Such a situation
I remember each word you said.
Said you'll never stray.
Well, Baby I won't sway.
I Love You, Each and every day.
Is that too strong of me to say.
Cause I'll never really know if you do.
Unless you tell me, but eventually you gotta choose.
Can't repeat some things that you mentioned.
Those couple years, in hindsight it was like detention.
Silent intervention. Maybe loud.
I'm not proud.
& I'm stronger now.
Never knowing, but knowing.
I guess I have time to focus on myself.
Maybe one day, you'll feel eager to help.
But for now I'll hold on to what we have.
& Never take it for granted, I could never be mad.
Because I've done some things to you too.
I'm so easy to forgive, I'd hope you would treat me the same.
Because people make mistakes, I'm just saying.
We learn so I'd hope you wouldn't do it again.
Pain is, you probably would. & I wouldn't.
Something I would but when it comes to sharing...
My time, mind, body and life. The person has to be right.
Fuck what you heard, or what you think you saw.
This is what it is for me. Respect it or... Walk.
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Monday, June 3, 2013
I Hope You Know...
Never Been
Never Had
Couple Tears
Hard To Grasp
All I Want
Is You & Me
Together Forever
I Don't Wanna Lie
I'll Cut Off Them Other Guys
Don't Know What To Say
Or What To Do
Gotta Think It Through
& I Know
What I Wanna Do
No One Compares
But Let's Not Play
Truth Or Dare
Cold Stare
Or Maybe A Smile
Still Love It
Take Me Over
Do Your Thing
Let Me Be Yours
Whatever Time Brings
I Hope We'll Grow
I Love You
& I Hope You Know.
Never Had
Couple Tears
Hard To Grasp
All I Want
Is You & Me
Together Forever
I Don't Wanna Lie
I'll Cut Off Them Other Guys
Don't Know What To Say
Or What To Do
Gotta Think It Through
& I Know
What I Wanna Do
No One Compares
But Let's Not Play
Truth Or Dare
Cold Stare
Or Maybe A Smile
Still Love It
Take Me Over
Do Your Thing
Let Me Be Yours
Whatever Time Brings
I Hope We'll Grow
I Love You
& I Hope You Know.
Saturday, June 1, 2013
Reminded
Certain things were forgotten in my mindset, in my life, in my heart, key elements. You reminded me without words and then with words. You were there when life brightened a little more for me but we were in darkness. I was lost and struggling knowing which path I needed to get back to, which path I needed to find, the straight path. You came into my life and reminded me. Reminded me that I deserve the best. Reminded me that I deserve what’s right and that I have a choice and again, life brightened for me. Still I made a lot of mistakes and you stayed around. Reminding me how I need to do better, a lot better. It’s been so long and I’ve been so good. You always catch me when I need to be caught. Reminding me again that I can do better, need to do better and I will do better. I would probably do my best with you by my side. My goal of every minute of every day is to do my best without hesitation. I can only hope and pray that you never get to far away because every time you come my way I’m reminded. Love is not something you take, it’s given.
Always Be You...
Always busy but I know,
I’d do anything for you.
I really would, and it’s bad
Down for you, I used to get mad.
Now I guess I understand,
Maybe I forgive too easy,
Give you the upper hand,
You know how I am.
You know I want you to be that man.
I have no other plans.
It’s always been you.
Fresh start, same heart.
Say you’ll mend it.
You tore it apart.
So cold, you make me wanna.
Every time, I’m getting calmer.
Must be the age, or karma.
Cause I used to be
Surrounded with drama.
All I need is you.
Tell me that you’ll come through
And elevate me, like you always do.
I think I still love you,
I know it’s true.
If anyone ever asked me,
It would always be you.
I’d do anything for you.
I really would, and it’s bad
Down for you, I used to get mad.
Now I guess I understand,
Maybe I forgive too easy,
Give you the upper hand,
You know how I am.
You know I want you to be that man.
I have no other plans.
It’s always been you.
Fresh start, same heart.
Say you’ll mend it.
You tore it apart.
So cold, you make me wanna.
Every time, I’m getting calmer.
Must be the age, or karma.
Cause I used to be
Surrounded with drama.
All I need is you.
Tell me that you’ll come through
And elevate me, like you always do.
I think I still love you,
I know it’s true.
If anyone ever asked me,
It would always be you.
Friday, May 24, 2013
Moments, Mistakes & Memories....
I love you
You mean everything to me
And more
I love you
You're the only one I adore.
But I gotta know
Could you love me for me
Could you see past the mistakes?
