I'mma Write About It...

Choices to make
Cause your not firm
What I'mma do ?
I Guess I'll learn
Situations I put myself in
Over and over again...
Sweet Music comes
On the radio and I
Almost get high
Off the love
In the words
Of all that I deserve
I guess I'll truly learn
Love is not to be played with
Only to be cherished
Loosing half my mind
Growing out of my religion
Holding it close and dear
Every moment
Even a moment like this
Where you could be so near
But you're so far away
What can I say
Other than but
I think I love you
& I Don't want to loose this
I really wanna have you
But a chance for some fun
I just might do this...
Why.. cause your not firm
With a girl like me you gotta learn
That you gotta just do what you gotta do
Cause not matter how you feel
When it comes to you
It always I love you...
Yes...

Still Wanna...

I'm tryna find this girl named Armani
I lost her long ago
So many years have passed
Oh how she's grown
Always running from her problems
Well one of these days she gotta solve em
Always hoping for the better
Writing her suitors poetic love letters
Of all the places she could hide
Seems she found a place deep inside
Her own self and she's scared
For the future she better be prepared
Because she's 23 now, not 12
Almost fully grown & you can tell
She always just wanted that perfect love life
Took pride in herself knowing she could be a good wife
Haven't found the one but I guess it takes time
Got someone on my mind & I wish he was all mine
I guess Miss Armani just gotta live good
Prepare for the future as any person would
I cut a lot of people off and pushed them away
Other than "I'm sorry" theres not much more to say...
So forgive me and love me or hate me
At the end of the day I still wanna be your lady...

Random Thoughts...

I need to know where we stand
I miss holding your hand
Want you more and more and
I swear it's not lust
You're the only one I trust
Come closer babe
Let me feel your soul
At the end of every day
It's You I wanna hold
Past relationships left me cold
But you warm my heart
You play the perfect part
Sweet harmonies to my ear
Every time I feel you near
I wish you felt the same
Somewhere in that beautiful brain
You must know who I am to you
I wish you'd share your truths
Last times were always to short
You're my favorite sport
I never wanna leave your side
I'm honest to myself when I say I love you so
I'm being honest to you when I say I don't wanna let go
Fiction in my mind that creates a dream state
I'm early for you babe, could never be late...

A Quick Look... (Tutu)

Just one look at you
& I undedrstand why
Everytime I think of us
I cry
Past memories
Can't deny
You did me really long
Can't deny
Obvious reasons
You too slick
No ones knows
& Your click
Love to keep secrets
& You hide
Behind that smile
Haven't seen you in months
& You still front
I know what you're up to
Only secrets & games
I'm used to your lame
Old shit
Always another bitch
There in your whip
Used to love you the same
This shit is lame
Seen you smile & I love it
Can't Keep Quiet
Heat is beautiful
Gotta let you go
Hurts but its so
So here we go
On with life
Wanna be your wife
Won't see you today again
Won't see you tonight...

Close To My Heart...

Your not officially mine
But you kiss me
Every time you leave
I just hope you miss me
I'd beat a bitch down
Just to protect you
Every night I dream
I could never forget you
You`re so special to me
Different than all the rest
To me you`re perfect
Better than all of the rest
When I speak I don`t lie
Well maybe a little
Truth is I want you for myself
To have & to hold
Through sickness & in health
Is is wrong for me to love you so much
I swear right now you`re the only one I trust
Just to hold you, see you with my eyes
Is such a blessing, if you were to go I`d cry
I need you by my side
But only if it`s meant to be
Because you babe...
You got a hold over me...
So for now I`ll just go slow
Let you choose your roads
You`re so far in reality
But you feel so close
In time maybe you`ll change
But I`ll still love you if you remain the same
Only you can numb this pain
That I feel lately
Your old bitches might hate me
Because I promise to do you right
Be the one that`s there for you
At the end of every night
Take flight
Oh the places we could go
Truth is I love you so
Please tell me babe
Tell me you don`t have to go
If I could hold you a little longer
Maybe our love would grow stronger
& You would realize I`m for real
Don`t be afraid to open up
Tell me how you feel...
You already stole my heart
Now I guess I just gotta play the part
Truth is I would love to be your wife
Damn babe, wouldn`t that be nice...
Heart was cold like ice
You contributed to the melting
You know you`re right
Never out of spite
Only out of love for you
So many things that I would do
Speaking tongues ain`t right
& With you I don`t ever wanna fight
Just lay down the laws & I``ll follow
Without you this heart of mine is hollow
So Holla If You Hear Me
Babe, You`re So Dear To Me...

