I'mma Write About It...

Choices to make
Cause your not firm
What I'mma do ?
I Guess I'll learn
Situations I put myself in
Over and over again...
Sweet Music comes
On the radio and I
Almost get high
Off the love
In the words
Of all that I deserve
I guess I'll truly learn
Love is not to be played with
Only to be cherished
Loosing half my mind
Growing out of my religion
Holding it close and dear
Every moment
Even a moment like this
Where you could be so near
But you're so far away
What can I say
Other than but
I think I love you
& I Don't want to loose this
I really wanna have you
But a chance for some fun
I just might do this...
Why.. cause your not firm
With a girl like me you gotta learn
That you gotta just do what you gotta do
Cause not matter how you feel
When it comes to you
It always I love you...
Yes...

Random Thoughts...

I need to know where we stand
I miss holding your hand
Want you more and more and
I swear it's not lust
You're the only one I trust
Come closer babe
Let me feel your soul
At the end of every day
It's You I wanna hold
Past relationships left me cold
But you warm my heart
You play the perfect part
Sweet harmonies to my ear
Every time I feel you near
I wish you felt the same
Somewhere in that beautiful brain
You must know who I am to you
I wish you'd share your truths
Last times were always to short
You're my favorite sport
I never wanna leave your side
I'm honest to myself when I say I love you so
I'm being honest to you when I say I don't wanna let go
Fiction in my mind that creates a dream state
I'm early for you babe, could never be late...

So Let Me Know

Sweet Addictions
So Afflicting
Who am I kidding
Only myself
I can truly help
Before helping others
You Gotta
Love Yourself
First, Is what I've Learned
Sweet Lessons
Have Me Guessing
Feel like he's testing
Such a Blessing
To Get Over
Certain Shit
I Feel it Hit
My Heart Tingles
Glows, Warms
No More Icey Storms
Feels Like Home
Only In Your Arms
Who Are You To Me
& My Mother Warns
Such a Twisted Fidelity
To Be With You
Is On my Mind
Most Definitely
If It Was a Party
I Hope You'd Be The One
That Left With Me
So True
If I Had To
I Really Would
So Let Me
Know Babe
If It's Really Good...

But Only If You... Down....

Another Year Older
As You Rest On My Shoulders
I'm Hoping These Moments Ain't Over
As Soon As You Leave I Feel Colder
Like You Warmed Me For a Minute
Is You In It To Win It
Or Just For Cause
They All Give Applause
But I'm Hopin' For That Real Love
That "I Know How You Feel..." Love
As I Mature
I'm Nothing But Sure
That You're What I Need
Hopefully You'll See
I Think You Were Made For Someone Like Me
How Could This Be
Something So Beautiful In Front Of Me
I'm All Full Of Glee
You Make Me Feel Ways
I Been Feelin' It For Days
Same Time, Another Place
I'll Be Seeing You Face To Face
& Once Again
We Can Feel Each Others Embrace
But Only If You... Down....

The Jazz Bird

I Wish You Would Bless Me
With Your Presence
Now All I Have Are These Remnants
Sweet Memories
Will It Ever Be Again
Only Time Will Tell...
You Swooped In
Did What You Did & Flew
I Find It Hard To Move On
Because All These Men
They Ain't You...

For The One (Whoever He Might Be)

Don't you know how you make me feel
Like I can truly be myself
Sadness Cause I feel you don't feel me
Half afraid to give you all I have
It's a lust thing and it's just too damn bad
Cause I'm down to love you
For a real long time
I wished you loved me
& That I could see you all the time
But actions have consequences
This is life, its for real all the time
Such a shame though
Cause' I got you on my mind
Forever and a day couldn't erase
The thoughts I feel out of haste
Maybe I should have done this
Maybe I should have done that
I still loved  how you react
Face to face it's peaches
But far apart we're speachless
Damn, I know we don't need this
So you make it easy
& Just let it pass
But I'm like
When did he reply last
& Then it splits
& Takes over another
& The feeling is so similar
How do I categorize it
Is this what it is & I realize it
I'm always wanting it
But can never decide
So which one is going to be ready
To be down & grasp that side
Cause trust me, I need a ride
& Not one time, drive me
But something for life...

