they ask, you heard it from Armani

And I try to be a simple G

Sometimes people wanna poke a pimple with me

I don’t understand the commotion

Slow down dawg’, be smooth like the ocean

Me, I’m just West Coastin’ East Coastin’

I like to be open minded

Give you my attention, un-divided

So I write my words, I’m inspired

I try my best, but I neva’ get hired

Only real job I had, I got fired

Waiting for round 2, hopin’ my ticket won’t expire

Light a fire, (burn a candle, pray) - get higher

I want you, your the only one I admire…

- 01/07/2006

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I need a man in my life

Someone to hold my side for life

Be down to get to it, right

Need me, please me, every night

Doin’ It, To it, Proven It, To it

Where I know I love you

& It’s mutual love too

You know you love me as well

& You would stay with it through hell

Realizin’ it’s forever, no such spell

Just an actualization

Of me & you past first base and

Right home to stay

Baby, theres no other way

If I was ya’ 1 & Only, would you stay?

Or would you find a next G’ everyday?

I want you for you, no games to be played

If I really wanted you I would have stayed

Called you back to chill again, not sway

& The words you speak is what you say

So I’ll take you upon them, but don’t be gay

Stick with a girl, she’ll build you up

Stay with a man, un-corrupt

So say whats up

To real girl

Cause’ we know best

Our love ain’t a test

It’s the type that

Offers shoulders

Upon which to rest

No regrets 4 tonite’ please

Hold me by my hips

As I slowly bend my knees…

- 07/08/2006

Too Many Lies (Facebook Version)

The youth

So young

Our delicasy

Falling fully

To an embassy

Of corrupted minds

Hard times

Evil occupations

Blazin’ nines

In the life of

The lost & forgotten

It’s easy to feel

Cold hearted

Empty & rotten

It is subject

To feel unified

I this world of

Underneathness

A world of deceit

And abyss

With compassion

& Forgiveness

Feeling solidified

In a union of

Body & Mind

Is the only way

In this world

Don’t let them rape you

Rape your mind

With un-just

Thoughts & Words

Don’t let them expose you

Expose you to songless birnds

And oppressive words

Sexist or Illiterate

When you find yourself

& You may find yourself in the dark

Do not be dismayed

Let your glow shine bright

Illuminate your path

& Fight your battles

For the war is greater

& We must win

La Ilaha Illa Allah

Muhamadoor Rasoolu Allah…

- 08/07/2006

Too Many Lies (Original Version)

So young she was delicasy

She fell youthfully to an embassy

Of corrupted minds, hard times

Evil occupations, blazin’ nines

In a life of the lost and forgotten

Feelin’ alone, she felt rotten’

All that could be had, was gotten’

Believe me, she cried

& Felt no sun when the tears dried

Instead she felt unified

To a world of underneathness

A world of deceit and abyss

Please she cried to the stars, forgiveness

Solidified in a union of body and mind

Wallowing in insanity as it bared to scape her

She turned to the only (there) one who would rape her

Rape her mind with unjust thoughts and words

Expose her to songless birds

Waste her glow in a shadow

Leave her with a lost path to battle

Cause’ was unforseen

She had a broad mind with big dreams

But drifted off down wrong streams

Choice doesn’t have a map

God gives man a “gap”

Between “do or do not do”

What you gon’ choose? Win or loose?

Redeem yourself or c.r.e.a.m yourself

Cash rules everything around me

But “So!, the world runs on dough”

Are you gonna live life fast or slow

Are you gonna embrace how you grow

Or instead make your name a show

And I loved you

You must know it too

That thug miss would have

Lied and cried for you

But your work took you otherwise

Off to find another wife

One who had no young memories in her eyes

All you left me with was broken dreams and cries

I remember the feeling that night

When everything “us” became despised

Oh, how I cried

Oh, how I lied

When I said it was for life

Because now it don’t seem right

Now it seems a pointless fight

Naw’ not tonight

Wish I coulda’ made it right

But for me to grow

You had to go…

- 08/07/2006

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The madness and bloodshed, it’s oh

Evidently an epidemic so

My homies and what-not’s please

A lil’ sista gets on her knees

And begs the Lord

None of my best, please

A prayer from you to me

Stay free

Don’t sign your life off to

Eternally looking for cheese

You are strong

So live on

Please…

- 08/07/2006

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Baby I tried to make it right

I was tired staying up them nights

But in my heart I felt it was right

For me to stay down & sit tight…

- 00/07/2006

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As the last inks of my pen

Spill out these words

On which you can depend

That my love for you will neva’ end

Of the goodness & sweetness

You spoke

I believe I swallowed it and choked

But I surpassed it

With the time spent on us

The time shared, oh how

Our hearts grew to flush…

- 08/07/2006

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Baby I was unable to cultivate

My love for you in a way that you could conceive

And then so I could be loyal no longer

But for my soul, you made me stronger

To live a life with you disrespecting me

So I took off

And couldn’t take you home with me…

- 08/07/2006

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Baby I remembered you since the time

I remember the words you spoke, the shine

And I forgot you, & committed my crimez’

In the end of it all I never thought I could find you

In the chek-out line

Sayin’ come give it a try

Last words made me cry

And a sigh

Words of reply

Forget this shit

The water ran dry…

- 08/07/2006

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I tried to not trust a soul

After what happened bitterness turned old

I felt like my soul was sold

But I remember all that was told

Time flies and a girl neva’ knows why

People be comin’ and goin’ between a sigh

I look up tonite’ and pray to the sky

That we all reconnect when we die

I’ll try to remember all of those who passed in the night

And I’ll try to encourage wrong from right

Baby, sit tight…

- 08/07/2006

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(Serious) Intentions

New inventions

I want the quality

Without suspensions

You told me it was hood

Just a lie

Tell me can you justify

That of which was said to me (?)

Cause’ I swear you were curtious

& I believed you weren’t hurting us

So I tried and realized

You were a lemon when you spoke your 1st words

And for a real taste it was a waste

Of the money and time spent

For 2 nights only to repent

Men these days have no clue

Tryna shake it off

With that superglue…

- 08/07/2006

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Baby moms is up at the wake of dawn

Trying to think of ways to keep on

Daddy ain’t no where

She feels rage and she gon’ swear

To all the people in the struggle

Come together let’s huddle

We can make it through the muddy puddles

If all we do is pray

Have faith, one day

All will be well

For you and you child

I can tell

God (does not) abandon anyone

He has a plan for everyone…

- 08/07/2006

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Roses in the wilderness overcame being alone

Pebbles in the mine whizzed past bloodstone

Almighty love brought freedom of oppression

And white power brought suppression ???

I’m just guessin’

But Lord, I’d like to know more

More than wheres the next corner store

I want to be knowledgeable

College-able…

- 08/07/2006

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This is for my G’ missez’

For my “in the streets” missez’

This is for my refugee missez’

For my “soul beautifully” missez’

Look deep inside

You have the reasons why

Sometimes you can’t sleep at night

And you wake up asking your family why

Things are slow and they don’t seem right

But keep ya’ head up, Don’t stress

All my love is given, you’re blessed

Sun will follow after the rain

Live your life with goals, Rise past pain

Embellish yourself with the words of the fairest

And sleep calmly knowing you are not among terrorists…

- 08/07/2006

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Young child of the dusk

Young child of the dawn

Son is becoming, stretches and yawns

No voodoo this is not for you

My greatest, come out and through

Be true, do you

Cause’ we do ourselves best

Be polite, Life ain’t hard it’s a bless…

- 08/07/2006