Evermore Aware (Think of Something)

I used to be unaware of my surroundings
Living my life
Sometimes doing things
That were just not right
Learning valuable lessons
Acting on urge
Asking no questions
Coming to feel empty
Mad & Wrong
How do I better myself?
Well, I gotta be strong
If any one ever asked you
I'd probably be down no lie
Still as I sit back and let out a sigh
The only way to get over this illness
Is to move on from the past, realness
Has to be my only option
I wished you were watchen'
When I slowly improved myself
Though I needed your help
Maybe I did
When I was with you
A part of me, I hid
Of all that I would give
I hope you feel what I felt

A R.E.M (Dream) Reminder...

(I'm Just Being Honest.)
Things are just the way they are
It's been so long since you been gone
Feels like yesterday you held me close
I know I did things to push you away
I always wish you could forgive me, anyway
I tried to hold on but now it seems useless
You're just a ghost
Figment of my mind
Still attached to my heart
I miss the times
Feeling so protected
Yet you let me
How could you
I guess I made it that way
Letting the memories fade away
Deep in a sleep
R.E.M. Mode
You creep
& To see your sweet face
I weep
Cause we are no longer
I wished I could have had you longer
But to me, you were the longest
Baby, boy, I'm just being honest...

For The One (Whoever He Might Be)

Don't you know how you make me feel
Like I can truly be myself
Sadness Cause I feel you don't feel me
Half afraid to give you all I have
It's a lust thing and it's just too damn bad
Cause I'm down to love you
For a real long time
I wished you loved me
& That I could see you all the time
But actions have consequences
This is life, its for real all the time
Such a shame though
Cause' I got you on my mind
Forever and a day couldn't erase
The thoughts I feel out of haste
Maybe I should have done this
Maybe I should have done that
I still loved  how you react
Face to face it's peaches
But far apart we're speachless
Damn, I know we don't need this
So you make it easy
& Just let it pass
But I'm like
When did he reply last
& Then it splits
& Takes over another
& The feeling is so similar
How do I categorize it
Is this what it is & I realize it
I'm always wanting it
But can never decide
So which one is going to be ready
To be down & grasp that side
Cause trust me, I need a ride
& Not one time, drive me
But something for life...

Go For It ?

I look into the past and I've made mistakes
Also met some great men that made my heart break
To better myself even more, how much will it take
Now that its only me what is there to do
Each and every day how can I improve
So much to gain, so much to loose
So much I could do without, its true
Still totally confused
Need that affection
To heal that everlasting bruise
Gotta get through
Needing more contemplation
Having thoughts, not embracing them
Time eventually erases them
& They linger with pain
Its always the same
How do I refrain
From actions without thought
After so much I sought
Only to find an ember
How much longer will the smoke linger
As I grow I have to know
That this too shall pass
& That over flowing glass
Will soon quench my thirst
As right now it leaves me asking
But the only answer is don't worry
About the past, don't worry
About the future
Just worry about now
& Care for yourself now
Don't be asking anybody how
Just go for it, babe....

I Don't Know Where We Stand But I Think I Love You...

Do I Give Too Little ?
& Ask For More In Return
Expect You To Understand
How When I Think Of You
It Burns
Wish I Could Express
Without Being Cold
Cause You Have A Piece Of Me
I Already Told
You, You On My Mind
Now I'm Scared To Loose
Had My Options
& I Chose
More Regrets To Live With
Beautiful But Painful, Like a Rose
What Am I To You
Just Another Hoe ?
Or A Beautiful Lost Girl
Just Tryna Grow ?
I Already Know
You May Not Want Me
But You Feel So Right
Is This Really Life
How Could This Be
You Ignoring Me
Hurts My Heart
I Guess It Is What It Is
I'll Just Play My Part...

Surely...

Surely
You Know
Oh
All Of The Things
Things I'd Do
Just For You
Too Bad It's So
Cause' I Wouldn't Have Let You Go
It's A Blessing To Feel You Close
Take A Shot For Me
Let's Toast...

Organizing

What am I to do
Seriously Confused
Got a Few Thing'
On my mind
Comes To Question
Time After Time
Whats the Reason
Why Do I have it so
Can't Stay, Can't go
Need More
But I Love You So
Options
Organizing My Life
Getting Ready for School
Wanna Be Someone's Wife
Who's It Gonna Be
Eventually It Will Come
Who Knows Where From
Sent From God
Hopefully
That True Kind of Love
That's Good For You & Me
Mutually
No Questions Asked
You are the Task
Empty My Flask
Only To Love You Down
The Conversations Grounds
For Whatever It May Be
That Show's Each Other
How The Other One Be
Surly You'll Find
I Was Made To Love You
& You Were Made To Love Me
Whoever That May Be
Whenever That May Be
I Pray You Don't Go
To Far Away From Me
I Wanna Hold You Close
Perfect Blue Sky On My Mind
You Know I'd Spend The Time
Organizing Through These Thoughts
I Think Your Worth More Than
Anything I Ever Bought
Hope You Know How I Feel
Scared To Approach Any Talk
Love The Way You Walk
How You Deal With Me
It's Obvious To See
You Ain't Anything But Nice
I Can Say That Honestly, Life
Was Meant To Be Lived
I'd Give You All Of Me
That I Could Give
In The Moment
I Swear You Told Em'
But It's All Good
I Just Wanna Feel That Love
Gives Me A Little Extra Push
Some Shove
To Do Better, Babe
They Can't Slow Me
I'm Just Doing Me
& I Know You Know I Like It
I Can Already See...

Reminds Me

If I Had What I Wanted
I'd Have You
It's True
I Did What I Did
Forgot Again
But Being With You
Reminds Me
How Much I Love You
Could Never Say It
Find The Words To Express
How You Make Me Feel
You Relieve My Stress
Am I Wrong For Loving This
I Hope You Feel The Same
Then Again
It's In Clear View
That I Like Being
Near You
Take Away The Pain
It Always Feels The Same
Pure Bliss
Shyness Takes Over My Brain
The Beautiful Rain
& I'm Loss For Words
You Leave Me Shaking
As If I Was Breaking
But Only For You
As If I Would Let Them Others In
Maybe I Would
Out Of Curiosity
But
On Your Status
I Been Wondering
You Ain't Ever Mad
& It's Just To Damn Bad
That It Is What It Is
This Heart That Speaks To You
You Don't Hear It
& To Let You Slip Away
Again I Fear It
Reminds Me
How Much I Loved You
& I Can't Let It Go
A Piece Of You Exists
In My Heart Forever More
Reminds Me
How Perfect It Could Have Been
But Now It's Just What It Is
Reminds Me
How Sweet Of A Person You Are
Reminds Me
How Good You Are To Me
Reminds Me
How Much You Seem To Care
Reminds Me
How I Wanted You 4 Me
Reminds Me
I'll Tell Them All
& You'll See
Pieces For You
Exist In Me
& I Could Let You
Take All You Deserve
Good Times, Priceless Memories
& One Of Us Out The Door
But Baby For You
You Could Have It All
Reminds Me
How Much I Want To Fall
In Love With You
Reminds Me
Nobody Can Do Me
Like You Do
Yeah, Your Voice
Reminds Me Of It All
All We Could Have
If It Were Like That
Remind Me Again Baby
Remind Me...