Confessions...

At first, I admit I didn't know how to deal with you.
Felt like I had never been in a real relationship.
And believe me, I thought it was real with you.
The way you never were too far away.
I wondered if you knew, I was slowly going insane.
Unhappy with my life, crazy thoughts taking over my brain.
I loved you so much but I didn't know how to show it.
I guess you and me sometimes only knew how to be cold.
So instead of being that only one for you, I fell apart in front of you.
I became what I was running from, what I despised most.
Did things unimaginable for real reasons unknown.
I kept expecting you to save me, waiting and waiting, and waiting.
Leaving and running back to you not even sure if we were involved.
Certain things I love about you
And other things I just have to live with.
Always thinking of you, and then you went away and I was sad.
As time passed I came to realize, that space was what saved me.
I admit I went back to war a couple times
But I knew it wasn't the place for me.
I thought I'd never see you again,
I thought I lost you. I thought you hated me.
I almost hated you too, but how could I.
I never could have. Regardless.
You did somethings to me that hurt
And I probably did the same to you.
In the moment I didn't want to believe it,
I never thought it could be true.
I thought of you almost every day for a long time,
Dreamed of you too.
Now you're back and I don't know what to do.
I trust you, I really do. I love you.
I want us to be together but I'm worried.
I'm worried you won't take me seriously.
That you'll string me along.
I know I'm still growing.
Won't you grow with me.
I love you, stop holding yourself back.
Give me the energy to open up my heart to you.
Give me the time, always gotta go.
Always busy, you already know.
But Baby, I miss you do.
I'm down for you, let's go...
I wanna be your one and only
The last woman you'll ever fuck.
Let's do this.