Sometimes I just want to delete my blog. I hope God can forgive me and that you can forgive me if I've ever wrote anything that hurt you. It hurts me, that's why I write. Xo.

Roses

Love Me Yes or Love Me Not You Told Me Once But I Forgot Say It Again & That You’ll Never Stop

Best Of Me...

Let me love you & never stop Come on babe lets take a walk You can take all that I have All that I've got

The Resistance

I'm always talking about you
How can I not, you're so dope
I need doses of you to get me high
I'm high off this life
I'm so happy to be with you
Yet so sad, cause you're not mine
Maybe with time
You'll grow with me
& We'll blossom
So beautiful
The both of us
Tell me in who
Do you trust
God
Give me the grace
To work things through
To feel it out
To let him do
&; To just let us be
I love when it's just You & Me

Escalators

I'll Wish On A Shooting Star For Me & You
& You're Right There The Whole Time
Standing There, So Close Yet So Far

Only ME Can Hold ME Back...

This year I'm not gonna cry
This year I'll stop asking why
This year I'll let go
This year I'll enjoy the snow
Cold like your heart
That tore us apart
No love for me anymore?
What the fuck was I with you for
Trying and trying to move on
Well I finally did it
I'm sorry I hid it
Shoulda yelled it to the world
I'm not his girl
But it's been like that for years
All those tears
Wasted on you
But This poem
Is not because I still love you
It's because you helped me
Helped me realize that I'm free
&  I deserve to be loved
& I deserve to know what true love is
& I deserve to be respected, treated right
Treated with love, unconditional love
So please, don't hold me back

Passive Aggression

I shouldn't have to deal with this
But this is what I got myself into
I love you, yes I do.
I wish you were fully mine.
Since time.

Let's Just Start Fresh

This new one is not so new
But I want him
What am I to do
When he knows the true, cold truth
No lies, what you put me through
Is all about self respect
Still have regrets
I'm always fuckin' up in your eyes
But what about in mine
Do you even know
How you make me feel sometimes
It's outta control
This level of compassion
I just keep giving and giving
But when I break for one second
You always catch me
Sometimes I need that
Are you willing to be that
Tell me you love me
Did you even mean that ?
Happy New Years Baby
Let's Just Start Fresh

Fuckin' Up

I know I have issues
We all do
Fuck this weak shit
What am I gonna do
Who can I talk to
What am I gonna say
Can I keep this all in
No Way
I gotta speak
I need to be heard
Can't you see
How much you mean to me
I don't wanna push you away
But you're already so far
Sometimes I wish on a star
For you and me
To be the best we can be
For us to grow closer, eventually
For now I just need to be strong
No more weed for the sing along
What's a girl to do
When the only thing she want'
Is to be with you !

Happy New Years Baby

I wanna give you my everything, my all
But it’s hard because you don’t recieve
The way I’d expect you to recieve
What am I supposed to believe
What you need
I hoped that you could find that
In me
Sometimes I fuck up
I hesitate, get neurvos
Get butterflies, heart fluxuates
Is it too late
Tell me we have all the time
All the time in this world to explore
Explore each other more
You think you know me
& You just might
I used to be one
To put up a fight
But for some years now
That’s the shit I don’t like
Loving you should be easy
& I’m not saying it’s hard
I just mean for a girl like me
To fall for a guy like you
Who’s not ready, who’s confused
Who knows whats good
So what are we gonna do
I should just keep giving my all
But it’s never enough
Shoulda took you up on that
Cause I know one day you’ll see
That I was made for you
& You were made for me