Go For It ?

I look into the past and I've made mistakes
Also met some great men that made my heart break
To better myself even more, how much will it take
Now that its only me what is there to do
Each and every day how can I improve
So much to gain, so much to loose
So much I could do without, its true
Still totally confused
Need that affection
To heal that everlasting bruise
Gotta get through
Needing more contemplation
Having thoughts, not embracing them
Time eventually erases them
& They linger with pain
Its always the same
How do I refrain
From actions without thought
After so much I sought
Only to find an ember
How much longer will the smoke linger
As I grow I have to know
That this too shall pass
& That over flowing glass
Will soon quench my thirst
As right now it leaves me asking
But the only answer is don't worry
About the past, don't worry
About the future
Just worry about now
& Care for yourself now
Don't be asking anybody how
Just go for it, babe....

I Don't Know Where We Stand But I Think I Love You...

Do I Give Too Little ?
& Ask For More In Return
Expect You To Understand
How When I Think Of You
It Burns
Wish I Could Express
Without Being Cold
Cause You Have A Piece Of Me
I Already Told
You, You On My Mind
Now I'm Scared To Loose
Had My Options
& I Chose
More Regrets To Live With
Beautiful But Painful, Like a Rose
What Am I To You
Just Another Hoe ?
Or A Beautiful Lost Girl
Just Tryna Grow ?
I Already Know
You May Not Want Me
But You Feel So Right
Is This Really Life
How Could This Be
You Ignoring Me
Hurts My Heart
I Guess It Is What It Is
I'll Just Play My Part...

Organizing

What am I to do
Seriously Confused
Got a Few Thing'
On my mind
Comes To Question
Time After Time
Whats the Reason
Why Do I have it so
Can't Stay, Can't go
Need More
But I Love You So
Options
Organizing My Life
Getting Ready for School
Wanna Be Someone's Wife
Who's It Gonna Be
Eventually It Will Come
Who Knows Where From
Sent From God
Hopefully
That True Kind of Love
That's Good For You & Me
Mutually
No Questions Asked
You are the Task
Empty My Flask
Only To Love You Down
The Conversations Grounds
For Whatever It May Be
That Show's Each Other
How The Other One Be
Surly You'll Find
I Was Made To Love You
& You Were Made To Love Me
Whoever That May Be
Whenever That May Be
I Pray You Don't Go
To Far Away From Me
I Wanna Hold You Close
Perfect Blue Sky On My Mind
You Know I'd Spend The Time
Organizing Through These Thoughts
I Think Your Worth More Than
Anything I Ever Bought
Hope You Know How I Feel
Scared To Approach Any Talk
Love The Way You Walk
How You Deal With Me
It's Obvious To See
You Ain't Anything But Nice
I Can Say That Honestly, Life
Was Meant To Be Lived
I'd Give You All Of Me
That I Could Give
In The Moment
I Swear You Told Em'
But It's All Good
I Just Wanna Feel That Love
Gives Me A Little Extra Push
Some Shove
To Do Better, Babe
They Can't Slow Me
I'm Just Doing Me
& I Know You Know I Like It
I Can Already See...

Reminds Me

If I Had What I Wanted
I'd Have You
It's True
I Did What I Did
Forgot Again
But Being With You
Reminds Me
How Much I Love You
Could Never Say It
Find The Words To Express
How You Make Me Feel
You Relieve My Stress
Am I Wrong For Loving This
I Hope You Feel The Same
Then Again
It's In Clear View
That I Like Being
Near You
Take Away The Pain
It Always Feels The Same
Pure Bliss
Shyness Takes Over My Brain
The Beautiful Rain
& I'm Loss For Words
You Leave Me Shaking
As If I Was Breaking
But Only For You
As If I Would Let Them Others In
Maybe I Would
Out Of Curiosity
But
On Your Status
I Been Wondering
You Ain't Ever Mad
& It's Just To Damn Bad
That It Is What It Is
This Heart That Speaks To You
You Don't Hear It
& To Let You Slip Away
Again I Fear It
Reminds Me
How Much I Loved You
& I Can't Let It Go
A Piece Of You Exists
In My Heart Forever More
Reminds Me
How Perfect It Could Have Been
But Now It's Just What It Is
Reminds Me
How Sweet Of A Person You Are
Reminds Me
How Good You Are To Me
Reminds Me
How Much You Seem To Care
Reminds Me
How I Wanted You 4 Me
Reminds Me
I'll Tell Them All
& You'll See
Pieces For You
Exist In Me
& I Could Let You
Take All You Deserve
Good Times, Priceless Memories
& One Of Us Out The Door
But Baby For You
You Could Have It All
Reminds Me
How Much I Want To Fall
In Love With You
Reminds Me
Nobody Can Do Me
Like You Do
Yeah, Your Voice
Reminds Me Of It All
All We Could Have
If It Were Like That
Remind Me Again Baby
Remind Me...