Past my previous loneliness & heartache.
How much would it take?
I swear I told you once,
When I was all alone
In my warm little home.
That I'd prove to you I've changed
Make you call my name
Nothing was the same
You were always playing games
Making me go insane
Catching me off guard,
Not calling when you should.
All I know is I would
Do anything for you.
Anything you ask...
What slows me is
You're always busy.
I used to weep.
Now as I sleep.
I dream of you
And I keep
A picture of you in my mind.
Even when the sun don't shine.
You put a smile on my face.
Visions of you grabbing my waist.
It's been so long, you left me in this place.
Come home Baby, I wanna see your face.
You mean everything to me
And more
I love you
You're the only one I adore.
But I gotta know
Could you love me for me
Could you see past the mistakes?
Past my previous loneliness & heartache.
How much would it take?
I swear I told you once,
When I was all alone
In my warm little home.
That I'd prove to you I've changed
Make you call my name
Nothing was the same
You were always playing games
Making me go insane
Catching me off guard,
Not calling when you should.
All I know is I would
Do anything for you.
Anything you ask...
What slows me is
You're always busy.
I used to weep.
Now as I sleep.
I dream of you
And I keep
A picture of you in my mind.
Even when the sun don't shine.
You put a smile on my face.
Visions of you grabbing my waist.
It's been so long, you left me in this place.
Come home Baby, I wanna see your face.
Confessions...
At first, I admit I didn't know how to deal with you.
Felt like I had never been in a real relationship.
And believe me, I thought it was real with you.
The way you never were too far away.
I wondered if you knew, I was slowly going insane.
Unhappy with my life, crazy thoughts taking over my brain.
I loved you so much but I didn't know how to show it.
I guess you and me sometimes only knew how to be cold.
So instead of being that only one for you, I fell apart in front of you.
I became what I was running from, what I despised most.
Did things unimaginable for real reasons unknown.
I kept expecting you to save me, waiting and waiting, and waiting.
Leaving and running back to you not even sure if we were involved.
Certain things I love about you
And other things I just have to live with.
Always thinking of you, and then you went away and I was sad.
As time passed I came to realize, that space was what saved me.
I admit I went back to war a couple times
But I knew it wasn't the place for me.
I thought I'd never see you again,
I thought I lost you. I thought you hated me.
I almost hated you too, but how could I.
I never could have. Regardless.
You did somethings to me that hurt
And I probably did the same to you.
In the moment I didn't want to believe it,
I never thought it could be true.
I thought of you almost every day for a long time,
Dreamed of you too.
Now you're back and I don't know what to do.
I trust you, I really do. I love you.
I want us to be together but I'm worried.
I'm worried you won't take me seriously.
That you'll string me along.
I know I'm still growing.
Won't you grow with me.
I love you, stop holding yourself back.
Give me the energy to open up my heart to you.
Give me the time, always gotta go.
Always busy, you already know.
But Baby, I miss you do.
I'm down for you, let's go...
I wanna be your one and only
The last woman you'll ever fuck.
Let's do this.
Felt like I had never been in a real relationship.
And believe me, I thought it was real with you.
The way you never were too far away.
I wondered if you knew, I was slowly going insane.
Unhappy with my life, crazy thoughts taking over my brain.
I loved you so much but I didn't know how to show it.
I guess you and me sometimes only knew how to be cold.
So instead of being that only one for you, I fell apart in front of you.
I became what I was running from, what I despised most.
Did things unimaginable for real reasons unknown.
I kept expecting you to save me, waiting and waiting, and waiting.
Leaving and running back to you not even sure if we were involved.
Certain things I love about you
And other things I just have to live with.
Always thinking of you, and then you went away and I was sad.
As time passed I came to realize, that space was what saved me.
I admit I went back to war a couple times
But I knew it wasn't the place for me.
I thought I'd never see you again,
I thought I lost you. I thought you hated me.
I almost hated you too, but how could I.
I never could have. Regardless.
You did somethings to me that hurt
And I probably did the same to you.
In the moment I didn't want to believe it,
I never thought it could be true.
I thought of you almost every day for a long time,
Dreamed of you too.
Now you're back and I don't know what to do.
I trust you, I really do. I love you.
I want us to be together but I'm worried.
I'm worried you won't take me seriously.
That you'll string me along.
I know I'm still growing.
Won't you grow with me.
I love you, stop holding yourself back.
Give me the energy to open up my heart to you.
Give me the time, always gotta go.
Always busy, you already know.
But Baby, I miss you do.
I'm down for you, let's go...
