Just a Thought (Thinking of You)

So what am I to do? When I already know what it is and I'm truly confused. Can't be more clear than the cards babe, the only other option is to wait it out, plant seeds & watch them grow. Do you even know? How I feel for you, still. It's already pretty clear to me so forgive me for being selfish but I just gotta know, are you down ?

Note:

Posting Some Old Shit
I Found Some More Work
Between 2010-2011
Love Yuh !! Xo

PROBLEMS

I'M SORRY I HAD TO GO
IT JUST
WASN'T UNDER MY CONTROLL

WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
HOW THINGS COME TO BE
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY PEOPLE HAVE TO LEAVE
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY WE WERE SPLIT APART
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
PROBLEMS OF THE HEART
WERE SO FOOLISH
WERE SO ABUSIVE
WE NEED TO STOP

I KNOW THAT IT HURTS
WHY CAN'T YOU SEE
WHAT WE CAN'T COMPREHEND
BUT WE STILL BELIEVE

PROBLEMS AND PAIN
IT'S NOT A GAME
THIS IS REAL
DON'T LET EMOTIONS
CHANGE HOW YOU FEEL
FOLLOW YOU MIND
AND SOMETIMES YOUR SOUL
ALLOW LIFE TO UNFOLD
AND STAY STRONG
STAY STRONG
FOR ME & YOU

WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY WE ARE LOST
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
HOW WE CAN BE FOUND
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
HOW LOVE OUR STILL LIVES ON
EVEN THOUGH WERE NOT AROUND
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
HOW WE COULD
HAVE A LONG DISTANCE LOVE
WE DON'T UNDERSTAND
BUT HE WATCHES FROM ABOVE

I KNOW THAT IT HURTS
WHY CAN'T YOU SEE
WHAT WE CAN'T COMPREHEND
BUT WE STILL BELIEVE

PROBLEMS AND PAIN
IT'S NOT A GAME
THIS IS REAL
DON'T LET EMOTIONS
CHANGE HOW YOU FEEL
FOLLOW YOU MIND
AND SOMETIMES YOUR HEART
ALLOW LIFE TO UNFOLD
AND STAY STRONG
STAY STRONG
FOR ME & YOU

- 09/4/2010

Life As I Know It (2010)

We don't even talk any more & we don't even know what we argue about. You won't even say I love you any more cause saying how you feel is something you don't do. Some people will work things out & some (like you & me) just don't know how to change. Confessed my affection, wanted your protection, gave me no blessings, only stressin' leave me home alone all night well I got questions. Now you're gone.


I guess I expected him
To want to be there and do that
Not realizing a man has things to do
A lot of things to do
That get in the way
And I am supposed
To accept this but
Now you're gone...
And I loved the simple things.
Nice walks at night...
Quiet, dark, misty beaches...
Architecture and Jazz...
He doesn't even know...


- 12/11/2010

One Second (2011)

In just one second
Everything can change
And you know 
Things will never be 
The same again...

- 10/24/2011

Oops... (2011)

Sometimes I just don’t know
Why it has to be this way
I have to accept it
And live my life
Even though I know
Things aren’t right
I have to make them better
And give thanks
I’m blessed
But it still doesn’t
Relieve the fact that I’m stressed
Put on my clothes
Feeling good getting dressed
I hope today you love me
Cause this pain in my chest
Is telling me something
It won’t give up, won’t rest


Could this be love
I don’t want it to be lust
I really need you
You’re the one I trust
I believe in us
Please tell me you feel the same
I’m sick of this
Stop lying
I don’t wanna play games
I love you


When I’m sleeping
I think of you often
Sometimes I wish
You were next to me
I picture us talking
I wonder what you would say
Who would have known?
That you’d make me feel this way
I don’t want to focus
I am so mystified
You give me something
That I feel deep inside
Without a notion
I need you more
I don’t want to let go
You’re the one I adore

Could this be love
I don’t want it to be lust
I really need you
You’re the one I trust
I believe in us
Please tell me you feel the same
I’m sick of this
Stop lying
I don’t wanna play games
I love you

