Down 4 Whatever

When I met you

You knew

I was down 4 whatever

When I met you

You knew

I would fall in love with you

When I met you

You knew

Love was easy for me

When I met you

You knew

You could take advantage

When I met you

You knew

I was easily played

When I met you

You knew

You could get away with things

When I met you

You knew

I have had my heart broken

When I met you

You knew

I loved you so much

Why would you game me

I would have done anything for you

I did everything I could for you

And yet still

Your interest grew cold

I would do anything to have you back

I'm down 4 whatever

I have this feeling

That you're not coming back

I miss you

I love you

At least you'll always know

I was the one

That was down 4 whatever

I was the one

That was down 4 you...

Muslim Conversation

Fahad: as for forgiveness, you may Ask Allah for forgiveness anytime
Fahad: while sitting or standing or at anytime
Fahad: you should ask for forgiveness from Allah for the sins you have done
Fahad: and that make an intention to quit them
you: thank you
Fahad: however even with that intention, if you do that sin again,
you should ask for forgiveness again
Fahad: since Allah tells us in the Quran to not loose hope in His mercy
Fahad: with that you should be regular with prayer
Fahad: and give it a priority
Fahad: it does not take that long

Sometimes distance creates a beautiful opportunity for creativity...

For some reason no matter what happens to me, I always find a way to write. A way to express myself with either a pen and a notebook, scrap paper or loose-leaf. More times the digital versions take over. I guess I am obsessed.The funny thing is I don't even care if anyone takes a read.It soothes my soul and honors my heart just to know I can write, and I will write.

Inspired by Drake and Kim Davis...

People get trapped in situations. They don't realize more times then often, it is at the fault of their own self. Walking into an ambush is a stupid thing to do, but if you don't know you're going to be ambushed how do you avoid what is about to happen? Honestly, success lies in strength. Strength to proceed no matter how tough the situation. Drake is good example of success. Regardless of the drama that surrounded him, he was able to over come the ambush. What a good guy. Kim Davis is another example. I am surprised she is not bigger than she is when it comes to radio play, personally I think its her choice of song. Number one priority is the best song I ever heard. She inspired me to escape the spider web of bad relationships I was getting myself into. She seems like the ultimate fit to the persona of a "replacement girl" for Drakes loss with the song I posted below. If you haven't heard number one priority then you gotta listen to it right now. It really inspired me to get my shit together, go over the top and find home like Dorothy in Wizard of Oz during this trench warfare bullshit I've been battling. Song long suckers, I won't be sucking like you anymore.

[ Kim Davis - #1 Priority | Drake - Closer to my Dreams ]

Inspired by Aaliyah, Nas and DMX...

Sometimes I wonder how life works. Some people live and thrive of bad deeds. I always wonder how fulfilling their lives are and how they feel when they wake up each day. Do they ever think of the people they are hurting? Do they ever ask for forgiveness? Do they ever stop and take time to pray? I once was told by a man I knew briefly, to look up at the sky and ask the stars for what I want, if I did that there would be no way the universe couldn't bring me what I wanted. I never actually took the time to do it and now a days, I have so much time to myself I should really get on it. Sheer determination, faith in the way of life, good morals and right mind is the only way one can achieve their goals. Simply put, if you don't have it you don't have it. When I was young and naive I always wanted selfish things, I lost my way along the path and it clearly says do not go astray from a plain path. I put my trust in the fact that if I can try and try again, there is no way I can fail. If I put my heart where my mouth is there is no way I can go back on my word. I want to help people for a living, not hurt them, and not hurt myself by hurting others which is not helping at all. My new out look in life is plain. Successful people deserve to be successful. Doesn't say much for myself. School is my obstacle and life is my teacher. Bring it on Professor.

[ Aaliyah - Try Again | Nas & DMX - Life is What You Make it ]

Inspired by Drake and Jasmine Sullivan...

Less time to say what I want. I am on a 15 minute limit. Always up to something, call me chicken at least I am not a pig, go figure you would love me through the word even if it's "on a friendship tip" type a-verb. Whether it's true or not his momma still knows me and I failed her. Shame to say I ain't been back in about 5, at least I'm still alive. All that really matters is our love existed and our good-bye consisted of "see you again soon." Where's the room for improvement if every time I had a G I spent it on clothes, just goes to show. I never bought a ticket, never sent a card, stopped calling but still kept you on your guard. Always calling you when I'm in trouble, you never have room to be mad because you miss me so much and all that we had. There's others that I loved but you were one of the first. I still keep your chains and I wonder if you keep my shirts. Damn it hurts, to know that I can just forget about those who I used to put first. My memory is getting better I stopped the Dro but that doesn't excuse the fact that back in the day when it came to you and me and life, I used to think slow. Love? What is love when it only made my heart ache. Whats good? When everything leads to heart-break? Watch the rain fall - there's a new King Rain - King Regin and he's BEEN in power. Just letting you know, regardless if you my General or not, I salute you Baby...

[ Drake - It's Been A Pleasure | Jasmine Sullivan - Midnight ]

Change Now or Change Never

Sexy is nice but what about class
I can see that you might just pass
We all want what we cant have
Degrading yourself for a mans attention is sad
Time we quit feeling’ sorry for ourselves
Real women know what the struggles about
Isn’t hard to tell money on your mind
Don't need no boy bugging me
Shit I’m living comfortably with mine.

Some women choose to follow men
Some choose to follow their dreams.
If you're wondering which way to go,
Remember that your career will never wake up
And tell you that it doesn't love you anymore.