So Let Me Know

Sweet Addictions
So Afflicting
Who am I kidding
Only myself
I can truly help
Before helping others
You Gotta
Love Yourself
First, Is what I've Learned
Sweet Lessons
Have Me Guessing
Feel like he's testing
Such a Blessing
To Get Over
Certain Shit
I Feel it Hit
My Heart Tingles
Glows, Warms
No More Icey Storms
Feels Like Home
Only In Your Arms
Who Are You To Me
& My Mother Warns
Such a Twisted Fidelity
To Be With You
Is On my Mind
Most Definitely
If It Was a Party
I Hope You'd Be The One
That Left With Me
So True
If I Had To
I Really Would
So Let Me
Know Babe
If It's Really Good...

But Only If You... Down....

Another Year Older
As You Rest On My Shoulders
I'm Hoping These Moments Ain't Over
As Soon As You Leave I Feel Colder
Like You Warmed Me For a Minute
Is You In It To Win It
Or Just For Cause
They All Give Applause
But I'm Hopin' For That Real Love
That "I Know How You Feel..." Love
As I Mature
I'm Nothing But Sure
That You're What I Need
Hopefully You'll See
I Think You Were Made For Someone Like Me
How Could This Be
Something So Beautiful In Front Of Me
I'm All Full Of Glee
You Make Me Feel Ways
I Been Feelin' It For Days
Same Time, Another Place
I'll Be Seeing You Face To Face
& Once Again
We Can Feel Each Others Embrace
But Only If You... Down....

The Jazz Bird

I Wish You Would Bless Me
With Your Presence
Now All I Have Are These Remnants
Sweet Memories
Will It Ever Be Again
Only Time Will Tell...
You Swooped In
Did What You Did & Flew
I Find It Hard To Move On
Because All These Men
They Ain't You...

Evermore Aware (Think of Something)

I used to be unaware of my surroundings
Living my life
Sometimes doing things
That were just not right
Learning valuable lessons
Acting on urge
Asking no questions
Coming to feel empty
Mad & Wrong
How do I better myself?
Well, I gotta be strong
If any one ever asked you
I'd probably be down no lie
Still as I sit back and let out a sigh
The only way to get over this illness
Is to move on from the past, realness
Has to be my only option
I wished you were watchen'
When I slowly improved myself
Though I needed your help
Maybe I did
When I was with you
A part of me, I hid
Of all that I would give
I hope you feel what I felt

A R.E.M (Dream) Reminder...

(I'm Just Being Honest.)
Things are just the way they are
It's been so long since you been gone
Feels like yesterday you held me close
I know I did things to push you away
I always wish you could forgive me, anyway
I tried to hold on but now it seems useless
You're just a ghost
Figment of my mind
Still attached to my heart
I miss the times
Feeling so protected
Yet you let me
How could you
I guess I made it that way
Letting the memories fade away
Deep in a sleep
R.E.M. Mode
You creep
& To see your sweet face
I weep
Cause we are no longer
I wished I could have had you longer
But to me, you were the longest
Baby, boy, I'm just being honest...

For The One (Whoever He Might Be)

Don't you know how you make me feel
Like I can truly be myself
Sadness Cause I feel you don't feel me
Half afraid to give you all I have
It's a lust thing and it's just too damn bad
Cause I'm down to love you
For a real long time
I wished you loved me
& That I could see you all the time
But actions have consequences
This is life, its for real all the time
Such a shame though
Cause' I got you on my mind
Forever and a day couldn't erase
The thoughts I feel out of haste
Maybe I should have done this
Maybe I should have done that
I still loved  how you react
Face to face it's peaches
But far apart we're speachless
Damn, I know we don't need this
So you make it easy
& Just let it pass
But I'm like
When did he reply last
& Then it splits
& Takes over another
& The feeling is so similar
How do I categorize it
Is this what it is & I realize it
I'm always wanting it
But can never decide
So which one is going to be ready
To be down & grasp that side
Cause trust me, I need a ride
& Not one time, drive me
But something for life...

Go For It ?

I look into the past and I've made mistakes
Also met some great men that made my heart break
To better myself even more, how much will it take
Now that its only me what is there to do
Each and every day how can I improve
So much to gain, so much to loose
So much I could do without, its true
Still totally confused
Need that affection
To heal that everlasting bruise
Gotta get through
Needing more contemplation
Having thoughts, not embracing them
Time eventually erases them
& They linger with pain
Its always the same
How do I refrain
From actions without thought
After so much I sought
Only to find an ember
How much longer will the smoke linger
As I grow I have to know
That this too shall pass
& That over flowing glass
Will soon quench my thirst
As right now it leaves me asking
But the only answer is don't worry
About the past, don't worry
About the future
Just worry about now
& Care for yourself now
Don't be asking anybody how
Just go for it, babe....