Can we make this official?
I feel like a pit-bull
Locked on my master
Can you come home faster?
I want to play with you
Teach you how I feel
Bow down and make it good
Submissive baby you call the shots
Nicole Wray, I’ll make it hot
You got the key
Now find the lock
As I grow up I learn
Won’t blow up your spot
Still need that security
That you don’t seem to offer
Love you anyways
Even though you too popular

Could this be love
I don’t want it to be lust
I really need you
You’re the one I trust
I believe in us
Please tell me you feel the same
I’m sick of this
Stop lying
I don’t wanna play games
I love you

- 01/29/2011

Feelings (2010)

I just don’t know
Guess it has to be this way
Gotta accept it, live my life
Knowing Things’ll be okay
Finding ways to make it better
Improving every minute
I’m not in it to win it
I’m in it to succeed
If you don’t love me for me
Then you and me could never be
Need someone who can accept
See the beauty of life
Forgive and forget
Gave you all of me too soon
Seemed that was a mistake
In the past seemed what you wanted
Was what you got
Now you say you don’t need it
Well I’m in shock
I hope today you love me
Cause this pain in my chest
Is telling me something
True it won’t give up,  it won’t rest

Could this be love
I don’t want it to be lust
I really need you
You’re the one I trust
I believe in us
Please tell me you feel the same
I’m sick of this
Stop lying to me
I don’t wanna play games
I love you, I love you, I love you
I’m not sure if you feel the same
I love you, I love you, I love you
And not knowing is causing me pain

- 1/29/2010

Dedicated To The Unknown...

If we were a movie,
you'd be the right guy
& i'd be the best friend
That you fall in love with
In the end we'll be laughing,
Kissing, Hugging, Holding eachother
Tight and close, with our child close by...
Watching the sunset fade to black

- 6/29/2010

CONSPIRAZIONE

IF YOU REALLY LOVED ME TO START
WHERE WAS YOUR HEART, CONVINCED
BY OTHERS? WHERE DO YOU REMAIN
ALL THOSE TIMES I THOUGHT THE LOVE
WAS GENUINE. IT MAY BE SO. THAT YOU
WATCH OVER ME AND YOUR SIMILAR PLAYS ME.
YOUR SIMILAR HATES ME, BUT I KNOW LOVE.
LOVE IS ALWAYS COMPASSIONATE.
WHO ARE YOU. WHERE ARE YOU?
MY BEAUTIFUL BROWN BIRD.
BELLO. BELLO.
BELLEZZA.

- 6/11/2010

BABY, LET’S RIDE

YOU KNOW I’M DOWN IF YOU’RE DOWN
WE CAN CRUISE ACROSS TOWN
BABY YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU
YOU’RE THEY ONLY ONE…

- 10/24/2011

2010

BE CAREFUL WHO YOU TALK TO

WHO YOU TALK TO

BECAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST

WHO YOU TRUST

BE CAREFUL WHO YOU FUCK WITH

WHO YOU FUCK WITH

BECAUREFUL WHO YOU LUST

WHO YOU LUST FOR

- 3/24/2010

2010

I'll console you
I'll be there for you
Why you gotta lie for
You knoe i care for you

- 4/9/2010

Giovani

lets understand
lets show them
lets bring them
lets come back

Yong world...

- 6/10/2010

2010

you just might be
the only one for me
anything i'd do
and only do it for you
you dont even know
where we gonna go
leave it to the stars
weve come this far
weve come with smiles
sometimes hurt add pain
it aint never the same
a new feeling again
coming over me
can't you see
you mean so much
so much 2 to me

to be loved
is all we ever want
to be loved
is all we ever want
i am me
i am only human
and if i had super powers
i would save the whole word
and everyone in it
remembering you and me alone
in your arms it feels like home
i am me
i am only human
if i could i would
make you and me
be together again
its just the will
of the world back
over again
to be loved
is all we ever want
to be loved
is all we ever want