Rmx Poerty - Change? That's on You

(Inspired by change now or change never)

Intro
If I had supernatural powers
I'd let the whole world know my truth
"That if I had a million dollars
I'd spend 8.9 on the youth"
Don't need much for myself
Might just spend it all on my fam
Tell em' flip it and
Save all that you can

Verse 1
Too many people dying
Over drugs and guns
In the streets
Too many children crying
And young ones catchin'
STD's in them sheets
I wish I could tell you
How underage ones be wilin'
Gettin' freaky from their first
Experiences feelin the heat
I'm not tryna change you
But change?
That's on you
Change is constant
And for now I just
Gotta do what I do

Chorus
I think we should break-up
Even if we're not together
We gotta break up
I'm not tryna change you
But change? That's on you

Verse 2
Tell me why are you doing this to us
Your supposed to be the one that I trust
I need you right here & right now
I'm yellin' and screaming so loud
Like tell me what is love without trust
You claim you love me but I don't need this
Gotta move on cause' we can't be this
I'm not tryna change you
But change?
That's on you
Change is constant
And for now I just
Gotta do what I do

Chorus
I think we should break-up
Even if we're not together
We gotta break up
I'm not tryna change you
But change? That's on you

Verse 3
Tell me what the f**** are you doing to us
You're supposed to be the one that I do trust
I never needed you right here & right now
Your yellin' and screaming so f****** loud
Tell me what is love without trust
You claim you need me but I don't need us
I gotta' move on cause' I need trust
I'm not trying to change you
but change?
That's on you
Change is constant
And for now I just
Gotta do what I do

Chorus
I think we should break-up
Even if we're not together
We gotta break up
I'm not tryna change you
But change? That's on you

Bridge
I want to love me like
Your bag, your clothes, your vest
The one that protects you from
The bullets that might
Blast through your chest
I want you to keep me on and
Make sure I'm close and tight
I want you to do me up proper
Keep me up and alive at night
I want to be compared to your
Moon and your stars
I wanna guide you
Keep light on you
Wherever you are

Chorus
I think we should break-up
Even if we're not together
We gotta break up
I'm not tryna change you
But change? That's on you

"Bridge dedicated to my true love."
"Verse 1, 2 and 3 dedicated to the Ex
That did me really really wrong."

Untitled

Changing myself up a little
Coming back with a bounce and a dribble
Can't stay too long in the paint
The ferocity of this game has me faint
I can't understand the world sometimes
I guess between love & hate there's a thin line
Boy you steady on my mind and in the media
I can't escape
I'm trying to tell you I love you
But I guess it's too late
They say there's always room for improvement
I'll tell you I definitely quit the smoking and the juicin'
I know it doesn't make a difference
To what's already been done
I am just patiently waiting and
Truly hoping that your the only one (for me.)

Inspired by Jagged Edge...

All I ever wanted was to get married. One small problem. Marriage isn't everything. There are a few contributing factors that are very important. The main one is a healthy and proper relationship between two people. A relationship that will last a life-time is very major. One would know this only by being with a person for a very long time. Communications between the two would have to be strong, the trust factor would have to be immense and the overall time spent would have to be happy. A good man is hard to find. Many try to break their women down on the first date so the connection is bound to be a loss by time the second or third date rolls around. I always hoped I would make a good wife to someone one day and I still know I will be. I am mainly focusing on school right now and sticking to the norm. I am sick of these thugs trying to break a sister down on the home-front. Don't you know it could have been much more if we communicated properly? I know there is love for me out there and I am willing to wait. I am willing to be patient. I know what is meant to be will come to be and I respect you on a 365 basis. 24 a day just know when you come I'll be ready. No more searching just surfing and make sure you head my way baby.

[ Jagged Edge - Married (Kanye Remix) ]

[ Jagged Edge - Married (Run DMC Remix) ]

The Times

You are always on my mind

& I can't find the time to get you off it

Staring at your pictures I'm lost

Love on blast with fire like a rocket

I guess this is just the way it is

I'll tell you I have one wish

& I just wish it would come true

So it could be just me and you

You tell me you don't remember the times we had

& This truly and deeply makes me sad

Cause' all I think about is how good it felt

To lay across your lap and be in your arms

You are the truth and I can't find the times...

I Miss You...

Your not here and I miss you

Wondering when you'll have the time

You are always on my mind

I wish I could hold you close

I wish I could get to know

The reasons why you hold back

I feel vulnerable from your attack

But your slack

And I love you still

Missing you constantly

Going in for the kill

Doesn't exist with you

Because you just brush it off

I wanna love you

My love doesn't stop

I miss you constantly

Whats a girl to do

When the same thing that makes her happy

Also makes her sad and blue...

Change 4 The Better...

I wanted you all for myself

It just seems like we can't be

I wanted you all for me

It just seems like your not ready

I hope your the one

That you'll change for the better

I give all my love to you

And so little I get in return

So many men waiting for me

And I only want you

It's time somebody took your place

But I just won't let them

I don't want to be a player no more

I don't want to be labelled a slut or a whore

My reputation is going to change

You won't catch me playing games

But you will see me change for the better

Making the right choices at the right time

You will see me getting and education

And volunteering in my spare time

I always only wanted you and him

You don't want me

And he's outta my league

Making millions I'm like baby please

Marry me, make me your wife for life

I wanna sleep next to you every night

What does the future hold

I will never know

You seen me grow

Watch what happens

When you find Allah

You change for the better

Like magic

Ta-dah...