I wanna be your one and only
The last woman you'll ever fuck.
Let's do this.
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Saturday, April 27, 2013
Patience (W24TN)
I should have told you
I missed your voice
I should have told you
I wanna hold you tight
I know we know it's been so long
& I know we know what we both did wrong
I'm wondering, waiting, thinking that my phone should ring
I have no idea what your up to, where you're at,
You tell me nothing, as a matter a' fact
& I still wonder.
Is this right?
Do you love me still?
What do you want?
Could this work?
Are you really down for me?
Will you call me today?
Are you close by my hood?
Do you know what's good?
Are you gonna come swoop me up.
You already know I don't give a fuck.
Baby, I'm down..
& I need you around.
You really do somethin' for me.
Never your last chance, but
Baby you're all I need.
You're more than good company.
Maybe it'll never work or maybe
I won't ever have to think twice.
♥
I missed your voice
I should have told you
I wanna hold you tight
I know we know it's been so long
& I know we know what we both did wrong
I'm wondering, waiting, thinking that my phone should ring
I have no idea what your up to, where you're at,
You tell me nothing, as a matter a' fact
& I still wonder.
Is this right?
Do you love me still?
What do you want?
Could this work?
Are you really down for me?
Will you call me today?
Are you close by my hood?
Do you know what's good?
Are you gonna come swoop me up.
You already know I don't give a fuck.
Baby, I'm down..
& I need you around.
You really do somethin' for me.
Never your last chance, but
Baby you're all I need.
You're more than good company.
Maybe it'll never work or maybe
I won't ever have to think twice.
♥
Best Present Ever ? (M30TN)
Best Present Ever?
More like a trial version...
With complications and
Holds and obligations
And my frustrations,
Didn't mean shit to you.
You didn't give a fuck.
Oh look at you. Taste of
my own mixture at it's finest.
I just hope you know...
You were once mine,
For a moment in time.
It all felt so right.
Having you close,
To me at night.
First nigga I went
Old school with.
Long kisses at 24.
Holding hands and
I once adored
Everything bout you,
Now I hate it.
Think your cold and
Crazy, happy Belated.
Got love for you still.
Think you fine as fuck.
You already know whats up.
Unfortunately you found her.
Left me be and an then another
Rediscovered me. And then another.
Where are the words to say.
It's cold how men and women play.
All in a day's work.
You chose her
And yeah it hurts.
For what it's worth...
You make me smile
& Used to ease the hurt.
1 Love and If Its 1 Life
Then friends who don't talk is aight....
More like a trial version...
With complications and
Holds and obligations
And my frustrations,
Didn't mean shit to you.
You didn't give a fuck.
Oh look at you. Taste of
my own mixture at it's finest.
I just hope you know...
You were once mine,
For a moment in time.
It all felt so right.
Having you close,
To me at night.
First nigga I went
Old school with.
Long kisses at 24.
Holding hands and
I once adored
Everything bout you,
Now I hate it.
Think your cold and
Crazy, happy Belated.
Got love for you still.
Think you fine as fuck.
You already know whats up.
Unfortunately you found her.
Left me be and an then another
Rediscovered me. And then another.
Where are the words to say.
It's cold how men and women play.
All in a day's work.
You chose her
And yeah it hurts.
For what it's worth...
You make me smile
& Used to ease the hurt.
1 Love and If Its 1 Life
Then friends who don't talk is aight....
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
♥ The Inside (The Heart....)
Anytime you need me I'll be there
Tell you fuck them hoez, I'm the one who cares.
Don't you ever stop doing what you do.
Chillin', Drinkin' There with your Crew.
On an off day, you wear the perfect shade of blue.
And to me, back then the underworld was all new.
So young, needed you more, people fuckin' with me too.
All I ever wanted was to be there, be good to you.
Lost you but look what you gained.
Similar to the cars and money and the fame.
You acquired the stature of a true gentlemen in the game.
Lookin' at you I see the young you, you know what I'm sayin'.
People grow, they make mistakes, could you forgive me?
For in this moment I almost feel like I have never known.
Never known, that it's not just something you take, it's given.
& I CAN honestly say, I'm not proud of the life I used to be living.
Please don't stop. Just do what you do best.
& When the ones you can't trust come around, put em' to test.
I understand babe, I really do. I'm sorry. I hope you're sorry too.
All the shit he put me through, led me to - rediscover you.
Scared of you cause I'm ashamed of my past.
I hope every bitch you been with, It didn't last.
& If she ain't right, you better get from her, fast.