i see you there
doing your thing
living proper
diamonds on your ring
plenty females
gators, gucci and ice
damn you living
living it up must be nice
i know you deserve it
but what about me
i always loved you
now how could this be
the biggest player
is now out playing me
he's got screen play
we are something that god made

to be loved
is all we ever want
to be loved
is all we ever want
i am me
i am only human
and if i had super powers
i would save the whole word
and everyone in it
remembering you and me alone
in your arms it feels like home
i am me
i am only human
if i could i would
make you and me
be together again
its just the will
of the world back
over again
to be loved
is all we ever want
to be loved
is all we ever want


it's been a while
and i know your out there
you know i'm out here
looking for you
patience is my key
still i'm giving it all away
keeping enough for myself
sining but i cant help it
i know i know better
but about my love
i hope you felt it
this could be something real
if only i could tell you how i feel
i really love you babe
i really love you baby
we are of what god made

to be loved
is all we ever want
to be loved
is all we ever want
i am me
i am only human
and if i had super powers
i would save the whole word
and everyone in it
remembering you and me alone
in your arms it feels like home
i am me
i am only human
if i could i would
make you and me
be together again
its just the will
of the world back
over again
to be loved
is all we ever want
to be loved
is all we ever want

god is love
one creator
one reason why
god is love
one creator
a million reasons why

to be loved
is all we ever want
to be loved
is all we ever want
i am me
i am only human
and if i had super powers
i would save the whole word
and everyone in it
remembering you and me alone
in your arms it feels like home
i am me
i am only human
if i could i would
make you and me
be together again
its just the will
of the world back
over again
to be loved
is all we ever want
to be loved
is all we ever want

-10/10/2010

Good Man

(Before you read this just know
that I wrote this from a man's perspective
of a lost little girl...)

One day i was driving
Thinking to myself
Looked over to the left
And temptaion crossed me
A beautiful girl
Confident and loney
Right then i wished she was mine
Right then i wished shed hold me
I can almost feel your arms
Wrapped around me tight
Every day since then
I been think about you at night
Hoping youd be the one
I would wake up next to
But now i gotta battle these pimps
And your lame ass ex too
I knew you loved me
The way you looked at me
I knew you were the one
I just had that feeling
Only problem is she tried to hide
That she was getting paid off numerous guys
Wont you let my love save you
Is what i said in my head
And Allah answered my prayers
Cause now she cant get me out of her head

You know i love you
I'd do anything for you
Please change your ways
So i can give you all of me
If you really love me
You would leave the game alone
What more important to you
Money or a good man waiting at home

Temptation ate her
And spit her out daily
Men are on her
And she can't even
Take a stride in peace
The battle begins
And as she wants out
They want her in
Always playing her
Trying to win
Kidnapping her
Robbing her clean
Setting her up
For a downfall
All these mans are mean
She's so beautiful
And stayed strong through it all
Now that ive got her
I wont let her fall
Took a minute to loose her mind
But she came back prepared
Now how do i let her know
That ill always be there


You know i love you
I'd do anything for you
Please change your ways
So i can give you all of me
If you really love me
You would leave the game alone
What more important to you
Money or a good man waiting at home


I prayed to Allah
And asked him to save her
I love her so much
And i could never hate her
She slowly gave up
The hustle just for my love
Problem is at the time
I was cold and she could tell by my hugs
I'll always love her
Even if it seemes i moved on
She stil kept getting better
Waiting for me to come back
Allah showed her patience
In the form of my back
Seems her most fond memory
Is me walking out the door
No matter how silent i am
She keeps loving me more
Caught up with my work
We barely spend time
But now that she's ready
I'm gonna make her mine
She dont drink
She dont smoke weed
The ony thing on her mind
Is me , me , me
I cant believe this is real
And i tell her throuh prayer
If ever you are tempted
Just remember i'll always be there

you know i love you
id do anything for you
please change your ways
so i can give you all of me
if you really love me
you would leave the game alone
what more important to you
money or a good man waiting at home


Don't ever for a second
Think that money
Or clothes can love
You more than me
You deseve the best
Of the best and
That's the truth