Faith

I choose to speak to whom I choose
I feel it is hard to let go
Because of my heart
For so long
I have been sitting in the dark
Admiring the light, staring at it
Eventually coming to realize
It surrounds me
and this
This is where I need to be
Enveloped in positivity
And realizing my faith
Loving Allah
Doing all it takes
Being real with myself
Making better choices
Examining the problems
And fixing them as needed
Better believe it
Because all it takes it hope
Forgiveness and compassion
It's not a joke
Live life to the fullest
Focus on your health
And your family
Your heart
And then your wealth
You know the feelings you've felt
Let the positive
Encourage your thoughts
Keep the right intentions
& Be careful where you walk
& To whom you talk
Have faith
Strong Faith

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Exposing myself
Questions asked
By myself, to myself
& I wonder
Do you even care
Are you really too caught up
To be there
I know I bug you
Bet you can't stand it
I can't stop you from living your life
& We leave empty handed
So I'm just suggesting
We should just try to live better
Should have stopped you
What can I say
You're gonna do it either way
& So am I, but it's my choice
My choice to stop
& Do better
Live better
Feel better
Rock sweaters
Still be happy
In any weather
No you won't get me down
I stay up all day
All night
What the f***
Anyways
Still have love for you
I just can't let it go
Tryna guide us right
& I hope it shows

The Remedy...

Gave you all of me
& Where are you now
Purely a mystery
I made mistakes
Didn't listen
Time after time
In the end
It's only you
On my mind
Best thing
I never had
I wanted you bad
What am I to do
I guess I gotta
Let go
Wherever you are
I wanted
To let you know
I forgive you
Can you forgive me
Can we just be us again
The good friends we were
Chilling and talking
Now it's all obscured
Come back to me
I always hope
& in this life
Loosing someone
Is not a joke
Take it how you like
Need you tonight
& Each day after
Will you come back
& What was the factor
To make you leave
I wish you had stayed
I would have
Loved you any way..

Why Do You Smile ?

I know what you're thinking
You're at a loss
When I'm sad & lonely
I holla @ the boss
My one and only mother
Ashamed to have hurt her
Pray for forgiveness
Nothing major
But major's a witness
Of all the things I've done
All the times I felt lost
Who would have known
That I would come to find myself
True Happiness they can't take from me
My heart loves and it loves
I pray you'll find another way
& Maybe someday come to say
That you love me babe
You always have to let them go
Damn, It never felt this good before
Cause I feel you here in spirit
Simple words, I love when I hear it
Sad to say I need space
Cause I have to focus on me, this face
Won't be showing no lies
Nothing to hide
Take what you wanna take
These are my innermost feelings
& You won't make me break
Dealing with fate
& What kind of future I'll have
Cuttin' back on the negatives
& All that is bad
You need to move the fuck on
Cause I'm not interested
Ain't judging you
I know you'll get this when I say
I truly believe that Islam is the way
& I ask Allah, please do not let me stray
Allow me to be me, each and every day
Because I smile just knowing
That you're helping me find my way.
In Sh' Allah there will come a day
When all of the good things I pray
Will become a reality for the next today...

Takes time for the Sun to shine...