I know its been a long time coming but
All those other guys were practise
Constantly thirsty, making passes.
If you the teacher, I'm takin' classes.
Cause I'm really interested, on how...
How you plan to change the world for the better.
Rollin' round with that well known label on your sweater.
If I ever run into you, I hope you know, you better forget her.
All I can say is I'm really into you & I can't let it go.
I loved how we took it fast but yet so slow.
People change preferences over time, no shame.
& To choose her over me is lame.
But I hope you take this letter...
That is supposed to resurface the memories of the past.
The feeling and the moments, oh how I wish it would last.
Cause you're so far from me, I may never see you.
So I hope you take this letter...
& Understand the magnitude of my apology.
Ride or Die for life, but only for my Man.
You were that man. So holla... if they don't do it like me.
This is from my heart, I hope my main point was obvious.
Maybe we're not meant for eachother but you must know.
How much I care about what's on the inside, babe.
The inside.....
(Random Freestyle Poem over Drake's "Girls Like Beyonce.")
Tell you fuck them hoez, I'm the one who cares.
Don't you ever stop doing what you do.
Chillin', Drinkin' There with your Crew.
On an off day, you wear the perfect shade of blue.
And to me, back then the underworld was all new.
So young, needed you more, people fuckin' with me too.
All I ever wanted was to be there, be good to you.
Lost you but look what you gained.
Similar to the cars and money and the fame.
You acquired the stature of a true gentlemen in the game.
Lookin' at you I see the young you, you know what I'm sayin'.
People grow, they make mistakes, could you forgive me?
For in this moment I almost feel like I have never known.
Never known, that it's not just something you take, it's given.
& I CAN honestly say, I'm not proud of the life I used to be living.
Please don't stop. Just do what you do best.
& When the ones you can't trust come around, put em' to test.
I understand babe, I really do. I'm sorry. I hope you're sorry too.
All the shit he put me through, led me to - rediscover you.
Scared of you cause I'm ashamed of my past.
I hope every bitch you been with, It didn't last.
& If she ain't right, you better get from her, fast.
I know its been a long time coming but
All those other guys were practise
Constantly thirsty, making passes.
If you the teacher, I'm takin' classes.
Cause I'm really interested, on how...
How you plan to change the world for the better.
Rollin' round with that well known label on your sweater.
If I ever run into you, I hope you know, you better forget her.
All I can say is I'm really into you & I can't let it go.
I loved how we took it fast but yet so slow.
People change preferences over time, no shame.
& To choose her over me is lame.
But I hope you take this letter...
That is supposed to resurface the memories of the past.
The feeling and the moments, oh how I wish it would last.
Cause you're so far from me, I may never see you.
So I hope you take this letter...
& Understand the magnitude of my apology.
Ride or Die for life, but only for my Man.
You were that man. So holla... if they don't do it like me.
This is from my heart, I hope my main point was obvious.
Maybe we're not meant for eachother but you must know.
How much I care about what's on the inside, babe.
The inside.....
(Random Freestyle Poem over Drake's "Girls Like Beyonce.")
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Today's Drama
Tried to hard to make you see how you make me feel. I don't understand why you''re not receptive to it. I'm almost ready to give up. Then you make me forget all the bad and crush on you for the good. I wish I would, just bitch you out and tell you what's real. Tell you how I feel. I'm not supposed to give a fuck? That's how you act. Swear you're what I need and If I'm being selfish then God, please let it play out and disperse. I need this verse, to let you know... To open my mind. To free my complicated thoughts. It's been so long, you silenced me. Will I ever be the same again or have I just grown. I'm all alone, single... Only fucking you. What's good. Be real with me. Anyways, no one reads this shit so I gotta vent. I'll leave this for myself to reflect on later. Ciao for Now.
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Again
I'm Scared
I'ts Happening Again
I'm Loosing Focus
Boo You Dopeness
& I'm Wondering
How Could You Do Me Like That
I Gave It All To You
No Questions Asked
& Where Are We Now
Look What We Did
Look What You've Done
Look What I Did
You Fittin To Run
I'm Fittin To Say I Won
I Don't Wanna Ever Leave You
Or Make You Mad
Don't Go
I'ts Happening Again
I'm Loosing Focus
Boo You Dopeness
& I'm Wondering
How Could You Do Me Like That
I Gave It All To You
No Questions Asked
& Where Are We Now
Look What We Did
Look What You've Done
Look What I Did
You Fittin To Run
I'm Fittin To Say I Won
I Don't Wanna Ever Leave You
Or Make You Mad
Don't Go
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