You know i love you

I'd do anything for you
Please change your ways
So i can give you all of me
If you really love me
You would leave the game alone
What more important to you
Money or a good man waiting at home

- 4/1/2011

An Old Rude Gyal Song

WOULD YOU SHINE WITH ME
GET HIGH WITH ME
GET LIVE FOR ME
WOULD YOU DIE WITH ME
WOULD YOU RIDE FOR ME
KILL FOR ME HE STILL WILL FOR ME

HOW COULD THIS BE
I KNOW ITS CRAZY
WOULD YOU EVEN LOVE ME
IF I WAS YOUR  LADY
SAYIN’ YOU WANT KIDS
I KNOW YOU’RE LYING
FEW WEEKS AGO
YOU HAD ME CRYING
ALL OF THESE FEELINGS
THERES NO DENYING
I CAN’T BELIEVE IT
THAT I’M STILL TRYING
FOREVER KEEP ME CLOSE
YOU SEEM SO DISTANT
EVERYTIME YOU GHOST
NEED YOU IN AN INSTANT
CALLIN’ YOUR PHONE
YOU NEVER THERE
SWITHCHIN’ UP YOUR DIGITS
SWEAR YOU DONT CARE
IS YOU INSANE, ALWAYS ON MY BRAIN

WOULD YOU SHINE WITH ME
GET HIGH WITH ME
GET LIVE FOR ME
WOULD YOU DIE WITH ME
WOULD YOU RIDE FOR ME
KILL FOR ME HE STILL WILL FOR ME

I SMASHED YOUR CAR
SCRATCHED UP YOUR RIMS
THREW OUT YOUR CLOTHES
EVEN YOUR JORDANS
I CALLED YOUR MAMA
TOLD HER IM THROUGH
SAYIN YOU NEED ME
AFFECTIONS OVER DUE
I DON’T WANNA RUN
OR TRY TO LEAVE
NEED YOU IN MY LIFE
ONLY ONE FOR ME
JUST SAY YOU’LL STAY
LOVE ME, FUCK ME, RIGHT
PLAY NO GAMES
MAKE ME YOUR WIFE
STILL HAVE ME SICK
GOT ME ON YOUR DICK
HAD TO TURN THAT TRICK
AINT THIS A BITCH
BORN INTO THIS SHIT

WOULD YOU SHINE WITH ME
GET HIGH WITH ME
GET LIVE FOR ME
WOULD YOU DIE WITH ME
WOULD YOU RIDE FOR ME
KILL FOR ME HE STILL WILL FOR ME

ALL OF THE TIMES
I KNOW WE SHARED
SAYIN YOU GOT ME
ALWAYS BE THERE
HELP YOU BACK UP
HELP YOU STAK UP
I AM THE TRAP, COME GET YOUR CUT
TOP JEWELS FINE LINEN
DIAMONDS THEY ENVISION
CAN YOU JUST LISTEN
I KNOW YOU SEE IT
I’LL BE YOUR DREAM CHICK
QUEEN CAKES, BELIEVE IT
NEVER ON SOME FAKE SHIT

THE ONLY REASON WHY
I KNOW YOU WANNA TRY
 YOU CANT EVEN DENY
ROYAL CONSTELLATION
LOOKING OVER THE SKIES
THEY CONSTANTLY  HATING
BUT STILL I RISE

WOULD YOU SHINE WITH ME
GET HIGH WITH ME
GET LIVE FOR ME
WOULD YOU DIE WITH ME
WOULD YOU RIDE FOR ME
KILL FOR ME HE STILL WILL FOR ME

BONNIE AND CLYDE
TWO THOUSAND TEN
KEEP YOU IN STYLE
HOW YOU LIVIN’
WHILE YOUR GIRL WAS ON TRIAL
YOUR GIRL WENT WILD
COME DADDY, COME
WANNA SEE ME SMILE
TEACH ME A LESSON
THEN KEEP ME GUESSIN
HOPEFULLY YOU TESTIN’
TO MUCH COMPETITION
I THINK I ‘M TRIPPIN’
LIKE WHO’S THE REALEST
WANNA COME FEEL THIS
I KNOW YOU CAN HEAL THIS
WANNA BE MY MAN
NO RINGS NO HANDZ
BREAK IT DOWN SLOW
OR BUST IT OFF
I KNOW YOU KNOW
SO PLEASE DON’T STOP