I Don't Know Where We Stand But I Think I Love You...

Do I Give Too Little ?
& Ask For More In Return
Expect You To Understand
How When I Think Of You
It Burns
Wish I Could Express
Without Being Cold
Cause You Have A Piece Of Me
I Already Told
You, You On My Mind
Now I'm Scared To Loose
Had My Options
& I Chose
More Regrets To Live With
Beautiful But Painful, Like a Rose
What Am I To You
Just Another Hoe ?
Or A Beautiful Lost Girl
Just Tryna Grow ?
I Already Know
You May Not Want Me
But You Feel So Right
Is This Really Life
How Could This Be
You Ignoring Me
Hurts My Heart
I Guess It Is What It Is
I'll Just Play My Part...

Surely...

Surely
You Know
Oh
All Of The Things
Things I'd Do
Just For You
Too Bad It's So
Cause' I Wouldn't Have Let You Go
It's A Blessing To Feel You Close
Take A Shot For Me
Let's Toast...

Organizing

What am I to do
Seriously Confused
Got a Few Thing'
On my mind
Comes To Question
Time After Time
Whats the Reason
Why Do I have it so
Can't Stay, Can't go
Need More
But I Love You So
Options
Organizing My Life
Getting Ready for School
Wanna Be Someone's Wife
Who's It Gonna Be
Eventually It Will Come
Who Knows Where From
Sent From God
Hopefully
That True Kind of Love
That's Good For You & Me
Mutually
No Questions Asked
You are the Task
Empty My Flask
Only To Love You Down
The Conversations Grounds
For Whatever It May Be
That Show's Each Other
How The Other One Be
Surly You'll Find
I Was Made To Love You
& You Were Made To Love Me
Whoever That May Be
Whenever That May Be
I Pray You Don't Go
To Far Away From Me
I Wanna Hold You Close
Perfect Blue Sky On My Mind
You Know I'd Spend The Time
Organizing Through These Thoughts
I Think Your Worth More Than
Anything I Ever Bought
Hope You Know How I Feel
Scared To Approach Any Talk
Love The Way You Walk
How You Deal With Me
It's Obvious To See
You Ain't Anything But Nice
I Can Say That Honestly, Life
Was Meant To Be Lived
I'd Give You All Of Me
That I Could Give
In The Moment
I Swear You Told Em'
But It's All Good
I Just Wanna Feel That Love
Gives Me A Little Extra Push
Some Shove
To Do Better, Babe
They Can't Slow Me
I'm Just Doing Me
& I Know You Know I Like It
I Can Already See...

Reminds Me

If I Had What I Wanted
I'd Have You
It's True
I Did What I Did
Forgot Again
But Being With You
Reminds Me
How Much I Love You
Could Never Say It
Find The Words To Express
How You Make Me Feel
You Relieve My Stress
Am I Wrong For Loving This
I Hope You Feel The Same
Then Again
It's In Clear View
That I Like Being
Near You
Take Away The Pain
It Always Feels The Same
Pure Bliss
Shyness Takes Over My Brain
The Beautiful Rain
& I'm Loss For Words
You Leave Me Shaking
As If I Was Breaking
But Only For You
As If I Would Let Them Others In
Maybe I Would
Out Of Curiosity
But
On Your Status
I Been Wondering
You Ain't Ever Mad
& It's Just To Damn Bad
That It Is What It Is
This Heart That Speaks To You
You Don't Hear It
& To Let You Slip Away
Again I Fear It
Reminds Me
How Much I Loved You
& I Can't Let It Go
A Piece Of You Exists
In My Heart Forever More
Reminds Me
How Perfect It Could Have Been
But Now It's Just What It Is
Reminds Me
How Sweet Of A Person You Are
Reminds Me
How Good You Are To Me
Reminds Me
How Much You Seem To Care
Reminds Me
How I Wanted You 4 Me
Reminds Me
I'll Tell Them All
& You'll See
Pieces For You
Exist In Me
& I Could Let You
Take All You Deserve
Good Times, Priceless Memories
& One Of Us Out The Door
But Baby For You
You Could Have It All
Reminds Me
How Much I Want To Fall
In Love With You
Reminds Me
Nobody Can Do Me
Like You Do
Yeah, Your Voice
Reminds Me Of It All
All We Could Have
If It Were Like That
Remind Me Again Baby
Remind Me...