Reactions...

How can we grow if you limit
The ways we interact to a certain setting.
Am I a fool for love?
Am I confused in love?
Do you even know what I think of?
I just hope as the earth warms
We grow closer and spend more time
Cause like you're always on my mind.
Well not always, but you know what I mean.
Oh if only you knew how I dream.
I'll be right here always ready to talk.
Say you'll think of me and won't stop.
Don't let go, no - not for a second in time.
Someday maybe you'll say you'll be mine.
I could just imagine you smiling,
Till the next time we meet.
Oh wouldn't it be sweet.
Anyways I'm just saying how I feel
I'm yours all day all night.
No one else compares, alright.
Hope that you truly know.
I wouldn't want to let you go.
I'll be with you babe,
Whether your high or low.
Emotions are emotions,
We eventually let them go.
I really want you to know
I have thing for you
& I just can't let it go.

Nothing Compares....

I sometimes wonder
Do you watch me
The way I watch you
Do you see me
Like how I see you
Are you curious about me
Like how I'm curious about you
Do you wonder
Like how I wonder
Do you dream
Look up at the stars
And the light beams
Do you contemplate
Like how I contemplate
You're smart
You're good looking
You've got it all
Happiness is a mindset
I just want to be free
Free from negativity
And wasted mind
I believe in you
That you can achieve anything
Like I said you have everything
But you don't have me
Or do you
I think you do
You got me
Got me good
I try and I try
But there's no denying
Your hold
I'm bold
I'll say it
I wish we would have waited
But what can we do
Do you love me cause I Love You.
Tell me if it's true
That you have feelings for me to
I just gotta know
& I do know
So should I just fall in line
When I've got you all in my mind
I'm trying to understand
How you got the upper hand
Maybe cause you're the man
& I'm the lady who doesn't want to share
Tryna be all you need cause no one else compare.

Deep Thoughts

For this moment in time I wonder. I wonder what you're up to and if you'll grow like how I grew. Or if I'll grow like how you grew. It truly amazes me to look at you because you're a creation, a beautiful creation. I sometimes wish on stars to find that certain person. I sometimes make other wishes for things to be as God wants them to be. It's hard for me to understand my past actions. I know these are things I cannot change and to come to terms I tell myself I was young, immature, naive, selfish, lonely, confused, sick, depressed, alone, scared and running. I had to grow out of those phases of my life. I have to tell myself I've grown to think differently, I can feel love now, I'm not as cold. I know now, that I know things. This is what I understand. Random.

A Thought

It's been a while
So much I want to say
But at the moment
I don't know how to say it
I think you know how I feel
Let's keep it that way
We can only grow closer
Time will tell

Sometimes I just want to delete my blog. I hope God can forgive me and that you can forgive me if I've ever wrote anything that hurt you. It hurts me, that's why I write. Xo.

Roses

Love Me Yes or Love Me Not You Told Me Once But I Forgot Say It Again & That You’ll Never Stop

Best Of Me...

Let me love you & never stop Come on babe lets take a walk You can take all that I have All that I've got

The Resistance

I'm always talking about you
How can I not, you're so dope
I need doses of you to get me high
I'm high off this life
I'm so happy to be with you
Yet so sad, cause you're not mine
Maybe with time
You'll grow with me
& We'll blossom
So beautiful
The both of us
Tell me in who
Do you trust
God
Give me the grace
To work things through
To feel it out
To let him do
&; To just let us be
I love when it's just You & Me

Escalators

I'll Wish On A Shooting Star For Me & You
& You're Right There The Whole Time
Standing There, So Close Yet So Far

Only ME Can Hold ME Back...

This year I'm not gonna cry
This year I'll stop asking why
This year I'll let go
This year I'll enjoy the snow
Cold like your heart
That tore us apart
No love for me anymore?
What the fuck was I with you for
Trying and trying to move on
Well I finally did it
I'm sorry I hid it
Shoulda yelled it to the world
I'm not his girl
But it's been like that for years
All those tears
Wasted on you
But This poem
Is not because I still love you
It's because you helped me
Helped me realize that I'm free
&  I deserve to be loved
& I deserve to know what true love is
& I deserve to be respected, treated right
Treated with love, unconditional love
So please, don't hold me back

Passive Aggression

I shouldn't have to deal with this
But this is what I got myself into
I love you, yes I do.
I wish you were fully mine.
Since time.

Let's Just Start Fresh

This new one is not so new
But I want him
What am I to do
When he knows the true, cold truth
No lies, what you put me through
Is all about self respect
Still have regrets
I'm always fuckin' up in your eyes
But what about in mine
Do you even know
How you make me feel sometimes
It's outta control
This level of compassion
I just keep giving and giving
But when I break for one second
You always catch me
Sometimes I need that
Are you willing to be that
Tell me you love me
Did you even mean that ?
Happy New Years Baby
Let's Just Start Fresh

Fuckin' Up

I know I have issues
We all do
Fuck this weak shit
What am I gonna do
Who can I talk to
What am I gonna say
Can I keep this all in
No Way
I gotta speak
I need to be heard
Can't you see
How much you mean to me
I don't wanna push you away
But you're already so far
Sometimes I wish on a star
For you and me
To be the best we can be
For us to grow closer, eventually
For now I just need to be strong
No more weed for the sing along
What's a girl to do
When the only thing she want'
Is to be with you !

Happy New Years Baby

I wanna give you my everything, my all
But it’s hard because you don’t recieve
The way I’d expect you to recieve
What am I supposed to believe
What you need
I hoped that you could find that
In me
Sometimes I fuck up
I hesitate, get neurvos
Get butterflies, heart fluxuates
Is it too late
Tell me we have all the time
All the time in this world to explore
Explore each other more
You think you know me
& You just might
I used to be one
To put up a fight
But for some years now
That’s the shit I don’t like
Loving you should be easy
& I’m not saying it’s hard
I just mean for a girl like me
To fall for a guy like you
Who’s not ready, who’s confused
Who knows whats good
So what are we gonna do
I should just keep giving my all
But it’s never enough
Shoulda took you up on that
Cause I know one day you’ll see
That I was made for you
& You were made for me

Truthfully Speaking...

It’s hard to loosen my grip, I've tried before. I wish we could do the opposite and just hold each other tight. You don’t have the time, I don’t have the time. What are we to do. Opportunities knocking at my door. Business to deal with. Chances to take. Fully emotional and growing still, realizing my dreams, trying to make them happen. Who are you to me and who am I to you, we know but we just don’t know. I want to make it right. I should have kissed you longer, maybe it would of made us stronger. What do we have now, or what we have now, tell me what it means to you. Tell me the truth.

Lessons

If ever I could open my mouth

And make sense

Sometimes I really don't know

This is Random

But I Need To Find Time

& Use It For The Better

Here We Go...