WOULD YOU SHINE WITH ME
GET HIGH WITH ME
GET LIVE FOR ME
WOULD YOU DIE WITH ME
WOULD YOU RIDE FOR ME
KILL FOR ME HE STILL WILL FOR ME
THERE IS NO WAY FOR ME TO MOVE ON
LOVE YOU FOREVER BOY, WE BEEN STRONG
WOULD YOU SHINE WITH ME
GET HIGH WITH ME
GET LIVE FOR ME
WOULD YOU DIE WITH ME
WOULD YOU RIDE FOR ME
KILL FOR ME HE STILL WILL FOR ME

- 3/21/2010

Random...

So If You Love Me Baby
 This Is How You Let Me Know
Don't Ever Let Me Go
That's How You Let Me Know Baabyy

- 11/6/2011

Trusting You...

Tuhh, Well
Fuck it
For What I should

All up on it yeah you wanna feel
Something that you had yeah it's so unreal
And I could tell that you could do it
Yeah you been stylin
But all the time you ain't calling
Yeah I been whiling
Ringin and daiing, texting no thinking
Only no voicemail cause it failed

No voicemail
No text Messages
Only blocked calls
Yeah yea I'm stressin this

This muthafucka wanna know how I lay it down
Don't you worry if the pussys good you aint never around
Could feel this could understand
That i need a real one, a real man
In my life, wanna love me wanna leave me
Do me really fuckin wrong
But I don't understand yeah
Why you wanna put me on
Just wanna be lovin friend put it there
Just wanna put me in the middle yeah
Yeah we'll defend on the front lines

Baby i'm on to the next
I can't understand yeah
Turn around yeah, back handed
To the first one, could it be
See I don't know thoughts in my mind, can't you see

- 10/24/2011

DR Incentive...

Won't You Just Come Back.

Call On Me...

Take My Time As I Gather My Thoughts
Thinking About My Goals & The Dreams That I Forgot
Twinkle In The Sky Wondering Why, How, When & Where
Are You There? Do You Have Some Time To Spare?
Do You Love Me Do You Care
Whenever & Whatever You Say Goes
Truth Is I'm Sure You Already Know
How Does It Go That Little Story About Us
The One That Should Be A Story About Trust, Love, Devotion
Thinkin' Bout You, A Little Frank Ocean
To Better Days Babe, Thats Why Were Toastin'
I Know You Love To Drink & You Got Me Open
Do I Smother You Too Much? Well You Got Me Floatin'
To Understand You More, That's What I'm Hopin'
Need You Er'y Day, Come By My Way
You Know You're Always Welcome To Stay
But Baby I Don't Play
Is This A One, Two, Three Time Thing
Or a Love That Lasts In All Ways
I'm In a Daze; Lost, Found, Confused, Down
Complacent & Reserved
But I'm Into You & You Deserve
The Best of the Best, No Lie
If I Ever Lost You, No Doubt, I'd Cry
Would Take Me More Than a Moment To Realize
But It's All Good Gotta Let People Be People
I Gotta Let You Be You
Try To Ease Up But It's All Too Hard
Tell Me What The Hand Is
Baby Deal The Cards
Ways You Move
You Move Too Hard
& The Cat Got My Tongue So Far
Lookin' At Myself In The Mirror, Sexual Scars
Moments Come & They Pass, Wishing On Stars
Hoping For Our Dreams To Come To Life
Knowing I Want You, I Just Might
Close My Eyes & Try To Dream
Still Never Let You Go
Kna' What I Mean
& Just So You Know
Should You Ever Feel The Need
I'm Down For You Baby, Can't You See
So Any Time Babe You Can Call On Me...