I Wanna do things proper
Get them done, out of the way
I don't want to really waste my time
Waiting to be found by some lover
Who will make me feel more alive
Cause really you know, I'll ride
But don't you go thinkin' that way
I wanna keep it goodie good, no lies
Legitimate checks coming in line
If I ever took the time to find
Somebody like you it would be impossible
People are truly unique & you are unstoppable
Have me standing still, amazed and yet
You're so far away
Even though I know I should be focusing on me
You cross my mind, interested in you
The only thing I adore more right now
What to do
R u Cofused ?
To love & to loose
What are we gonna do
When I just talk shit
& You never come through
Still need you more and more
Got me singing the blues
Dazed but still mentally aware
Some people act like they just ain't there
Reckless behavior, you better be ware
Stay the fuck away from me
You got me scared
But I fear Nothing but Allah
Guide me on the straight path
Let them feel my love
& Not judge on the mistakes of my past
Because it only really made me, me
This person that I am
Can't you see
I could go on and on
To let you know
That my love for Allah
Should really show
I count on Allah
& I know
All will be well with time
Takes patience for things to grow and shine
So I'll just focus on myself and grind
& Make sure I maintain myself cause happiness
Happiness is a friend of mine
Oh the many things that makes me smile....

Karma is Instant...

What do you want from me
That you didn't already get
Karma is instant
Has me in a fit
Would never force your hand
Before I forced mine
Unless you gestured first
Now it's all on my mind
Some love turns us blind
Think then, it is really love
If it could be so cold, yet kind
Fake love surrounds many
They keep to it, rock it steady
It's just a lifestyle
Don't get caught up
I wanna touch & feel true love
I've had enough
With those who play games
Only to get in there
So you took as much
As any other, ya hear
Claim if feels nice
When you hold me near
Karma is instant
It's just the way life goes
Ups, Downs, Friends, Foes
Who in the end might
Come to like you
Thinkin' about you tonight
What am I to do, only what's right
Feels better to get it off my chest
Than to fake a smile & not say the rest
I still think you're the best
Unless someone else proove you wrong
But that could never be
Cause each person got a different level
That they on
Whats that song
The one I made about you
Wish you could hear it
What would we do...

Be Yourself...

Mentally stressed
Do what I do best
I don't even know what to say
It's all in the wind
It's blown away
Hopin' you would come and say
All the things I been needing to hear
Needing you near
But it's just a memory
Over, disconnected
Like your phone
Remember when
When you used
To leave me all alone
& I would patiently wait
Wait for you to come home
What a dog's world we live in
Everybody just trying to eat
Hungry for better health
And self knowledge
Is how it really should be
But their motives
Money makes so much sense to them
How many have you lost
To that mind-state
& Can we just elevate them
Got me off mine
Girl, I'm ready to stand up
These are my rights
Naw, I ain't gonna
Let no man touch
You must be out your mind
Told you so many times
Like they should have told me
Too much going on right now
I gotta get back to the old me
The real me, be myself.

Whoever You Are... (To Me.)

I wanna love you any way that I can
I wanna reach out and stretch my hands
Only in a dream cause you too far
Thinkin' bout you, how we gaze @ stars
Wondering what your up to, wherever you are
You seem to close to me to let go
But you're not mine and I already know
So me, I'm not strong enough and it shows
If only my fingertips I could learn to hold
Islam on my mind and Allah guiding my soul
I wanna be with you babe, till we grey and old
Only in a dream cause you too far
Thinkin' bout you, how we gaze @ stars
Wondering what your up to, wherever you are
Whoever you are...

Love Again...

I wanna give you all of me
Every last piece
I want to touch the stars for you
& Pull one down for you to keep
Ii'm going to tell you the truth
& I'm gonna keep it real
Every time I think of you
Your fingertips I can feel
If my heart was a token
It would be made for your games
With an unlimited amount of plays
My love would never fade
I need you more and more
The more I day dream
I feel like I'm a boat
Caught drifting down your stream
You give me light in the darkness
Hope in the middle of pain
That maybe one day I'll be fixed
& I can truly love again...

I’m a Boss Babez, Just me, Original…

Boy you like a diamond

Always shining in my eyes

In my heart I knew it from the start

Blurry impressions leave me with life’s lessons

& A broken heart

Yet, still I have all this love to give

I am not asking for much

Just honesty

True love & trust…

- 25/01/2010